1500-1600 + vyvanse 2x a day? alternate + IGNORE 100 CRAVINGS (in a row) | meal diary

feb. 4

morning-before 12: 2 tbsp of metamucil - cafe: bowl of fruit (honeydew & cantaloupe) mid pb&j

- turkey burger

- 2 packs of gummies

- takis + cinnamon almond n/v bar

~gym: elliptical for 25 minutes until 8:58(or 8:59)~

9pm dinner (pushed it to 11ish): lean cuisine (270), strawberries & yogurt (104) - total: 374 + 3 takis(35) = 409

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feb. 5

morning mini-walk (purely on a whim, i had the mental energy/desire to while listening to 2016 tunes)

lunch: avocado toast(230), cinn alm. n/v bar(190) - total: 420 + 3 takis = 455

snack: pt1: x pt2: 2 oreo thins (70), tangerine (40) - total: 110

- chew granola bar

- 1 (or 2?) packs of small gummies

~went to campus party after practiceand that's where shi gets crazyyyy~

- 2 white claws, one natural lime, the other raspberry

- 2 soft pork tacos w/ onions, cucumbers, radishes & too much spicy sauce (cilantro on the side but i didn't really eat it, just tasted it after i finished my tacos)

- 2 oreo thins

- some wine, sip of ulta

- budlight at r's dorm, half of buzzball i shared with vivi, sips of 2nd budlight i was handed

- back @ my dorm: small bowl of takis and oreo thins

and then i at some point went to sleep after i was drunkenly (and somewhat high) watching TDI ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

(new) atomic habits plan | day 3

 current atomic habit goals:

- visualize 1 scene 2x (brought down from 5 minutes cuz i would procrastinate)

   * can also be supplemented with mental triggering reminders (just added this rule since i sometimes struggle to conjure up a strong mental image)

- 3 crunches or leg lifts

- don't eat after 10 pm

  * considered a "drink more water" habit focus, but decided to not stack too many habits on top of each other

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day 1 - jan. 14th

visualization 2x ✅(?) - can’t remember if i didnit twice but i believe i did [generic skinny visualization]

3 crunches ✅(went over)

fast after 10 pm ❌(genuinely forgot)

day 2 - jan. 15th

visualization 2x ✅

3 crunches ❌ weirdly kept putting it off and forgetting, did extra the next "day" though

fast after 10 pm ✅

day 3 - jan. 16th

visualization 2x ✅

3 crunches ✅/⚠️ - did 1 set for the previous day, but also did the current one past 12 am so i technically did it twice in one "day" (went over both times as well)

fast after 10 pm ✅

day 4 - jan. 17th

visualization 2x ✅

3 crunches ✅

   —> both after 12*

fast after 10 pm ✅

day 5 - jan. 18th

visualization 2x ✅

3 crunches ✅

fast after 10 pm ✅

day 6 - jan. 19th

visualization 2x ✅

3 crunches ✅

fast after 10 pm ✅

day 7 - jan. 20

visualization 2x ✅

3 crunches ✅

fast after 10 pm ✅

day  8 - jan. 21

visualization 2x ✅

3 crunches ✅

fast after 10 pm ❌ | broke @ around 2 am ish

day 9 - jan. 22

visualization 2x ✅/⚠️ - kept putting it off till i came to bed (basically rn)

3 crunches ✅

fast after 10 pm ✅

~ i can tell my mind is starting to not care abt this atomic habits thing, i’m losing focus and becoming more susceptible to temptation. i almost decided to say f it to not eating after 10 today as well but i decided to just see it through.

jan. 1 - jan. 10 + extra days cuz i failed after new years lmfaoooo

jan. 1

weigh-in: -midday- 194.4 (again, ack!)

* attempted to fast but it was too premature/i didn't prepare myself properly + i was experiencing actual hunger pangs lmfao. i didn't care too much abt breaking the fast bc i was already restricting consistently plus i technically fulfilled my goal of fasting into the new year so i was gucci with it

- fast break: cheese off of 2 pizzas, pepper soup w/ meat (got seconds0

--> at this point, i started to wonder if i accidentally broke my keto/ketosis at some point, or if it was just a combo of the ill-timed fast + eating hyperpalatable pizza cheese + sauce(which may or may not have had carbs) and soup .. and also possibly breaking my "ketosis" because the cravings hit me like a freight train/sledgehammer. i also forgot to take my vyvanse in the morning before church, and took it sometime around like ~3pm and it took 3 hours to kick in, so after finish my 2nd bowl of soup, i was seriously contemplating just full on breaking keto for the day bc i was really craving that pizza. i ended up not rlly eating anything at first (i cant remember if i ate a 3rd portion of pepper soup or not? maybe just ate the 2nd portion later?) but what finally did it was me going thru my xmas present and rediscovering that i had candy canes, which i almost immediately ate. 

- 3 candy canes, total.

i ate one at first, and then part of another a littler later but then the vyvanse FINALLY kicked in, so it was a little later until i ate the 3rd once. just pure sugar. but i wasn't really craving food that strongly, i was just eating to eat kind of. a little later i experienced a little cravings and ate more, and then after that i experienced more sliiightly stronger cravings and snacked a bit before i ended my day

- hard pizza slice, hard oatmeal cookie eaten slowly, tiniest tangerine ever (appetite not really moved by this lmao)

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- cashews, 2-4 tortilla chips, small bites of caramel cheesecake, 1 small spoon of melted cookies&cream ice cream 

exercise: not much tbh, pacing

total: /800-1,600

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jan. 2

weigh-in: 192.0 (-2.4[?])

lunch: tuna w/ mayo, spam (eaten around ~1pm)

snack: --

dinner: beef patty

extra: like 5 more cashews… beginning of the end, pork rinds || hours later, i decided to break my keto due to cravings: 2 candy canes, like abt 20.5-21 roasted chews total 

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jan. 3

- more roasted cashews

- snickerdoodle cheesecake

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jan. 4

- 3 slices of bacon, 2 boiled eggs 

- snickerdoodle cheesecake slice

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- 2 ice cream cones

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jan. 7 (nat bday)

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- 4 gyoza

- 2 cookies

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jan. 8

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jan. 9

- chic fil a grilled chicken

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- spam w/ 2 eggs + hot sauce

(successful keto after days of break)

jan. 10

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(broke keto after 1 good day)

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jan. 14

- 4 oreo ice cream sandwiches

jan. 15

- sushi, 3 macarons, others

- fish (stopped eating after 10, leftovers)

jan. 16

- protein snack pack (150)

- banana (120)

- ~ vyvanse~

- 5ish: bites of salmon, then went on walk, then came back and finished salmon (took a bit) then eventually ate one of the eggs (prepared 2)

- bj's pizookie + ice cream (stopped eating after 10)

90 day diet (oldish slavic trend inspo) + day and a half diet & keto w/ complex carbs idea

inspired by this video

Day 1: high-protein foods only (keto day essentially)

Day 2: complex carbs/high fiber foods day

Day 3: paleo/fish focused day + veggies (originally simple carbs/cheat day but meh)

Day 4: fruit-only day

Day 5: 2000 calorie day (i think it's originally water fast but i'm shifting it a bit)

Day 6: water fast

*repeat for 90 days, but in differing orders maybe?

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day 1/2 diet idea:

do a specific diet for day 1, then switch it up the next day midday day, and then the next day also switch up again but in less than 24 hr

sample:

day 1: maybe keto only foods

day 2: keto only foods until sometime between 3-6 pm then switch to primarily fruit/fiber/complex carb foods

day 3: follow till 8pm and then switch to different diet

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diet idea:

follow: predominantly keto diet model but when cravings pop up, satisfy them with complex carbs and sweet fruit or healthy food like yogurt, pb, etc. - switch it up and eat predominantly complex carbs but use keto foods for cravings

dec. 22 - dec. 25🎄 | dec. 26 - 31

dec. 22 - plan

lunch: 2 boiled eggs(1g), 1/2 cup of cottage cheese(5g), 2 slices of ham(0.5g), tea + vyvanse - 300 cals, 6.5g of carbs

    protein: 12 grams | 13 grams | 4.5 grams = 29.5 grams

snack(or when appetite returns): 1 salmon(190, 24g) + 1/2 avocado(160 cals, 8.5g), salad(5 cals, 1g carbs) - 355 cals

    protein: 24 grams | 2 grams | 0.3 grams

dinner: 1 burger patty w/ light mayo + hot sauce - 295 cals

    protein: 21 grams 

exercise: walk + xmas shopping

slight weigh-in: 200-206ish (w/ clothes after eating and midday, these weights are from this day and the day before (and also possibly the 20th tho i don't really remember)

extra: half of or 1 tbsp of pb (~45-90 cals, 4.5 g, 3.5 protein) 2 meatballs(87 cals, 1.7 g, 4.33 grams of protein) - bites of burnt meatballs, cheese w/ hot sauce (180 cals, 4g carbs, 14 grams of protein) 1 extra meatball (43 cals, 0.83 g, 2.167 pro) 2 cashews (21.3 cals, 1.06 g, 0.6 pro), beef patty + light mayo & hot sauce(295 cals, 21 pro) 1/2 \ "4 oz" double serving of spam (360 cals, 2g, 14 pro) 1/3 spinach w/ lemon juice & hot sauce (3.33 cals, 1g, 0.33 pro)

total:  ~2,029.63/800-1,600 | 2,100 absolute maximum |

carb total: 31/20g

protein: 136.727

fat?:

*fast start*

dec. 23 - plan

*15 hr water fast | start @ 12am*

snack: POSSIBLE keto chipotle bowl?  + vyvanse

weight: 197.4 lbs (w/ clothes after eating a little)

execution:

was woken up too early at around 7:30-7:50 am, went back to sleep for abt 2 ish hrs (9:30ish am) and then got out of bed at around 10:00am

broke fast at 11:45 am (11hr and 45 min) cuz i'm lowkey pathetic, kept getting sidetracked from going to library but also my appetite was pretty active way before 12 so i probably should've just left earlier lmao(took too long to upload my files tho)

- 1 slice of ham (~15 cals)

- abt 1/4  cup of spam (180 cals)

- remaining stick of gum (~5)

- tall caffe americano w/ splash of heavy cream + 2 splendas (190)

- chipotle bowl: barbacoa, sour cream, & romaine lettuce NO rice, NO pinto beans, NO guac, nada (285)

appetite was fairly satisfied after this and i finally left house at around 3:30 pm to library, experienced some cravings at the library - took vyvanse @ around 4:40-4:50-5pm ish, had mom pick me up b/t 5:50-5:55 pm

12am-ish(after pacing and being indecisive abt what to eat for almost 2 hrs):

- 1/2 cup of cottage cheese (110)

- small chicken breast (~128)

cals: ~908 cals

carb total: /20g

protein:

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dec. 24

weight: 193.6 (-3.8 lbs 😼) [fully naked]

how i'm feeling after that weigh-in

lunch: spam w/ 2 eggs(cooked w/ butter) + hot sauce (~1.2g) - 340 + 60 for butter? ~400 cals

snack: beef patty w/ mayo + cheese, small chicken breast (1g) ~440-500

dinner: 4 slices of bacon, 10 shrimp pieces (cooked with butter, lowkey overcooked by me) (~2g) ~197.78

extra: nibbles of chicken from salad & recipe, tiniest piece of candy cane that may or may not have ruined my progress ¯\_(ツ)_/¯ who knows (~~est. 5g), 1tbsp of pb(~90), yogurt(8g)(80), singular cracker

cals: ~1,267.78+

carbs: 17.2 ~ 21.2

protein:

fat: 

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dec. 25

weight: 193.6 (+/-0.0)

-break from keto for xmas- (saw i maintained and “broke” and said f it after debating most of yesterday lolziez)

- banana + walk (noticed how sweet the banana tasted at first)

- mac & cheese (i believe w/ crackers?)

- stuffing

- turkey(?) & ham

- several candy canes

- white wine (?)

- stella rosa

- halkenein beer

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dec. 26

- mac & cheese(w/ crushed crackers) + stuffing (several servings throughout the day)

- ham (?) turkey (?)

- soooo many candy canes bruh it’s not even funny…. around ~10?

- tried some cake bro and his gf brought home… was expecting chocolate cake but it tasted like dried fruit tbh i didn’t finish

- i did, however, prepare it with some cookies n cream ice cream expecting to eat both but just ate the ice cream

- ice cream cone (more ice cream lol)

- (late at night): pb &j + small portion of cheerios…. yeesh

*it seems like eating more carbs makes me crave more carbs, even when vyvanse is taken. it’s like the restrictive mindset of keto and limited options + no carb foods ~possibly~ affecting appetite + lazy adhd mindset (lol) brews the perfect storm…. it’s a delicate balance tho, bc it’s likely that restriction made me go so hard on eating the carbs in the 1st  or rather just decide to give in, though it was christmas… that whole time, i couldn’t stop thinking about the fact that i was consuming so many carbs

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dec. 27

lunch: 2 eggs & spam

snack: beef patty

dinner: small turkey piece

extra: spoon of pb

exercise: walk

cals: ~860+

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dec. 28

~lunch: eggs & bacon (w/ drop of ketchup)

snack: 2 more bacon

dinner: spam (380?)

extra: half bite of plantain, 1 grape (i think this was the day) | outing w/ friends red hawaiian, alaskan roll, beef pieces, 1 extra roll, / cajeta ice cream | 2 smiles candy packs

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dec. 29

midday weigh-in: 195.6(?)

lunch: spam & eggs 

snack: salmon + tiny bite bits of boiled egg from yesterday 

dinner: turkey leg & 1/2 cup of cottage cheese 

extra: 1 singular grape, taste of pb

exercise: walk, pacing

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dec. 30

midday weigh-in: 194.4(?)

lunch: big ahh turkey portion (dry af tho)

snack: --

dinner: coke zero, subway steak philly protein bowl

extra: literal "crumb" of ham

exercise: walk

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dec. 31 (sigh :/ i'm not ready)

weigh-in: -midday- 194.4 (yawn!!!)

lunch: remaining subway salad bowl from yesterday (took like 2-3 hours to eat lol)

----> once i finished the steak and cheese, i added ranch & hot sauce like i envisioned but it tasted bad so i added more lettuce, but it still tasted bland without meat

snack: 7 cashews, tea, ^subway salad bowl w/ added turkey bits

dinner: -- *started fast @ 8pm*

extra: sip of stella rosa, pepper soup w/o meat (consumed plenty of veggie bits tho lmao.... i let it slide)

exercise: walking & pacing

total: /800-1,600

dec. 15 - plan + execution | dec. 16 - dec. 21

 *plan*

morning - vyvanse + lots of water before walk ✅

12 pm - 2 boiled eggs(160), 1 cup of grapes(62), 3-4 pizza rolls(100) + metamucil (~45)✅

-------> prepared & ate @ around 12:50-1:30pm

3 pm - salad w/ chicken & ranch(~150-250), 2 1 tangerines(80)(40), tea ✅

6 pm - pb toast w/ banana, lemon water

-------> charburger w/ ketchup (~520) started taking bites at 5:20-5:40ish, waited till 6pm to properly eat/finish it

9 pm - apple oatmeal(155), tuna w/ ritz crackers(?) if there, if not - crackers w/ cream cheese, metamucil

———> pb toast w/ banana

= 1,527 ish

4:20 - walk

8:00 pm - 30 min workout OR bed workout (crunch focused)

------> exercise: morning walk + evening walk

extra: marshmallows w/ ritz crackers (est. 10 marshmallow, some roasted w/ ritz crackers)

cals: ~2,000

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dec. 16

- fries w/ ketchup

- pb banana toast

- ritz crackers & marshmallows

- nibbling on grapes

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dec. 17

- fries w/ ketchup

- spaghetti & meatballs

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- nibbling on grapes

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dec. 18

lunch: lean cuisine (350) --- tangerine later (40)

snack: tangerine (40), eaten bagel w/ cream cheese earlier than intended

snack: strawberries & yogurt (104), chicken legg w/ bbq

dinner: fritos(?)

extra: 2 chicken legs w/ bbq, some ritz crackers, some cashews, dubai chocolate (800)

exercise: walk, lite dancing, pacing

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dec. 19

- *failed fast i keep putting off*

- more dubai chocolate (2nd bar - 800 cals)

- ham and sausage korean soup + rice, fish cakes, fish, cucumber salad

- tangerine

- ice cream cone

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- zebra popcorn

exercise: walk, ab workout and leg lifts

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dec. 20

- cracker barrel bites after giveaway

- cheap macarons (abt 4 1/2 at first)

- red lobster: 3-4 biscuits, sprite, sip of strawb. lemonade, pink alcoholic drink, lobster flatbread piece, crab carbonara pasta, 1 bite of alfredo

- banana

- 2nd cracker barrel bite

- remaining zebra popcorn 

- remaining macaron

- 1 strawberry? tangerine?

- taste of pb

- bites of 2 taquitos (nasty)

exercise: morning walk w/ mom, general pacing and light dancing + being out half the day with the mom + evening walk

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dec. 21

lunch: cracker barrel bites, tangerine ----- lean cuisine mac&cheese, banana

snack: watermelon konjac jelly (6 kcal)

dinner: i guess --> tuna w/ mayo, 2 eggs w/ sprinkle of cheese & valentino salsa picante hot sauce

9pm: chicken leg..... (some time later/aka 12amish): lunchables without the crackers (ate 1 cracker)

exercise: walk to ranch market, stroll around, then walk back

nov. 5 (fast) - nov. 7 | nov. 13 (ish) - nov. 22 | weighed 204.~ at some point (several intermittent fastings)

nov. 5

*fast*

- 1 atkins shake

- seasonal salt

- abt 6-7 spoons of peanut butter

nov. 6

weigh-in: 194.4

- cafeteria: pizza, fries, chicken?(w sauce) + “pita” bread, ravioli pasta + coke zero

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nov. 7

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nov. 13

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- raising cane's (night)

nov. 14

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- 3 servings of lasagna

nov. 15

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- *fast start @ 5:30 pm* ~ vyvanse

- water? glucerna?

nov. 16

~fast end: 5:21 pm (should've stretched it to 5:30 since it was easy but it escaped my mind) 23 hours & 51 minutes~

- 3 pizza rolls, several plantain, bite of scrambled eggs

- @ event: rice plate w/ plantain, chicken, fish, water + stella rosa wine

nov. 17

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- gummy pack(s)

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nov. 18

- 3 chicken tenders w/ bbq sauce, ranch, & ketchup(?)

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- churros w/ choc sauce (nutella i believe) & condensed milk

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nov. 19

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- 2 black forest gummies, 1 granola bar, cheez-its, rice crispie, chex mix

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nov. 20

- strawberry acai refresher

- sub union: american turkey burger w/ (slippery) ketchup & slight mayo

[literally all i ate this day, vyvanse was lowkey kicking my ass and not in the best way]

nov. 21

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nov. 22

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