june 19
- egg sandwich
- noodles
- 2 slices of pizza, 1 pc cinnabon
- 1 bite of chicken from the chicken rice bowl
- 1 pc cinnabon (2 total, mini tiny size btw)
- 2 tiny bites of chicken sides
exercise: morning walk w/ parents (only 1 round), evening walk (only planned on going/went up to the light stop as i left too late)
june 20
*plan*
lunch: avocado toast (300 cals), bowl of strawberries & grapes(~64 cals?) 1 1/2 water bottle OR 2 cups of tea
- ate toast with burger bred cuz it was all that was available, did not do the tea or bottled water bc there wasn’t any. i however did drink water from seven leaves, does that count? [~344 cals]
--outing--
7 leaves: 1 pm to 5 pm (left at 4:30)
vyvanse @ 4pm
9pm: chicken bowl + 2 pc chicken sides from yesterday (if ur appetite returns, continue fast if not) - {ate after i returned home so around 5pm, finished just before vyvanse could kick in} [~380 cals]
- chewed on spoon later in night to counteract cravings even while still feeling the vyvanse. was thinking how i could do a “meet halfway” method by implementing light doses of stimulants + chewing fidgeting for craving suppression
extra: peanut brittle pieces[~160] i nabbed from dad’s livingroom, vyvanse kicked in just as i was about to start snacking on them lol, took a bite of one after i felt it but knew it was over… ate the pieces later at night tho, diet pepsi
total: ~884 /600-1,600
impromptu weigh-in after scale’s batteries were replaced: 204.6(?) in dad’s living room, 207.6(?) in grandma’s bedroom. both clothed after eating lunch
how far i’ve fallen :/
june 21
*plan*
lunch: banana oatmeal, 1 boiled egg
in b/t meal: chew spoon as fidget ✅
snack: chicken rice bowl OR pb & j
in b/t meal: chew spoon as fidget
dinner: 1/2 grapefruit + lean cuisine OR tuna & crackers
in b/t meal: chew spoon as fidget
9pm: grapes & strawberries, apple OR tangerine(if one of the fruits isn't viable)
in b/t meal: chew spoon as fidget
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weight: 201.6 (-3.0 or -6.0 if u wanna count the weigh-in in dad's living [not accurate tho lol...unless?] )
execution:
lunch: banana oatmeal (195)✅
went to church with parents for father's day so ofc i'm going to blame that for me ruining my plan. started getting cravings around 2pm-ish? knew i wouldn't be home for some hours since we were going to visit chidi. next time to plan, i'll either take vyvanse/a strong coffee, or bring packaged food to eat with me. or i'll actually try to white knuckle it or even utilize visualization.
- rice w/ meat (basically ate like an animal), meat pie (~400-500)
- fanta soda (~100)
- peanut brittle (~200)
- hot cheeto fries (150)
- 3 pcs of bacon (~100)
- stella rosa wine cup, tiniest bite of edible gummy (around 2.5 mg? feel nothing as i'm writing this + ate "5"mg... still nothing as of 1:44 am) (~100)
dinner(8:50ish-pm): pb & j w/ burger bread (~260+)✅
chewing on spoon✅ helped mitigate some cravings. should do after every hour "snack"
[skipping grapefruit, lean cuisine, tuna & crackers, and possibly egg and fruits due to being "thrown" off track]
~emergen. plan to rest of night: 10pm: apple (80)✅, 11pm: 20 grapes, 12am: boiled egg(?) - combined/traded in for scrambled eggs with ketchup (~180), 1am(go to bed):
exercise: evening walk
total: ~1,570-1,670/600-1,600
june 22
*plan*
library by 11am(visualize to get motivated) stay till 4:00, take vyvanse @ 3pm
lunch: none except for water
snack: none
dinner/other "meals": \/
- tuna & crackers
- 2 "scrambled" eggs
- lean cuisine (if i still have one)
- some other snack available in the house (must be 3 hours after last eaten, normal portion and NO SECONDS, use visualization to help you) | possibly slice of pizza?
how to day went: ate some of mom's custard in the morning, ate like 1 slice of cold bacon, went out and bought 2 cookies from jersey mike's :DDDDDDD, then was gucci for abt an hour as i waited for dad to drive me to the library where i stayed for a little under 2-3 hours, took vyvanse at 4 i believe (forgot abt the 3 plan, but i went too late anyway) got home and ate a ham sandwich, which i followed with a small bowl of pasta. vyvanse kicked in at this point so i didn't eat the meat. i also didn't eat for the rest of the day thx to the appetite suppression, lucky me.
exercise: walking
june 23
weight: 197.6 (7lbs down in 3 days wootwoot)
semi-planned
lunch: tuna w/ crackers, grapes
snack: leftover meat from yesterday's pasta, peanut brittle, apple (implemented "slow eating habit" by taking a bite of peanut brittle every 5 minutes, helped with managing appetite and slowed down my eating even when my cravings were present. started to eat peanut brittle at normal pace towards the end)
dinner: plan - 2 boiled eggs, tangerine OR drank a danimals, had stale/expired cheerios, then went ahead and ate some jello too
9pm: plan - ham sandwich w/ mayo(a little late)
extra: extra crackers after snack cuz dem cravings dawg(funny considering minutes before i was upset over how my body looked while sitting in grandma's bed), more crackers, ate edibles (7.5 mg - before 9pm meal), coffee (only drank like half), pb & j as an extra meal to bring me to 2,000 cal day(after laying in bed w/ cravings for quite some time, more peanut brittle, ordered oreos(rlly just wanted more peanut brittle but didn't wanna make a noticeable dent in it.. was not satisfying, mainly munchies) some waterfall of wine
june 24
- ordered starbucks basically as soon as i woke up: cheddar sausage & egg sandwich (damn good) + grande vanilla sweet cream cold brew to manage appetite for hopefully the rest of the day(they didn't seem to have nitro cold brew, which used to get me right) it gimme tummy aches
- coffee suppressed appetite for s decent while, not the whole day, ended up not drinking leftover coffee from yesterday cuz gross and also i couldn't msuter up the motivation to
- after 4pm, maybe even 5, i ate about 8-10 ritz crackers in the walmart
- ice cream drumstick
- popcorn shrimp w/ ketchup
- peach
- sausage & potato
- juice
june 25
*plan*
Library(don't forget desktop earphones): 1:30 pm - 6:30 pm
add-don't-subtract
planned foods to eat:
- nature valley
- yogurt +
- 2 boiled eggs +
- apple +
- 20 grapes +
exercise:
total: /600-1,600
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diet format (ignore)
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june 20
current weight:
lunch: avocado toast (w/ burger bun bread), strawberries & grapes - ~350 cals
snack: none
dinner: small chicken rice bowl - ~400 cals
total: /600-1,600
extra:
exercise:
week goal:
month goal:
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