oct. 19 --> oct. 29 + oct 30 - nov 1 (28th evening weigh-in: 190.6...)

 oct 19 - Saturday

*drink bottle of acv w/ lemon all day (can put into cup and heat up) & watch gross videos

- remaining 1/2 cinn. alm. nv biscuit (~95)

- lean cuisine: mac&cheese (280) + watched video of pimple popping afterwards

- ramen (430 cals)

- chic-fil-a: chicken sandwich, waffle fries, coke zero + ketchup & chicfila sauce

- twix 

- yogurtland: strawb, vanilla, brown sugar vanilla, cookies n' cream /strawb popping boba(?), 2 gummy worms, 2 half cup brownies, 1 oreo

- @ home: n/v bars [190 cals] (was craving a pb&j but was too tired/sleepy to make it)

oct 20 - Sunday

*50-100 cals an hr starting from when vyvanse wears off + 1 cup of acv&lemon water + hypnosis/visualization audio

-

-

~

- 1/2 cinn alm for plan but ended up eating it fully

- 2nd cinn. alm. n/v bars

- taco bell: quesadilla w. extra sauce, nacho taco w/ sauce

- remaining atkins shake

*15 min elyptical @ around 6-7 ish

oct 21 - Monday

*1 bite every 5-10 mins of whatever i want (no vyvanse) + play w/ spinner-ring, 10 minds beginning every hour

- event: lemonade, mini veggie sausage thing, 2 mini meat pie(?), 3 mini hot dogs. self-decorated dolphin shaped cookie. cookies n cream "delight" popsicle w/ cookie crumble & m&m toppings (didn't finish)

- welch gummies

- cinn. alm. butter biscuit

- n/v bars

- lifesaver gummies

- noodles + 2 steamed eggs(+ seasonal salt)

- kitkat (bite every 5 mins)

- cheez-its, mixed hot chips (did not satisfy craving)

- bottle crush soda

- 2 mini snickers, mini lifesaver gummies

- 1/2ish of big sugar cookie w/ csuci design

oct 22 - Tuesday

- remaining big sugar cookie w/ csuci design

- 2 types of pasta (2nds of the first) 2 different kinds of chicken tenders

- sip of coffee atkins shake w/ vyvanse

~

- mini-marshmallows, 1 small slice pizza, bit of baked potato w/ topping (dry cheese & shredded chicken maybe?)

- n/v bars

- remaining coffee atkins shake

- mandarin cup

oct 23 - Wednesday

*visualization day: visualze ur ideal day, visualize all food as fat, sugar, and calories

-FASTING- 35 hours

   -  broke at 16 hrs

- mini ratatouille w/ sprinkle of cheese (didn't completely finish, but only a few bits left) [appetite noticeabley muted afterwards]

- movie: popcorn, chili nachos w/ nacho cheese, 2 laffy taffys, 

- 3rd laffy taffy

    - dumdum lolipop (@ dance room hangout)

- finished popcorn, pb&j, n/v bars

*exercise: just dance & other dancing w/ friends(from 9 to 11/12ish), paced a bit in my room when i shoulda been sleeping

oct 24 - Thursday

*

- fair: candies - veggie straws, small kitkat(?), 2 laffy taffys, mini swedish fish

- cafeteria: single slice of pizza, cookie

    slider (beef ? chicken? pulled out the godforsaken pineapple) bit of lemonade, 

     - ice cream cone

- practice: cookie, 2 airhead candies, 1 small whopper packet, small musketeer(?)

- @party: churros w/ vanilla ice cream, caramel and condensed milk sauce (VERY good!)

2 tacos: chicken & carne

- sunkist

oct 25 - Friday

*

- avocado smth 1/2 sandwich, pasta, potato wedges, 1 bite of cake piece

- to-go container: sauce bread pizza-not, more pasta, small bite of different pasta, fish fillet, small fruit corner, possible slice of pizza?

- 

-

- n/v bars

- 2nd avocado sandwich, twix

oct 26 - Saturday

- sip of sparkling ice w/ vyvanse

~

- pb&j @ around 6:30-7

- pizza lunchables @ around 10pm

- mandarin cup

- 2 mac&cheese bites, 2 mini spring rolls

- 1 small plum

oct 27 - Sunday(home visit to do hair c: )

- vyvanse first thing + sip of sparkling ice (around 6 am)

~ at home: 2-3 plantain pieces

- scrambled eggs w/ ketchup, twix ice cream bar

- some cashews 2x

- some grapes 2x

- honeybun 2x

- banana

- normal coke 

- turkey leg/pieces

- bite of stale fritos

- another twix ice cream bar

*evening weigh in after eating (around 6?7?8?): 190.6... 

      --> you need to sort your shit out.

oct. 28 - Monday (back.)

*visualization + regular triggers.

goals: 171 lbs by Nov. 14 (opening night) 950-950-fast.

-FAST-

- atkins cafe shake

- welch gummies, rice crispie (lol so much for the fast)

- another welch gummy

- pb granola n/v bar, chewy bar

- cafeteria 1/2:

- plum

- remaining atkins shake

oct 29 - Tuesday 

- twix

- cafe: chicken brest from sandwich (didn't eat the bun very skinny of me).... and then i ate an m&m cookie (not so skinny of me)

- 

- 2 rice crispies, 1 pb choc granola bar

- salmon

- atkins shake

- coke zero

oct 30 - Wednesday

- small portion eggs w/ ketchup, bit of fries, diet coke

- container: 1 pep. pizza, 1 cheese, lasagna (yum! *roblox voice*) small portion gnocchi pasta(tasteless, even w/ mild sauce added), mini marshmallows 

- 2 rice crispies

- tasted the orange juice/barley mix?

- trolli sour gummy worms, small pringles cup

- self-made matcha drink: matcha + honey + milk + little bit of (oat?) creamer as it was practically finished (and hot water base so it just ended up being warm... decent tasting, needed more sweetness lol)

* gym: 20 min elyptical

- hostess sprinkled cupcake thing (tastes like cardboard sweets [my defenition] )

- nature valley

~

- 2 banana laffy taffy, pink nerds small box/packet

oct 31 - Thursday

* HALLOWEEN PLAN🎃:

- first thing: vyvanse | 10 am, 1:20 pm, 5:30 pm: 10 min visualization

- collect candy and stuff from campus endeavors but don't consume

- first meal after 2nd class(?): avocado toast w/ egg + acv & metamucil

~

- vyvanse first thing, didn't do visualizations

- snickers bar eaten carefully, candies: laffy taffy and whatnot, caramel m&m's

- 

- 1 pc of orange chicken

- 2ish laffy taffy, 1 pc small milky way or musketeers?

- vodka drink, popcorn

nov 1 - Friday

- few leftover candies & more: laffy taffy, nerds

- cafeteria: pizza, lasagna, pasta, grapes, bite of cheese bread sauce thing w/ tomatoes, sprite (too much)

- ~

- bit of sparkling water w/ orange juice mix

- avocado toast w/ 2 eggs

- more candy: laffy taffy, milka (?), small milky way, etc

- taco bell: burrito supreme w/ mild sauce

oct. 8 --> oct.18 (cw: 182.6)

oct. 8 - Tuesday

- pizza slice, small portion pasta, 1/4 banana, fruit bowl: grapes, cantaloupe (don't think i finished)

- 

- 6 strawberries + very watered down acv & lemon

- twix

- dave's hot chicken: mac & cheese (290 cals)

- some of watermelon spear

oct. 9 - Wednesday

- rice crispie (90)

- gnocchi pasta, some sort of thai pasta w/ shredded meat?, mini egg roll, grapes

- ice cream cone w/ cookie crumble on top

- lifesaver gummies

- pizza, like 2 bites of pasta, sip of orange fanta, (? - i don't think i had anything else, but shocker i can't remember)

- 1/2 chicken cheeseburger thing w/ ketchup, slice of lemon cake

- bites of fruit: cantaloupe, pineapple, honeydew

oct 10 - Thursday

PLAN: 1,000 calories

- weigh in bathroom

- don't eat until 12. consume strawberries w/ yogurt - 104 cals + half salmon fillet - 150 cals = 254 cals total

- absolutely no snacking from the bowl in the classroom. not a single caramel piece, or rice crispie. if you eat one, you fail. simple as that. enough with the mindless snacking and sugar consumption.

- 1 meal from cafeteria: no pasta, no pizza, one source of protein (can be a burger) remove any unnecessary excess carbs (ex. eating a burger, take off the top bun and cut bottom bun in half) eat fruit in a soup bowl, no extras no dessert no cookies

- can eat leftover fruit from tray throughout night

- bed workout between class break, either after 12 or after 4:20 or after practice/

  * that's your plan. 3 eating windows of the day. Brunch after class, a cafeteria meal at some point, and fruit for night snacking. nothing more nothing less. *remind self every 10 mins*

EXECUTION:

- drank sips of water from gallon, didn’t refill hydroflask till afternoon class

- didn’t eat lunch due to no appetite from Vyvanse. started eating salmon at around 1:12 pm (didn’t finish)

- finished salmon after class. ate strawberries and yogurt a little while after (around 30 mins later) 

- cravings started in the middle of afternoon class (looks like eating earlier triggers them) have been on and off all evening, using thoughts and motivation to combat them. ate some fruit(grapes, cantaloupe, honeydew, pineapple) from container and some cucumbers as well. did not give into temptation to eat rice crispie.

- cafeteria: got 1/2 chicken burger, fruits & cucumber (but if lettuce) also got 3 orange chicken pieces. 

ate chicken pieces at dorm, took few bites of chicken burger (removed top bun, added ketchup) ate pieces of honeydew, grapes, & a few cucumbers.

- drank cup of water with capful of acv & lemon juice added (didn't finish)

 / currently @ practice: cravings seemed to have calmed

- ended up taking cookie muffin things (180) and cheese crackers (200) from practice

- crashed out and ate a piece of the cookie muffin, tasted very fake to me, took a bite of the cheese cracker and it just activated my brain centers or whtvr. kept eating more with a "last one" mindset and putting off my constant reminder method. also snacked on fruit and cucumber but whoopdidoo.

- further crashed out with my supposed "last meal of the day" by eating a pb&j.

- crash-out final boss when i ordered a taco bell beefy cheese burger (with added lettuce and creamy jalapeno sauce) that did not scratch the itch in my brain whatsoever.

- fell asleep.

oct. 11 - Friday

did you even try?

- took too long to take vyvanse, cravings kick in, off to cafeteria she goes

- 3 pcs french toast w/ syrup, soup bowl of lucky charms, small portion of eggs w/ ketchup, hashbrown, and sausage patty but it's ok because i didn't finish it completely. only left one french toast piece, half the sausage patty, most of the (now marshmallowless) lucky charms behind! fruit bowl too (grapes, cantaloupe, honeydew) - didn't finish.

- fruit blaster gummies

~

- cheez-its, pb&j

- snickers(?)

oct. 12 - Saturday

- "empanada" shaped tortilla with eggs & sausage (added ketchup), small prtion of rice & ham (mostly ate ham), some fried pcs things that remind me of akara, few pcs of grapes and pineapple

~

- cheez-its, m&m's

- pb & j

- strawberries, small portion water w/ acv & lemon

- twix

* ~30min walk

oct. 13 - Sunday

- (11:30amish) bbq pizza (2x), small portion mashed potatoes (2x), like 2-3 french toast sticks w/ syrup

- (3:15pmish) 2 bbq pizza slices, 2 mini rice crispie treats, pineapple & cantaloupe cubes

- cheez-its (210), quest cookie(240)

* gym: ~32 mins on elyptical 💪🏾

oct. 14 - Monday

- portion of pasta, garlib bread stick w/ cheese, carne asada maybe(? - no clue, stuff type of beef/meat) + rice & beans (small portion), small portion grapes & pineapple, 

- cheese crackers

- kitkat bar

- diet coke

- sip of protein drink, burrito, nerd gummy clusters, sun chips

- water w/ acv & lemon

* 10k steps

oct. 15 - Tuesday

* no vyvanse: 1600-2000 cals (natural appetite suppressors)

* tsp of fiber before every meal, acv & lemon juice after. + fidget

    - forgot fiber + acv. ate: rice crispie(90), juicy burst, & pb snack (190)

       + mixed hot chips ( )

- 1 + 1/2 rice crispie, another juicy burst gummy, cinnamon & almond butter snack thing

- pasta (2 different kinds, more of the cheese alfredo than the dry red sauce one) fries

       + metamucil & acv lemon water

- (sleep for like 10 mins before practice) - @practice: eat various candies for g's bday: small twix, small airhead, small snickers, small milkyway, bite of cake i didn't like, ate pcs of red velvet cake w/ pink icing that was actually good. another cinnamon almond butter snacker-thing

-@ dorm: eat portion of red velvet cake, eat pieces of cupcake

- metamucil + acv & lemon

- ring-pop

- twix, skittles (left very few behind) ANOTHER bag of mixed hot chips

- 12pm: 1 course. (side of fruit + veggie first) pick one main thing to eat from cafeteria - eat slowly.

- 4:20ish-pm: 1 course (side of fruit + veggie first) - eat slowly pleeaaasseee.

* nap from 4:50 to 5:30 - napped for like 15ish minutes from 5:30 to 5:45 to 5:51/2

- 9pm: last meal + protein drink

oct. 16 - Wednesday

* vyvanse + 1,600 (eat @ meal times) TAKE IT FIRST THING IN THE MORNING

  -  took too long (over an hour) to take my vyvanse..again. ending up eating the last 1/4 of twix and last few pcs of skittles (casually ignored/procrastinated on giving into cravings for more twix)

- chugged a lot of water

- too lazy to make avocado toast (don't even have all the ingredients like seasoning, preferred eggs, toaster, etc) decided to make it at 3pm and start meal times there.

- made/ate avocado toast @ around 4:50pm-5pm (there's a toaster in la family room! c: ) added mild sauce for seasoning. Cals: 310 (est.)

- 6:30ish: 2 buffalo wings (est. 176), 2 bbq wings(est. 262), fruit&veggie bowl: cucumbers, cantaloupe, grapes (~100) total: ~538 est.

- 10:50ish-11:00pm~: 2st: strawb. ice cream bar (180), mandarin cups (40), protein shake (250 - drank half first, then finished the rest) total: 470

Total Of The Day: 1,318

+

oct. 17 - Thursday

* vyvanse in the morning + list of foods to eat for cravings during day(reversed w/ friday)

~

- unlimited fruit + veggie (must eat at least one portion)

     > ate cantaloupe, grapes, & pineapple. + apple

- 1 slice of pizza OR small portion of pasta

- 1 rice crispie replace w/ smth else for 90-120 cals: x

- 1 bar

- 1 juicy burst [replaced w/ 3 musketeers since there's no juicy burst] (small portion, not the vending machine - NO VENDING MACHINERY TODAY)

- extra: 3 mini musketeers, 1 big pocky, chili cheese fries

    > ate half-ish of chili cheese fries from 10/11... finished rest just before 4am

*11:47pm: 13,030 steps

oct. 18 - Friday

*182.6 this morning

* add-don't-subtract: small portion of what i want accompanied by fruit & veggies(reversed w/ thursday)

- 12:50-12:54~: portion of rigatoni pasta(didn't finish) and smaaall portion of mac-like pasta, 1 chicken-looking fried fish(?) tender/fillet?, another fried fish fillet 2x, w/ ketchup, 2 choc/m&m cookies (big-back meal)

- diet coke

~ around 10pm(abt 9 hrs of no eating):

- cinnamon almond butter nv biscuits (190 cals)

- sip of atkins shake (~50 cals)

- salmon (300 cals)

- 1/2 cin. alm. nv bis. (~95) + 15 grapes (~40 cals) [a-d-s] -> i think i'm allergic to this brand of grapes bc my throat, chin, and back itched for quite some time afterwards. i was coughing too and slightly wheezing (but i could still breath fine)

- hot jasmine __ tea w/ lemon to try and help with itchiness/allergy

ULTIMATE List of Diets/Methods/Tools for organization (lmao) [10/18/2024]

post-2020

Wasting Away: List of Tools (47poundstothin.blogspot.com)

Wasting Away: Habits/List of Tools - CONTINUED (cw: 187.6 w/ clothes) (47poundstothin.blogspot.com)

Wasting Away: April 18, 2023 (+facts of metamucil to imprint it into my brain) (47poundstothin.blogspot.com)

Wasting Away: triggering motivational reminders (10/12/24) (47poundstothin.blogspot.com)

Wasting Away: Atomic Habits plan (47poundstothin.blogspot.com)

Wasting Away: "Cravings At Bay" concept plan | Sept. 12 (~11/10 possibly) (47poundstothin.blogspot.com)

Wasting Away: eating plan + schedule (47poundstothin.blogspot.com)

Wasting Away: what i want --> what i need to do | + spo | + aesthetic text emoticons (47poundstothin.blogspot.com)

Wasting Away: ANTI BINGE TECH BLOCKS (47poundstothin.blogspot.com)

Wasting Away: brainwash/visualization/affirmation/manifisation (47poundstothin.blogspot.com)

Wasting Away: skinny habit development plant (47poundstothin.blogspot.com)

Wasting Away: 131.4 lbs by June 8, 2024 - visualization madness (47poundstothin.blogspot.com)

Wasting Away: possible diets going forward (47poundstothin.blogspot.com)

Wasting Away: fidget ideas + no sugar diet + reddit comments (47poundstothin.blogspot.com)

Wasting Away: Aversion Visualization (47poundstothin.blogspot.com)

Wasting Away: Fasting is the revolution~ (adf 6-6 concept) (47poundstothin.blogspot.com)

Wasting Away: Rolling 48 hr fast plan (47poundstothin.blogspot.com)

Wasting Away: July 1, 2023 (officially 6 months into the year...) (47poundstothin.blogspot.com)

Wasting Away: Diet Cycling/Method-switching Plan (47poundstothin.blogspot.com)

Wasting Away: June 19, 2023 + pending diets (cw: 192.0) (47poundstothin.blogspot.com)

Wasting Away: On Track for 114 by December ! (update as diet progresses) (47poundstothin.blogspot.com)

Wasting Away: C/S Ritual (47poundstothin.blogspot.com)

Wasting Away: diet ideas: c/s, keto to fast, aha, etc (47poundstothin.blogspot.com)

Wasting Away: Vyvanse Diet Plan + Visualizing Failure + Discomfort Training (47poundstothin.blogspot.com)

Wasting Away: June Diet Plan (Ideas, Rules, etc.) (47poundstothin.blogspot.com)

Wasting Away: May 31, 2023 (Whatever It Takes Diet) (47poundstothin.blogspot.com)

Wasting Away: May 27, 2023 (cw: 197.0 :c ) + low appetite list (47poundstothin.blogspot.com)

Wasting Away: May 24, 2023 (day 1 of 1200! - failed.) wanna do a dopamine detox (47poundstothin.blogspot.com)

Wasting Away: May 15, 2023 (fasting training - 1st day) (47poundstothin.blogspot.com)

Wasting Away: May 3, 2023 **APPETITE TRAINING/7 LEAVES** (47poundstothin.blogspot.com)

Wasting Away: minimally processed eating (47poundstothin.blogspot.com)

Wasting Away: April 10, 2023 (productive visualization day) (47poundstothin.blogspot.com)

Wasting Away: **NEW FOOD RULES** (March 19) (47poundstothin.blogspot.com)

Wasting Away: Goals + Losertown tracking for 600 daily (47poundstothin.blogspot.com)

Wasting Away: NEW Diet Plan - Starting March 1st! (47poundstothin.blogspot.com)

Wasting Away: February 21, 2023 + Feb 22 (Appetite Decreasing Plan) (47poundstothin.blogspot.com)

Wasting Away: Ideal Beauty/Girl Plan - Starting Marsh 1st! + Possible Liquid Diet plans (47poundstothin.blogspot.com)

Wasting Away: Example Day (starting March 1st) (47poundstothin.blogspot.com)

Wasting Away: February 16, 2023 | pep-talks on nights of bad days(idea) (47poundstothin.blogspot.com)

Wasting Away: Eat Lower Naturally Habit Plan (47poundstothin.blogspot.com)

Wasting Away: Switch-it-Up Diet Plan (47poundstothin.blogspot.com)

Wasting Away: February 9, 2023 (vyvanse rules) (47poundstothin.blogspot.com)

Wasting Away: cravings are cravings for calories and obesity, true pleasure is eating nothing and getting closer to fairy thin (47poundstothin.blogspot.com)

Wasting Away: Stimulant Diet Plan (for December mainly) (47poundstothin.blogspot.com)

Wasting Away: December 3rd to December 7th, 2022 - MPA inspired diet (47poundstothin.blogspot.com)

Wasting Away: my 30 day diet | visualization and mental rehearsal (47poundstothin.blogspot.com)

Wasting Away: August 11, 2022 (47poundstothin.blogspot.com)

Wasting Away: Plan to reach my UGW by February-March (to May) | July 25 (47poundstothin.blogspot.com)

Wasting Away: diet calorie ranks + different plans (47poundstothin.blogspot.com)

Wasting Away: man, my head is swarming with ideas | metabolism/weight concerns + thinspo(aesthetic) (47poundstothin.blogspot.com)

Wasting Away: my aesthetics~ (47poundstothin.blogspot.com)

Wasting Away: restricted yesterday (47poundstothin.blogspot.com)

Wasting Away: losertown if 800 a day (w/ garcinia cambogia that sorta kinda not really works) (47poundstothin.blogspot.com)

Wasting Away: if i eat 1,600 and fast every 3rd day (47poundstothin.blogspot.com)

Wasting Away (47poundstothin.blogspot.com)

Wasting Away: -3.8 lbs in 2 days | successful liquid diet/fast (47poundstothin.blogspot.com)

Wasting Away: update on liquid/non fasting diet! (47poundstothin.blogspot.com)

Wasting Away: ease into restriction plan + thinspo (47poundstothin.blogspot.com)

Wasting Away: possible craving cure? :o (47poundstothin.blogspot.com)

Wasting Away: toddler diet idea | Merry Christmas (47poundstothin.blogspot.com)

Wasting Away: hot lemon water / caffeine pill (47poundstothin.blogspot.com)

Wasting Away: update (47poundstothin.blogspot.com)

Wasting Away: 31 Day Diet (47poundstothin.blogspot.com)

Wasting Away: fasting motivation (47poundstothin.blogspot.com)

Wasting Away: using porn to kill appetite. (47poundstothin.blogspot.com)

Wasting Away (47poundstothin.blogspot.com)

Wasting Away: boring update (47poundstothin.blogspot.com)

Wasting Away: 186 (47poundstothin.blogspot.com)

Wasting Away: meanspo (47poundstothin.blogspot.com)

Wasting Away: cw: 194.6 (47poundstothin.blogspot.com)

pre-2020

Wasting Away (47poundstothin.blogspot.com)

triggering motivational reminders (10/12/24)

 - think of what your body looks like/looked like. think of your current weight and how much you gained (suspected ~186 lbs)

- think of the calories in the foods you crave. see food as numbers.

- think of how you're perceived, how other people see you (also works for skin)

- think of how you used to walk around disheveled in highschool, how you were over 200 lbs and looked a mess. how you used to be a "princess". compare how you look now & in hs to your toddler self.

- compare yourself to jess and other skinnier prettier girls in your life. think of the teen years you never had and still don't because of your looks.

- visualize yourself still being the exact same weight by new years eve.

- think of the food - the sugar, the salt, the oil - poisoning your insides and adding onto your fat

- visualize the fat in your body, in all it's yellow slimy sticky glory, ruining your potential good looks

- think of how the bad eating habits & sleep influence your adhd (and your skin)

sept. 27 --> oct. 7

sept. 27

- 6am-allnighter: cup noodles

   ~ schleep ~

-  mixed hot chips

- molten chocolate cake w/ caramel & vanilla ice cream (mid) little bit of melted chocolate that tastes like plastic and broken dreams

- container: (didn't finish) small portion pasta, pizza, (?)

- pb tasting possibly

sept. 28

- remaining container: sandwich w/ bacon and avocado, fish fillet(tilapia?), cubed dessert thing i think tastes like apple spice&cinnamon?, potato slices

- yogurt

- container: brownie, fries, hot dog w/ ketchup & mustard, small portion fruit: cantaloupe & honeydew,?, bites of pizza, bites of chicken, (didn't finish container)

- post 9pm: remaining atkins shake

sept. 29

- 😬mixed hot chips, twix, cheez-its

- mandarin orange cups

- matcha iced latte w/ sweet foam (mom's recipe)

- small fruit bowl: cantaloupe, honeydew, pineapple & water

~

- choc drizzled white crispie treat i saved from the cafeteria DAYSS ago

- remainder of container: pizza & like saucy one chicken piece lol

- tiny taste of pb

~ 1:50+ am: yogurt, mandarin orange cup

- twix bar :(, coffee candy piece, small sip of atkins, ricola

sept. 30

- matcha iced latte recipe (~300)

- ~ long period no food till like ~7:50ish ~ -

- snickerdoodle cookie, container: two types of pasta, one green and tasted pretty good, other ribbon shaped also good but dry, cucumbers, slice of pizza

- ~11:40pm ish - twix :/

- ~ 4:50 am ish - atkins shake (10/1/2024)

oct 1

- melted haribo gummy (5-6), caramel, 2(3?) rice crispie 

- dave's hot chicken: sandwich w/ sauce, honey packet, &mild sauce, fries, mac & cheese

- twix

- twizzler

- sour roll up candy, hard candy ring, twizzler, hi-chew, milky way

- atkins shake

- mandarin cup

oct 2

- 1 pc coffee candy, pc of japanese melon candy

- ~ pretty long period of no real food

- chili hot dog w/ cheeto dust, fries, small lasagna, couple bites of gnocchi (tasted like nothing)

- din-din: slice of pizza, cucumbers, canataloupe/honeydew/grapes, apple, bites of chicken(unfinished)

- cheez-its, snickers bar

oct. 3

- 2 haribo gummy packets (like 4 more through-out the day)

- 1/2 kind pb bar (fell on the floor), dark choc kind bar, another pb one later in the day

- dryish cheese angel hair pasta thing, bites of weird saucy pasta/grain/dish thing?, fish fillet, 1/2 a slider

- pastry thing, ice cream cone

- possibly: lasanga portion, pizza (?), pasta - could be compl

- 2 monsters (didn't finish 2nd one) 1 strawberry dreams smth, other ultra fantasy ruby red (~20)

  - (didn't do as much for my appetite as i'd hoped... prolly shoulda chugged both)

- burger, big (and delicious) ice cream cone from movie night then back to practice

- caramel pc

- popcorn w/ added caramel and butter seasonings, burger #2 while watching last few minutes of C.R.A movie and then finished in dorm

- (cold)burger #3 while pacing around... like okay onika

oct 4

- leftover popcorn

~

- ~6:30pm-ish: fruit plate: cantaloupe, honeydew, grapes, nature valley crumbles, small portion of pasta, water

- naptime: (started @ 7.. didn't rlly fall asleep till after 8 and got up after 9:30)

- 10ish: leftover piece of saucy chicken

- 11:30ish: pb&j

  ~4:43-458/9: elliptical (felt slightly euphoric)

oct 5

- small water bottles w/ mio shots (60mg caffeine each - abt 2-3 servings) *+*

- yogurt w/ strawberries (104 cals)

- cafeteria: small portion lucky charms, small portion rice & shrimp

- chocolatey chip cookie 

- salted caramel cream cold brew (190 cals) *+*

- ~

- ice cream cone, container: 1/2 hot dug bun w/ light chili inside, few fries, 2-4 bites of fish, few fries, small portion of (very good) pasta, 1 1/2 - 2 chicken tenders, 2 snicker doodle cookies

- watermelon spear

- 2 buzzballs (~456 cals) 😬

- 10k+ steps

~ finished off container: other 1/2 chili hot dog bun, 2nd chicken tender, few fries, rest of fish

- twix, peanut m&m's

oct. 6 / riccola at some point

- lunch plate: small portion pasta, bites of enchildada thing(+sauces), few potato pieces, egg dish thing, few black beans, fruit bowl: grapes, cantaloupe, cucumbers (don't think i finished) ~snickerdoodle cookie (possibly)

- ~ long time no eat

- cafeteria dinner (can't remember) - possibly slice of pizza, 

- some of lean cuisine (i think that shit was rotten)

- watermelon spear

- kitkat bar

- skittles

oct 7

- salmon (300 cals)

- 2 caramel pcs

- kind bar pb & dark choc

- tonkotsu ramen

- 1 slice pizza

- taco bell: quesadilla, big cheez it / animal frosted cracker cookies

- sprite, funyuns

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class starts at 1:30!!!!

1:30 !!!!!!

!! not 1:20, tho u know that and it's your leaving time but your brain keep saying the class starts are 1:20 it is 1:30 !!!! it ends at 4:20

Atomic Habits plan

Habit building can overlap (if not overwhelming)

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Weight Loss:

1. No eating after 9pm (brush teeth to signify the end of eating time).

~ duration: ideally 7-9 days but should be done until I get used to it~

2. (if haven't establish already) fruit bowl + VEGGIES before every meal OR rather small portion of whatever I crave + portion of fruit & veggie

3. No eating between 3-4pm

4. Hydroflask routine

5. No eating between 3-5pm

6. Gym every other day/ Dorm workout every other day

7. No eating between 2-5pm

8. (if you haven't already) buy groceries and start preparing your own meals [reduce cafeteria eating to 2x a week only]

9. No eating between 2-6pm

10. No eating between 1-6pm

11. No eating after 7pm.

12. Reduce lunch to 400 calories.

13. Reduce dinner to 400 calories.

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Skin/Beauty/Hygiene

1. Skincare everyday at 9 am (with or without shower) + SUNSCREEN!!

2. Hair oiling

3. Regular body hair grooming

4. Shower daily

5. Body blemish management

6. 6 separate hrs of productivity a day (split into two sections of 3)

other habits pending: eating fruit bowl before every meal (NEED to pay more attention to fullness signals, STOP stuffing yourself for the sake of it pleaassee before you ruin ur eating signals even more)

sept. 17 --> sept. 26

 sept. 17

- 6:25~ am: small frenchbread pizza

- chocolate drizzy rice crispie, possible: caramels, gummies(i don't think so)

- lunch: chicken wrap thingy with hot sauce in it, 2 types of pasta (small portions), shredded beef w/ rice(small portion)

- burger, s.p. mashed potatoes, 1 snickerdoodle cookie, 1 choc. chip, lil bit of coleslaw, hard garlic bread, piece of grilled chicken

sept. 18

- remaining bite of chicken

- breakfast: small portion of (2) types of pasta, meatball thingy, plain pasta (small portion, like 5 noodles), fruit: grapes, pineapple, honeydew (~last 2 tasted plain as hell)

- 1 pc of starburst

- 1 big original rice crispie

- fruit bowl: grapes, pineapple, honeydew

- some more of the sauce/cheese pasta (ate like 3 pieces)

- small portion rice, beans, & beef

- mixed fruit gush gummies (200)

- pizza

sept. 19 - ~12k steps

- 1 pc coffee candy

- motts gummies, 1 choc. drizzle rice crispie, 3-5 caramels

- linner: portion of mac type pasta, like 2 bow noodles, bites of chicken thing, mini-fruit bowl: pineapple, cantaloupe, grapes

- grandma creme cookies

- popeyes chicken sandwich

- (extra 3 caramels & motts gummies in my bag)

- mixed fruit gummies

sept. 20

- breakfast: tortilla chips w/ shredded chicken saucy thing & small black beans, mac&cheese thing that had a hint of hot sauce, fruit bowl: grapes, pineapple, cantaloupe, choc chip cookie with bits of m&m

- peanut butter cookies

~6-7 hrs later~

- 2 caramels, 2 coffee candies, 1 pink sprinkled donut

sept. 21 ~185 lbs (w/ clothes & pad - on carpeted floor: 180.4 lbs, on wooden nightstand: 187, in bathroom: 185)

- water + vyvanse first thing in the morning

- 4:47 pm: fruit bowl - grapes, cantaloupe / coffee w 2 sweeteners & drop of soy milk / tiny portions of 2 different pasta (barely ate one), chicken breast with red sauce on it, chicken wrap thing with white cause on it | est calories; fruit bowl(~50-100), coffee(~30), chicken (~200), the pastas combined(~200), the wrap (~250) = 730 estimated... possible overestimation | 

- atkins strawberry shake(150)

- pb tasting (~200)

- lean cuisine ravioli (250)

sept 22

- breakfast: oatmeal w/ added (brown?) sugar & soy milk, small quesadilla thing, soup + 2 crackers, small portion rice & beef, fruit bowl: grapes, cantaloupe, cucumber, + crunchy tortilla thig w/ breans & egg

- taste of pb

- dinner: 2 different types of pasta small portion, enchilada thingy(nasty), fruit bowl: grapes, cantaloupe, pineapple (didn't finish all the pineapple) + bites of brownie (didn't finish, mid.)

- mixed fruit gummies

- sips of atkins shake

~no eat after 9pm: successful✅

sept. 23

- small portion mac&cheese, small portion of lasagna (didn't finish either), small fruit bowl: cantaloupe, honeydew, grapes (didn't finish

- remaining mixed fruit gummies

- tiny pizza slice, small chicken half slider(the piece of chicken inside was genuinely small, m&m? cookie, 2nd slice of pizza (didn't finish), small piece of frosted cake thingy w/ choc chip in it (didn't finish)

- togo: 2 slices pizza, fries, small portion of pasta

- remaining sip of atkins shake

sept 24

- container(?), small portion of rie + (weird tasting) rice

- taste of pb

- @ around 1:30am, broke 9pm rule :/ taco bell: big cheez it toastada, nachos

sept 25

- pasta/lasagna thing, chicken wings (2), bite of egg roll, ice cream cone, bite of chocolate cake (mid)

- field trip: lunch box - cookie, chips, xtra: hello panda, piece of brownie, piece of cookie, deja blue canned purified water (yammi!)

 ~ later from same lunch box: sandwich, rest of chips (finished @ night - stopped eatin at around (9:10)

- taste of pb

sept 26

- black forest gummy juicy burst

- meatball sub thing (small) x2 :/ didn't rlly finished the 2nd one i thing, 2 salted caramel cookies, small portion pasta, diet coke (didn't finish)

~ . - monster ultra (10 cals - 150 mg caffeine)

- @ around 9:30-10pm (took a long ahh time: popeyes chicken sandwich w/ cheese + honey packet & mild sauce packet

- sip of atkins shake

- taste of pb 

all-nighter~~~~ 6:00am + on Friday morning: cup noodles / successfully stopped eating after 9? sorta