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update

jan 23:

 Hey, sorry for not updating earlier… I’m still a fat piece of shit.

still trying to do the ECA, but failing miserably because I don’t put in any work. My weight is just fluctuated this month, same as always. I got down to 182 and then I went back up of course.

i’m going to try to attempt my 950-950-fast plan again starting on January 6, and continue the tradition of doing it the last six days of every month. I really hope I muster up the self-control to do it because I’m so tired of being in the 180s and I’m so tired of being this big in general. 

haven’t taken ECA today and I’m not gonna take it tomorrow, because I wanted to have two days where I attempt to eat 1200 without eating over, but of course I failed today. I wanted to try eating breakfast at 12, lunch at 3, snack at 6, and dinner at 9 pm in hopes that it would lessen the urge to eat extra when I’ve already eaten all my calories for the day, but I just ate scoops of Biskoff butter all day so it didn’t matter anyway.

hope to experiment with lots of caffeine in my ED starting January 26… It seems to be a white but other people get to be so skinny. Energy drinks, here I come.

jan 24th: 

fucked up again today. who’s surprised?