189.6 today :) | meal + thinspo

also made coffee

                                           

                                                

fasted yesterday (Sept 28)

 had a bad week after my 3 day fast, only one good day of that week and i ended up back at 196.4 :/ but i’ve been doing my IF plan for 3 days and have lost 5.4 lbs in total so i’m down to 191.0 c: hope to see 189 by the end of it

disappointed in myself tho bc that week i wasted could’ve been the driving force that allowed me to reach 184 by Oct 1... now? it’s for sure not happening, lol. i’ll get 188 at best.

thinspooo

 

feel like i’m losing my grip on my control...

 i need to hold onto it and have self-discipline weighed in at 192.2 this morning :/

thinspo

 

189.4 this morning!

 I JUST finished my 72 hour fast!!!! I may gain weight tomorrow from eating, but that’s ok

honestly i’m just rlly proud of myself for making it this far..

i kinda tortured myself a little by watching so many food videos when i said i wouldn’t, but it’s ok

Gosh, if i can go 3 days w/o eating at all, why is it so hard for me to go 3 hours in between meals without snacking? lol.

embarking on a 72 hour fast

fasted yesterday, woke up at 194.6(-1.8) and i’m gonna fast again until thursday 6:00 pm :3

mirror, i promise you one day, you will see a thin body reflecting back at you.

 

i’m over this.

maybe i need a new scale. idk.

maybe i need to eat less. idk.

all i know is that i’m sick of putting in the work and getting pitiful numbers  

i’m sick of shit never going my way