dec. 6 --> dec. 16 + dec. 17(cw: 182.8)

dec. 6

* 30 min cardio-kickboxing workout. then elyptical @ gym for 15 mins.

- 6pm(1st meal of the day): portion of long-lasagna like pasta, cheesy pasta, 2-3 bites of 1/2 fish burger sandwich thing, grapes. (didn't finish anything except for cheesy pasta and got seconds) - came back at 7pm

- 

- 2am-ish?: noodles

dec. 7

- tomato type soup w/ shredded carrots i added, nature valley bits, 1/2 banana, cubed bread pastry thing

- caramel tootsie lollipop

- soup dumplings

* fast start 4pm

- acv lemon water bottle

- cafe protein shake

dec. 8

- 12-12:30pmish: eggs, 2 sausage links, small cheese tortilla w/ ketchup + fruit bowl: grapes, honeydew, cantaloupe (didn't finish)

- 3pmish: apple(80)

- taste of pb

- 5:40/6pm-6:30ish: nature valley biscuit 2x(380), remaining sip of protein shake, salmon(300), bites of mushy watermelon :(

- 2x more nature valley biscuits

- container: pizza slice, small portion pasta, banana (just before 9, started eating at 7:40ish)

- 4 wings w/ bbq sauce

- mandarin cup

- water w/ acv & lemon

- riccola

dec. 9

- *vyvanse

- 4ishpm: bites of muffins (ate over the course of a few hours) banana muffin(350?) + blueberry muffin(300)

- small sip of horchata

- 7:40ishpm: orange chicken

- 9:30ish: 2 pancakes w/ chocolate syrup, caramel, & condensed milk + bits of strawberries

    - fruit plate: grapes, honeydew, cantaloupe

dec. 10

- mini candy cane

- chewy granola bar

- cafeteria: 

- remaining mom wong chicken & rice

dec. 11

- cafeteria: meatballs, small pasta, partial banana, grapes

- ~like 5 hrs later~: 5 remaining bbq wings

- 2:30amish: lean cuisine rigatoni

dec. 12

- 2 glazed donut hole, 1 choc sprinkled

- seasoned bagel w/ cream cheese

-

- twix, doritos

- croissant?

dec. 13

- 1/2 of melted old icey

- cafe atkins shake @ train stop

- 5ish hours of no food consumption due to travel & stress

- egg/potato dishv+ maybe 2 plantains?

- hotpot: 

- boba

- drinks: margarita + tequila sunrise

dec. 14

- eggs w/ ketchup

- plantains

- chocolate bourbon cookies

- pocky

- shrimp chips

dec. 15

- remaining pocky

- french bread pizza

- spam musubi

- mints

- taste of sushi

- chicken

dec. 16 

- krispy kreme donut

- remaining sushi + salad/cabbage thing

- crisps, chocolate bourbon cookies

*43 hr fast start @ 5pm*

~ acv w/ lemon water (tea?)

~ strawb. atkins shake

c/s: choc bourbon cookies

dec. 17

*fasting*

~ atkins shake

~ black tea w lemon

c/s’ed: remaining cookie, few crisps & just licked the seasoning off of a handful of them

- broke @ 8:50 pm (27 hr 50 mins)

    - crisps, 6 ferrero rocher, potato soup, 2 roasted marshmallows, candy cane, 2 chicken

kool-aid?

nov. 26 --> dec. 5

nov. 26

- recap: taquitos? marshmallows? + ritz crackers? tall iced matcha w/ sweet foam

nov. 27

- recap: marshmallows? + ritz crackers? 

nov. 28(thurs)

- recap: mac & cheese, turkey, ham, mashed potatoes, apple cider, wine, coke zero, stuffing, irish cream liquor (little bit), ritz crackers + marshmallows

nov 29(fri)

- recap: thanksgiving leftovers, popcorn, coke zero, and other stuff probs

nov 30(sat)

- recap: thanksgiving leftovers, ritz crackers + marshmallows, other stuff

dec 1(sun)

- 1/2 grapefruit, mashed potatoes(w/ a lil bbq sauce), rib meat

-  ritz crackers, cereal?

- small portion pasta, coke zero, apple

- doritos, grandma creme cookies, twix

dec 2(mon)

- "fast" till 6:14 / pb cracker, and a pc of candy? 

- meal: small-ish mac & cheese, 2 pretzel bites, green apple, small coffee w/ dairy free creamer & 2 sweeteners

- (i think) ritz crackers? i can't remember what i ate or if i ate after the "omad". i probs did.

dec 3

- candies: tootsie fruit chews

- cafeteria: salad w/ shredded carrots, chicken, ranch, & slight small spoon of (reddish?)beans

- nutrigrain, motts gummies 2x(3x?), tootsie lollipop 2x, mini candy cane (2x?)

- pudding milk tea drink, braised beef soup noodles

- ritz crackers

- taco bell: chicken quesadilla, beefy burrito

dec 4

*fasting 26 hrs*

- protein shake (150)

~ plan ~ [intentional triggering]

4:30ish: metamucil w/ acv & lemon

~

- taste of pb

broke fast @ 1:58am: bites of spam, cheese pizza slice little ceasars

dec 5

- salad w/ chicken, tofu, shredded carrots, reddish beans, bit of quinoa, few chickpeas + topped with some caeser dressing

       + small portion of cookies n cream ice cream cake

- protein shake (drank half at first then the rest later)

- nutragrain

- plate of 2 saucy chicken pieces, small portioned mashed potatoes, beans&beef&rice, small portioned pasta, coke zero 

       + xtra small cheese tortilla/quesadilla(?)

- container: sauce chicken, beef/beans/rice, grapes & pineaple (ate a bit than finished @ around 11:30ism pm)

- self-made trail mix (just nuts & small dried strawberries)

- welch gummies 3x

- 4:30am ish: taste of pb

nov. 15 --> nov. 25 (thought i weighed 178 but it was a false alarm lolz)

nov. 15

- sip of vyvanse w/ sparkling ice

- ~3:20-3:30ish: slice of pepperoni pizza, apple, lucky charms (mostly focused on eating the marshmallows)

~ tho i'm not the proudest of my eating options, i did exercise a bit of self control by not getting a second helping of lukcy charms and only getting 1 slice of pizza (tho there weren't that many options in the cafeteria to begin with at the time) i also had a serving of-

- metamucil  + water w/ acv & lemon

- 6pmish: rice crispie (150 cals)

- ~11pm-12am: 5 wings, (1, took tiny bites of the other old one them discarded it) ....+ 2 extra wings

nov. 16

- cripsy tortilla w/ egg on it, small bit of beans, 1 spoon of mashed potatoes, 1 small pc of chicken tender, small quesadilla, mini marshmallows

- ~6pm: 2 oreos, rice w/ stew, funyuns, 2 crunchy chips ahoy

- ~12-1am: in n' out: cheese burger, small pink lemonade, fries, lik 2-3 animal fries

- ring pop, dark mint chocolate cookies

nov. 17

- dark mint chocolate cookies

- 

nov. 18

- dark mint chocolate cookies

- rice w/ stew

- glucerna

- 12am-ish: remaining tiny portion of in n out burger

    - leftover fries w/ ketchup

    - riccola

nov 19

- banana

- mint dark choc cookies

- juicy burst gummies, nutrigrain /+

- wet burrito + few tortilla chips

- lollipop

- strawberry water drink thing (w/ strawberries)

- /+

- pb&j sandwich

nov. 20

*vyvanse (w/ glucerna)

- banana

- glucerna

- sips of sparkling ice

- ~6pm+: decently sized juicy(lol) slice of pizza, small portion of mid pasta

- 9pmish: lean cuisine rigatoni

- 1:40amish: pb & toast + banana

nov. 21

- doritos, juicy burst gummies

- caramel apple lolipop, cup of noodles 

- glucerna

- juicy burst gummies (...2x? i ate another one in my 2nd class)

- doritos

- cereal w/ carnation milk

- 

- thin mint cookies

- doritos, banana

- ~1:30amish: 5 strawberries, a few grapes

nov. 22

- ~9:30amish: 2 dark choc mint cookies 

- *vyvanse bzzz*

- ~1~2pmish?: container - bites of cylinder pasta (both regular & lasagna-like one) bites of fish, bites of shrimp 

- post-2:40-3: 2 small bites of donut (friendsgiving)

- more bites of container

- 

- friendsgiving container of raising cane's (3 chicken tenders, some fries, w/ cane's sauce)

      - possibly the soda too

- 1 singular m&m piece

nov 23

- remaining small

- bite of pumpkin bread (didn't like)

-

- many brownie bites

- cafeteria: 2 small sugared donut hole pcs, pasta portion(mid?), rice w/ beans, fruit: grapes & cantaloupe? or honeydew?, 3 rice crispie pieces

- candied yams/sweet potato dish

- candy pieces: small snickers, small musketeers, small twix

nov 24

- remaining small piece of donut (cold and i had no appetite + i brushed my teeth so a lil blegh)

- remaining bites from container? unless i already finished it yesterday

*recapping a week later cuz i don't remember: grapes, eggs(?), taquitos(?), marshmallows(?) 2 slices pizza hut w/ ranch, 2 wings

nov 25

*recap: taquitos? marshmallows? + ritz crackers? grapes? strawberries? more stuff

*~*: I walked over 10k steps (i believe 14k? maybe 12k?) at some point this week, my best guess is tuesday or monday or wednesday, tho i'm pretty sure i walked over 10k steps 2 days this thanksgiving break week.

nov. 2 --> nov. 12 (+ nov. 13 & nov. 14)

nov. 2 - Saturday

- 1 milka pc

~

3pm-3:50ish: alaskan roll, strawberry mochi ice cream 2 pc

~

- 8ish(?): pb & j..... noodles w/ egg

- 12:40ish: snickers bar

nov. 3 - Sunday

- 

- container: small taste of mac&cheese, bites of potatoes, cinnamon roll thing that tasted eggy

- avocado toast w/ egg (bread from cafertia.. wheat? rye? 90 cals a slice :c )

-

-

nov. 4

~ wake up @ 4:27 am

- 5-6am mcdonalds... yikes!

~ sleep again~

- 3 rice crispies

- cafe: small bowl: 2 types of pasta - 

- sips of fanta

- nerd gummies

- bite of concha (also made/decorated day of dead cookie.. don't remember which 

- ice cream cone w/ cookie drizzle

- jalapeno peppers (abt 3) w/ ranch

- chicken tenders (abt 3.5) w/ ranch

nov. 5

- sip of mineral water w/ vyvanse | sip of fanta

- bite of bacon & bites of grapes and honeydew

~ vyvanse

- @ around 5pm: 4-5 chicken nuggets, few fries (w/ ranch, small taste of bbq but didn't like it)

- remaining chicken tender w/ ranch

- (possibly) finished decorated cookie?

nov. 6

- remaining container: eggs w/ ketchup, bacon, bites of hashbrown

- cafeteria: gnocchi pasta, thai(?) pasta (head shredded beef..idk why i think thai), ice cream cone w/ broken oreos inside

~ vyvanse

- panda express: little bit of orange chicken, mostly chow mein in a small rectangular tray 

nov. 7

- metamucil w/ acv

- cafeteria: curry chicken (yum!), 1/2 chicken burger w/ ketchup & mayo, grapes (xtra curry chicken.. few bites before i was too full)

- twix

- (?) probabtly nothing \ wait actually- bites of hashbrown from days ago

- small portion cinn. toast crunch (why does it taste like wheat), pizza slice, lucky charms

- @ practice: tootsie rolls, small juicy forest gummies, small candies, lollipops: sugardaddy one and grape one, small milky way(?) marzipan ball

- denny's: 1 sunny side up egg, 4 sausage links, 2 pc french toast(didn't check for syrup in my bag like an idiot and ate it before adding it, just assumed i didn't get any. idiot.)

nov. 8

- water + metamucil w/ acv & lemon lazy

- cafeteria: tortilla 

-

- 2 cashew granola bars (pb?)

- 

nov. 9

- remaining ham sandwich (chips & cracker soggy gross)

- oreo mini’s

- sips of sbux pink drink

- ‘notha han sandwich w/ mayo & cheese, fruit: grapes, pineapple, cantaloupe, honeydew, ruffles chips

- smth smth cookie

- 1 small chips ahoy, couple white chocolate covered pretzels, 1 choc covered pretzel

nov. 10

- 1/2 sandwich from yesterday + side

- wendy’s: baconator, fries, coke zero

- alfredo, pasta w tomato sauce, some salad w/ croutons, garlic bread

- swiss roll

- same plate ^: pasta added, another swiss roll

nov. 11

- after 12: chicken burger w/ avocado, ketchup + small portion pasta, fruit: grapes & honeydew (didn’t finish)

~ vyvanse

- 5:45pm: pb&j

- taste of pb

- rice crispie, … juicy burst gummies

- ^ prob extra pieces of candy(don't remember since i didn't write it down ¯\_(ツ)_/¯

       - i think i ate like 2 or 3 more rice crispies, and maybe a granola bar

- bites of expired calzone (didn't come anywhere close to finishing it cuz i was scared lol) ~100(full thing is 650 lolz)

- taco bell: chicken quesadilla, nacho-cheese taco

nov. 12

- candies during class

- nutrigrain, gummies, rice crispie(?)

- chicken "baja bowl" 

- like 4 pc of ribbon pasta, multiple servings of lucky charms (ate mainly the marshmallows)

- probs more candy and junk

- 

nov. 13

- cafeteria: some pasta(unfinished), some meatballs, wings(unfinished), lasagna type roll?

- singular pistachio nut, starbursts, pb granola sqaure bar, gummies (haribo, & vegan gummies)

- slice of meatloaf w/ ketchup, 2-3 pcs of ravioli

~tried to fast... didn't get far~

- 1/2 canned chicken noodle soup portion

- pb&j

- 

nov. 14

*vyvanse + timed meal plans

- sip of glucerna + vyvanse at around 10:50am

- 12/lunch ate @ around 12:50pm and finished @ 1:30 pm: salad w/ cucumber slices, carrot slices, small pieces of chicken, bit of ranch, small grilled chicken breast w/ light sauce(?) tiny fruit bowl: few pieces of pineapple & honeydew

- 4:30~/5pm: carrots (abt 25-30) + tbsp of pb, glucerna shake

- post-11pm: 5 wings (~375 cals), ... ~1am?: yogurt (80 cals)

~~

don't remember which days: bites of concha and finished cookie i made

- sip of orange barley drink thing mixed with mineral sparkling water

Dissmiss Cravings Diet (11-13-2024)

 Basically plan is to avoid giving into cravings, and get into the habit of eating at planned mealtimes again

THE GOAL IS TO DESTROY THE HABIT OF GIVING INTO CRAVINGS ONCE AND FOR ALL

Day 1: 24 hr fast

Day 2: Eat real meal @ around 6pm (meaning you need to buy groceries)

Cafeteria only 1-2x a week ideally. (If you can't get out of the buffet mindset then you can't be going there everyday) OR you can go whenever, but only to the fruit/salad bar section and for orders or bigger meals, you can only get a sandwich.

Vyvanse every-other day

On vyvanse days: FIRST THING IN THE MORNING!!!! STOP BEING LAZY AND WAITING AN HOUR OR 2 WHEN CRAVINGS KICK IN!! IDC IF YOU HAVEN'T BRUSHED UR TEETH YET!! STOP SELF-SABOTAGING!!!

non-vyvanse days: meal times - 12, 3, 6, 9.

Fast every 3rd day. Need to make that a habit again as it's the only way to ensure weight loss.

OR reform eating habit with the help of vyvanse. eating planned meals for 1,400-1,600 cals while supressing appetite w/ vyvanse for abt 2-3 weeks straight. problem with this is that once my appetite is gone, i have no desire to eat anything and i've become too lazy to prep meals.

i did a good thing just now (meditation / visualization) | nov. 3 |

nov. 3

so i was experiencing a fairly intense(?) craving, mostly mental (as usual). i wanted to go down to the cafeteria and eat even tho my plan was to wait till 12 to eat avocado toast w/ egg. and often times with these kinda of cravings, my brain was finding any and every excuse to justify it and was feeling resistant towards certain techniques that would help quell the craving. i was partially (11/13/2024: forgot to finish writing this so i don't remember what exactly i wanted to say) annoyed(?) abt the idea of meditating instead of immediately giving in, but that washed over me soon enough and i did the meditation. doing slow deep breaths in and out(sorry i don't remember what i wanted to write) it felt nice to finally have that sense of control over my brain and feel it calm down.

oct. 19 --> oct. 29 + oct 30 - nov 1 (28th evening weigh-in: 190.6...)

 oct 19 - Saturday

*drink bottle of acv w/ lemon all day (can put into cup and heat up) & watch gross videos

- remaining 1/2 cinn. alm. nv biscuit (~95)

- lean cuisine: mac&cheese (280) + watched video of pimple popping afterwards

- ramen (430 cals)

- chic-fil-a: chicken sandwich, waffle fries, coke zero + ketchup & chicfila sauce

- twix 

- yogurtland: strawb, vanilla, brown sugar vanilla, cookies n' cream /strawb popping boba(?), 2 gummy worms, 2 half cup brownies, 1 oreo

- @ home: n/v bars [190 cals] (was craving a pb&j but was too tired/sleepy to make it)

oct 20 - Sunday

*50-100 cals an hr starting from when vyvanse wears off + 1 cup of acv&lemon water + hypnosis/visualization audio

-

-

~

- 1/2 cinn alm for plan but ended up eating it fully

- 2nd cinn. alm. n/v bars

- taco bell: quesadilla w. extra sauce, nacho taco w/ sauce

- remaining atkins shake

*15 min elyptical @ around 6-7 ish

oct 21 - Monday

*1 bite every 5-10 mins of whatever i want (no vyvanse) + play w/ spinner-ring, 10 minds beginning every hour

- event: lemonade, mini veggie sausage thing, 2 mini meat pie(?), 3 mini hot dogs. self-decorated dolphin shaped cookie. cookies n cream "delight" popsicle w/ cookie crumble & m&m toppings (didn't finish)

- welch gummies

- cinn. alm. butter biscuit

- n/v bars

- lifesaver gummies

- noodles + 2 steamed eggs(+ seasonal salt)

- kitkat (bite every 5 mins)

- cheez-its, mixed hot chips (did not satisfy craving)

- bottle crush soda

- 2 mini snickers, mini lifesaver gummies

- 1/2ish of big sugar cookie w/ csuci design

oct 22 - Tuesday

- remaining big sugar cookie w/ csuci design

- 2 types of pasta (2nds of the first) 2 different kinds of chicken tenders

- sip of coffee atkins shake w/ vyvanse

~

- mini-marshmallows, 1 small slice pizza, bit of baked potato w/ topping (dry cheese & shredded chicken maybe?)

- n/v bars

- remaining coffee atkins shake

- mandarin cup

oct 23 - Wednesday

*visualization day: visualze ur ideal day, visualize all food as fat, sugar, and calories

-FASTING- 35 hours

   -  broke at 16 hrs

- mini ratatouille w/ sprinkle of cheese (didn't completely finish, but only a few bits left) [appetite noticeabley muted afterwards]

- movie: popcorn, chili nachos w/ nacho cheese, 2 laffy taffys, 

- 3rd laffy taffy

    - dumdum lolipop (@ dance room hangout)

- finished popcorn, pb&j, n/v bars

*exercise: just dance & other dancing w/ friends(from 9 to 11/12ish), paced a bit in my room when i shoulda been sleeping

oct 24 - Thursday

*

- fair: candies - veggie straws, small kitkat(?), 2 laffy taffys, mini swedish fish

- cafeteria: single slice of pizza, cookie

    slider (beef ? chicken? pulled out the godforsaken pineapple) bit of lemonade, 

     - ice cream cone

- practice: cookie, 2 airhead candies, 1 small whopper packet, small musketeer(?)

- @party: churros w/ vanilla ice cream, caramel and condensed milk sauce (VERY good!)

2 tacos: chicken & carne

- sunkist

oct 25 - Friday

*

- avocado smth 1/2 sandwich, pasta, potato wedges, 1 bite of cake piece

- to-go container: sauce bread pizza-not, more pasta, small bite of different pasta, fish fillet, small fruit corner, possible slice of pizza?

- 

-

- n/v bars

- 2nd avocado sandwich, twix

oct 26 - Saturday

- sip of sparkling ice w/ vyvanse

~

- pb&j @ around 6:30-7

- pizza lunchables @ around 10pm

- mandarin cup

- 2 mac&cheese bites, 2 mini spring rolls

- 1 small plum

oct 27 - Sunday(home visit to do hair c: )

- vyvanse first thing + sip of sparkling ice (around 6 am)

~ at home: 2-3 plantain pieces

- scrambled eggs w/ ketchup, twix ice cream bar

- some cashews 2x

- some grapes 2x

- honeybun 2x

- banana

- normal coke 

- turkey leg/pieces

- bite of stale fritos

- another twix ice cream bar

*evening weigh in after eating (around 6?7?8?): 190.6... 

      --> you need to sort your shit out.

oct. 28 - Monday (back.)

*visualization + regular triggers.

goals: 171 lbs by Nov. 14 (opening night) 950-950-fast.

-FAST-

- atkins cafe shake

- welch gummies, rice crispie (lol so much for the fast)

- another welch gummy

- pb granola n/v bar, chewy bar

- cafeteria 1/2:

- plum

- remaining atkins shake

oct 29 - Tuesday 

- twix

- cafe: chicken brest from sandwich (didn't eat the bun very skinny of me).... and then i ate an m&m cookie (not so skinny of me)

- 

- 2 rice crispies, 1 pb choc granola bar

- salmon

- atkins shake

- coke zero

oct 30 - Wednesday

- small portion eggs w/ ketchup, bit of fries, diet coke

- container: 1 pep. pizza, 1 cheese, lasagna (yum! *roblox voice*) small portion gnocchi pasta(tasteless, even w/ mild sauce added), mini marshmallows 

- 2 rice crispies

- tasted the orange juice/barley mix?

- trolli sour gummy worms, small pringles cup

- self-made matcha drink: matcha + honey + milk + little bit of (oat?) creamer as it was practically finished (and hot water base so it just ended up being warm... decent tasting, needed more sweetness lol)

* gym: 20 min elyptical

- hostess sprinkled cupcake thing (tastes like cardboard sweets [my defenition] )

- nature valley

~

- 2 banana laffy taffy, pink nerds small box/packet

oct 31 - Thursday

* HALLOWEEN PLAN🎃:

- first thing: vyvanse | 10 am, 1:20 pm, 5:30 pm: 10 min visualization

- collect candy and stuff from campus endeavors but don't consume

- first meal after 2nd class(?): avocado toast w/ egg + acv & metamucil

~

- vyvanse first thing, didn't do visualizations

- snickers bar eaten carefully, candies: laffy taffy and whatnot, caramel m&m's

- 

- 1 pc of orange chicken

- 2ish laffy taffy, 1 pc small milky way or musketeers?

- vodka drink, popcorn

nov 1 - Friday

- few leftover candies & more: laffy taffy, nerds

- cafeteria: pizza, lasagna, pasta, grapes, bite of cheese bread sauce thing w/ tomatoes, sprite (too much)

- ~

- bit of sparkling water w/ orange juice mix

- avocado toast w/ 2 eggs

- more candy: laffy taffy, milka (?), small milky way, etc

- taco bell: burrito supreme w/ mild sauce