stimulation diet (+ possible outing w/ fiber & protein weekends)

- vyvanse in the morning, coffee or other source of caffeine (at least 150 grams but 200g is ideal) @ around 4 pm, exercise to counteract any extreme "tightness" feeling.

- possibility of doing this 3-4/7 days a week, while spending the weekends(which are 4 days for me but i can have off days) doing outings and "protein and fibermaxxing" aka trying to get in as much protein i can and also consuming small amounts of metamucil all day till it adds up. (half a spoon like 4-5x a day) ---> this would also prevent building up a tolerance to the caffeine and becoming too reliant on the vyvanse, as well as mitigating any effects i'm worried it'll have on my health and heart (and brain)

- point of this is to live my fantasy of "restricting with no cravings" just being free to eat (or not eat) how i would choose and be "anorexic" in peace. only issue is that when i'm on the stimulants, it makes me lazy and not try or think abt my diet as much. i need to stay connected and really revel in the lack of appetite and think of it as a superpower i have over everyone else, make planned meals (whether i decide to eat them or not) track my intake, and avoid compulsive snacking just bc it wore off a little. this helps me put in less mental effort on restricting but i can't completely let go because i still won't lose weight.

ningning 41 kg queen. so triggering. her and giselle, who clearly loves being anorexic and underweight.

march 20 - march 30

 

march 20

*plan* ~vyvanse~

- jello (90 cals)

- nectarine (63 cals) it tasted bad so i ate a tangerine instead (40 cals + estimated 12 from nectarine so = 52 cals)

- plum (30 cals)

- strawberries & yogurt (104 cals)

- avocado toast w/ egg (380 cals) replaced w/ slice of pizza @ bowling (300-400* cals)

- honey bun (220 cals)

exercise: evening walk walking around mall, bowling 

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extra: 1/2 david protein bar (so like ~200 cals? considering the lawsuit and the lies), sample meat toothpick, bite of rice with slight bean in it

- lemon water

- cracked due to cravings: pizza w/ ranch, cheerios [bc i was still craving more pizza but didn’t want to eat another slice… didn’t rlly help in the end] ‘nother pizza w/ ranch [yep, i ended up eating another slice anyway :/ ]

planned total: 887/900

act. total: 792(so far) ~1,592-1,900*/900

march 20

*plan*

- avocado toast w/ egg (380 cals)

- 2 tangerines (80 cals)

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march 22

- recipe (several portions)

march 23

* vyvanse *

- doritos (first meal) --> vyvanse kicked in soon after

- coke zero (eventually)

- avocado toast

march 24

* vyvanse *

+ bed @ 1:50 am after talking to b for almost 2 hours then moving files on dad's laptop THEN packing

+ woke up @ 5 am and took uber @ 6 am and she had candies and gum in her car that i barely noticed after 40 mins

- 2 caramels, 2 jolly ranches, 1 mexican watermelon candy

- [back at dorm]: ferrero rocher, sushi (vyvanse kicked in and i didn't finish both till later in the day)

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- rice crispie @ practice that took me a while to eat

- sunflower seeds

- several rice cake chips (the jalapeno cheese flavored ones)

total: ~1,300-1,800/800

march 25

* vyvanse + caffeine "maxxing" plan *

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library / tiktok ed pro-ana spam (+ mobile uploads)

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tonguelol

march 9 - march 19

march 9

weight: 199.80(fully clothed, after gym)

~~fasting / 31 hrs~~

*vyvanse*

plan: gym(20 mins elyptical, 25 x2 leg press, 10 mins treadmill or arm leg swing, 50 x1 arm pull ups) after waking up, then shower

--> if desperate to eat, c&s | grocery shop some safe foods

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exercise: gym - 15 mins elliptical, 25 x2 leg press thing, 20 min treadmill, forgot about arm pull-ups

- mostly water

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- 7:50pm-ish: coffee + hazelnut creamer, half&half pouch, packet of sugar

- little less than half a stick of gum

weight @ night before bed: 198.80 (w/ clothes, iktr)

march 10

weight: 196.80 (half clothed after eating some dry snacks)

- broke fast around 12:10 pm: cheeto puffs

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march 11

- poke bowl + peach shaped japanese ice cream

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- gold fish

march 12

- sbux: matcha latte order

- didn’t eat till 5 pm (no appetite and didn’t even think abt it :3 ) sun salsa chips(?)

- hot cheeto fries

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- (hangout w roomie) 3 slices of pizza, 3 1/2 white claws,

- another slice of pizza, hot funyuns, sunflower seeds, 

march 13

- sbux: matcha order / brekkie: clam chowder w those hexagon crackers

- 2x bueno choc bar

- sunflower seeds

- 2 square dark choc

- rice w/ stew

- rice w/ BEEF stew

- sip of wine

march 14

- hot dog + oatmeal raisin cookie from farmers market parents got me

- 1 square of dark choc 

- honey glazed ham

- peach shaped ice cream + bueno choc bar

- bites of mac & cheese 

- bite of gluten free cracker

- maybe a few sunflower seeds?

exercise: mild walking, ICE SKATING!!❤️⛸️❄️~

march 15

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march 16

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march 17

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march 18

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march 19

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considering doing this:

or this (could be ideal for a campus diet):

 or simply eat 1,300 cals until my grad date. fun fact: if i eat 1600 cals on non-vyvanse days and 400 cals on vyvanse days (alternate day diet plan) my average would be 1,000 cals total