got down to 185.6, made a bad judgement and maintained it for an extra day, then fucked up my fast and decided not to weigh myself until nov 10. allowing myself to do whatever for the next 3 days then i'll start back up on nov 1 and get my ish together again
i feel at peace. i’m happy for losing 3.2 lbs but all i want is to desperately be lower than 185 as soon as possible, but i’m fasting every other day for the rest of October so i’ll be even lower than that by the end :)
I’m just anxious to get back into the 170’s and then the 160’s
this will be the last time I find myself back in the 190s for sure. I’ve been using seasonal salt as an appetite suppressant, so I’m a bit worried that my weight loss today won’t be enough to get me into the 180s (weighed in at 192.4) but I’ll try not to be too hopeless.
I may be in a little bit of a bind next week after my friends hang out at her place for HALLOWEEN🎃, but I’ll try to be smart about it and not let the two day period in which I treat myself completely control me and make me gain weight again
got down to 185.4, maintained for another day during a picnic w my friends
gained weight after said picnic(186.6), fucked up yesterday and gained more weight
so i was 189.0 this morning
obviously not happy w myself for being a stupid pig but i’m fasting today so i’ll probably be 186 again tomorrow.
on the other hand, i’m feeling pretty happy cuz i found out my older s has plans to move out next year after spring - which means i’ll have my room back to myself by the time reach my ugw :)
update: broke my fast at my scholarship ceremony w 3 cookies, and 2 pizza slices LOL! fasting again until the 20th
looks like i've finally sorta worked off all my food weight since oct 2 >:)
and today's a fast day, so i could very well be 184 tomorrow!
Which means I would have OFFICIALLY worked off all the weight I've gained since late 2016 - early 2017!!!!!
honestly, i'm so excited it feels like i'll be at my ugw in no time. i just have to stay focused and stay on track and it'll pay off. Another thing I've noticed is that water really does help with cravings!
So there was this one plan I attempted back in middle school, basically for meal times I plan something super small and light which gives me room and extra calories to snack on throughout the day…
in hindsight, it’s a pretty good plan for someone like me who likes to snack a lot. it didn’t work for me back then because I went too overboard and got too lenient, but I’m more in control now than back then so next eating day(day after tmrw since im fasting) i’m going to attempt it again - and hopefully it works!
Looks like those days of constant over eating didn’t fuck me up too badly… Still mad that I gained weight in general, and I’m still not back at my lowest weight from finishing my IF plan... And this was after two days of trying my best to get it together too. But it’s still so hard to resist cravings… Today was supposed to be another 1000 day, but I’m pretty sure I eat around 1200 or 1400. hopefully I don’t gain any weight and I lose but I just really want to be able to resist cravings easily
