Wasting Away

Thursday, January 9, 2025

dec. 29(cw: 184.6 - post-walk, post-shit ) --> jan. 8 | last blog journal for now/ switching back to physical |

dec. 29 - 184.6 lbs

*fasting 24 hrs / ends @ 4pm*

- glucerna shake

- metamucil w/ acv + lemon (really helped suppress my appetite.. see????? do it more often girl)

*fast break @4:01pm*

-- 1/2 a donut, handful of tiny marshmallows(blegh) small portion of mac & cheese & 2 pcs of meat(beef?) leftover from party

- hi-bbq: dynamite roll, sips of thai tea, bites of meat/beef/chicken from mom & dad's plate, bite of shrimp, small bite of noodles, vanilla macaron

- dubai chocolate!!! 1 pistachio knafeh bar, 1 cookie butter/lotus knafeh bar. both very delicious tho the chocolate to filling ratio is too uneven. i ended up eating the top layer of chocolate first so i could taste the filling. lotus had a stronger taste, tho.

- 2 eggs

- tangerine (?) or 2(?)

- 2 taquitos

- 2am-ish: beef burrito from taco bell (not proud of myself)

dec. 30

- the habit: chicken club, no tomato, + fries & ketchup

- doordashed brown sugar boba

~ had a mini walk today as i went out to buy boba only to find the twinkle joint closed down, i then wandered aimlessly around first into chow king and then paced in the 7/11 before eventually buying gum and dipping, ordering the boba along the way.

*36 hour fast start @ 7pm*

- riccola

dec. 31

*36 hour fast*

- plan: at least 5 bottles of water total throughout the day, or 10 cups

metamucil w/ acv + lemon at some point hours after the dentist

- glucerna shake (180)

- minute maid juice

- sip of carnation milk

- apple cider

☆ jan. 1☆

- vitamin c gummies

- strip of bacon

- tamale

- drumstick ice cream cone

- leftover the habit sandwich (soggy bread gross)

- new years lunch: ham mostly, apple cider & stella rosa

- another drumstick

- green tea w/ lemon

- dubai chocolate (too chocolatey)

- noodle/ramen

- acai "dragon" bowl (had to add peanut butter cuz it was mid tbh)

jan. 2

- lean cuisine (360)

- bites of ham

- vit. c gummies

- cheerios (2 servings)

- 1/2 pb&j

- mcdonalds: free happy meal - 6 pcs w/ ketchup & ranch, teenie-tiny fries, diet coke, apple slices,

- baked potato w/ sour cream & bacon bits

- gum?

*19 17 hr fast start*

- tea w/ lemon

jan. 3

*short fast break: vit c gummies

- TRIED to make and eat avocado toast, it was bad. the avocado was messed up so.. only 1 bite (took 2 but spat them after trying to test if the 2nd would be better but i'll still count 1 of it)

- 1.65 pecan pie pc(~150), tamale(~300), apple cider

- 1 cookie (75)

~took vyvanse @ around 2pm~

- 2 peppermint bark dark choc pcs

--- 2 more

- riccola

- ~

- @ lakers game: few lays chips, 1 cheeto

- at home: fish soup w/ rice, stella rosa + coke zero

- sip of carnation milk, apple juice, and additional peppermint bark (counted above) because of weird feeling in throat

jan. 4

- mcd's: 4 pc chicken nuggets 2x, fries, sprite, + ketchup & bbq sauce

- costco cookies: about 6-8 in total (est. 4 white choc mac. nut, 2 choc)

- tangerine

- 1 pc dried mango spear

- fish soup w/ rice i made earlier before i knew about mcd's

- more chicken nuggets 4pc 2x (again.. so 16 total for the day yikes) + ranch & ketchup & sweet n' sour

*~16k steps: went on my walk and did a LOT of pacing whilst scrolling thru anitiktok

jan. 5

- grande iced matcha latte recipe (lowkey had vyvanse effect in my gut)

- bites of mom's ham&cheese sandwich + 1/2 of dad's impossible breakfast sandwich

- can't remember since i was too lazy to write shit down but imma guess: maybe some pb pretzels? maybe peppermint bark? maybe mandarin? maybe fish & rice?(unlikely)

- many a cookie(i think)

*fast start @ 7 pm*

- apple juice

jan. 6

*36 hr fast*

~went to 7 leaves and then library~

- atkins shake, apple cider

prematurely broke fast w/: rice & stew, pb pretzels, 2 white choc mac nut cookies, nut bar(?), (?)

- more pb pretzels

- 2 riccola cough drops w/ syrup inside

jan. 7

- broke remaining 13 hr w/ plantain, pb pretzels