aug. 14 + aug. 15 (plan)[didn't follow] - aug. 18

aug.14

*fasting till 6 plan*

around 1-2: glucerna, 1 spoon metamucil + acv & lemon

- yogurt(?) popsicle (?)

5smth(in movie theaters): milk duds, popcorn, diet pepsi

post movie 7:40ish: ?

- 8-9ish: 2 eggs w/ ketchup, 3 fish tacos, 1/2 grapefruit

- metamucil

total: ~2,270(before adding in smth) - ~2,300-2,400

fasted post 10pm

aug.15 (plan)[didn't follow]

- broke fast @ mall: ate chocolate cube with mint choc chip filling @ around 3pmish

- mall meal w/ dad: hi bbq - strawberry, bulgoggi bento, white rice, orange slice, sushi 2 pcs, gyoza 2 pcs

12: nothing, intermittent fasting 

3 pm: 2 eggs + 20 grapes (~225 cals, may eat popsicle if still craving, but ONLY popsicle. giving into cravings makes them stronger, remember that)

6 pm: lean cuisine + metamucil

9 pm: remaining strawberries, pb&j? or tuna w/ crackers? or 1 serving of something mom makes?

10-11pm: (possible) slice of ice cream cake

- caramel apple lollipop

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- fasted post 10pm[?]

total: (definitely over)/1,500

aug. 16

- (i think): 2 eggs sunny side scramble w/ ketchup + oatmeal mom made for me

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- peach(?), 1 1/2 costco rib, yogurt? right before friend hangout

- with friends: iced matcha latte w/ cold foam, oatmilk, and brown sugar syrup

- matcha strawberry swirl ice cream cone

- luvdduk: kimchi fried rice, toppoki(?) w/ noodles

aug.17

*long walk to and from 99 ranch in hot sun*

- bite of cream bread (first thing i ate)

- entire strawberry swill roll (was good af) + yogurt, and remaining costco rib

- bites of mooncake (finished 1 and 1/3.. or was it 2/3? yea, i think 2/3)

- ~vyvanse~

- some movie popcorn

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aug. 18

- more bites of mooncake

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- spam kimbap + tteokbokki & 2 rosewater macarons

- afters ice cream: cookie butter 1 scoop

- diet coke + 2-5 fries

aug.12(birthday eve) + intake || 148-153 lbs by Dec.27-31 🎄Christmas Time ❄️

intake:

6 small meals concept

12:30ish: 2 eggs w/ ketchup(~185), yogurt(80), bunch of strawberries [didn't count] (~100)

2:30ish: banana(120) + spoontip of peanut butter(~45), tangerine(40)

3-4ish: popsicle(80), 4 bagel bites(190)

4:30ish: glucerna shake(180)

6

total: /1,800

exercise:

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so, i turn 23 tomorrow. i don't wanna dwell too much or even cry today like i did last year, though every time i think about it it hurts a bit in my chest. i just can't stand the passage of time or getting older, it drives me mad. time goes by so fast and just like the last 11 years, another birthday will pass without me reaching my goals and it hurts me so bad. i'll be 23 fluctuating in the 190s, face covered in hyperpigmentation, and hair messed all the way up. i feel like i'd feel so much better if i was at least thin and dressed and looked nice. i'm going to dress nice tomorrow and possibly wear makeup to feel better about it being my birthday. i also need to do hair removal, no way i can go into my birthday with unnecessary body hair (specifically my upper lip). on the (not-so) bright side, i got my period yesterday. it sucks, but i'm trying to be more annoyed about having my period on my birthday than the fact that i'm going to be 23.

i just really need this age and year to be my year. i need to lose at least 45 lbs before the end of the year. i don't know how much I weigh currently because I keep forgetting to weigh in and I'm also a coward, but it's probably somewhere between 193-195,.. 198 if I'm extremely unlucky. I've also been off my Vyvanse for at least three days now, but surprisingly my appetite (at least in the beginning of the day) doesn't seem to be excessively high, but that still doesn't stop me from unnecessary night snacking. I really need to nip that snacking in the bud. If my estimations for my weight are correct, I should get down to somewhere between 148 to 153 by the end of this year but that's only if I get serious. I'm pretty nervous about going back to school because part of the reason I'm in this mess is due to my super size eating when it came to the cafeteria, but I think the real mess up was the snacks I ate to spend all of my money on my card which I didn't know I had. I just really need to control myself and if it comes down to it, make it so that it's a rule that I can no longer visit the cafeteria. The hardest thing is going to be eating healthier since that means getting regular groceries which I will have to order online/DoorDash aka UberEats. Maybe if I'm capable of becoming really close friends with one of my roommates, we can go grocery shopping together? Regardless, as I was saying I just really need this to be my year. I can't do this again with another birthday where I spend that birthday being fat and with bad skin. I just really need to make this year my bitch. I really need to lose the weight, I need to clear my skin, take better care of my hair and grooming overall, better hygiene, go out and have new experiences as making new experiences will literally make time feel like it's going slower rather than doing the same shit every single day laying in bed, and I just don't want to be this sad again, I don't wanna feel like I'm constantly wasting my life. On one hand, I can make myself feel better when I think about the fact that people I love and look up to are older than me and a lot of them still seem young and they seem like babies, and it's not the end of the world.

I also desperately need to get an acting win. I need to try harder and get into my acting, and book at least a commercial or something, just to feel like it's starting. I also need to try with content creation if i'm really serious about that and gaining a career as a tiktoker or whatever. I have good content creation ideas for the niche audience i want, i just need to start. i hope i will once I get to college and have the room and freedom to record in my own damn room.

i also made calculations to see how i can possible reach 148-153 by late December this year:

justcico:

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justCICO

It's just calories in, calories out.

Curious to know how much you’ll weigh in the future if you stick to your diet? Punch in your stats below to find out.

Weight:lbskg

Height:incm

Age:

Gender:FemaleMale

Activity Level:SedentaryExercise 1-3 times/wkExercise 3-5 times/wkExercise 5-7 times/wkExercise 2+ times/day

Calories/day:

BMI Method:NormalNew

Frame Size:SmallMediumLarge

You'll weigh 153.0, BMI 23.61 on 12/17/2025x

You'll weigh 150.0, BMI 23.15 on 12/28/2025x

You'll weigh 148.0, BMI 22.84 on 1/4/2026x

You'll weigh 124.0, BMI 19.13 on 4/14/2026x

You'll weigh 114.0, BMI 17.59 on 6/3/2026x

• New BMI: 29.72
• BMI: 29.94
• IBW (Hamwi): 137.0 / 141.6% IBW
• BMR: 1681
• TDEE: 2899

Date	Weight	BMI	% IBW	Deficit
8/12/2025	193.6	29.88	141.3%	1296
8/19/2025	191.1	29.48	139.5%	1276
8/26/2025	188.5	29.09	137.6%	1256
9/2/2025	186.1	28.71	135.8%	1237
9/9/2025	183.6	28.33	134.0%	1218
9/16/2025	181.2	27.96	132.3%	1199
9/23/2025	178.8	27.60	130.5%	1180
9/30/2025	176.5	27.24	128.8%	1162
10/7/2025	174.2	26.88	127.1%	1144

Need help? Have suggestions? Send us an email

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chatgpt(i know i know, using ai is pathetic:

create a weight loss trajectory of 2 lbs a week starting from 194 lbs on august 12 all the way to 148 lbs

ChatGPT said:

Alright — here’s a 2 lbs per week weight loss trajectory starting from 194 lbs on August 12 down to 148 lbs.

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📉 Overview

• Start weight: 194 lbs

• Goal weight: 148 lbs

• Total loss needed: 46 lbs

• Rate: 2 lbs/week

• Estimated time: 23 weeks (~5 months, 1 week)

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📆 Weekly Weight Loss Schedule

Week #	Date	Target Weight	Total Lost
1	Aug 12	194 lbs	0 lbs
2	Aug 19	192 lbs	-2 lbs
3	Aug 26	190 lbs	-4 lbs
4	Sep 2	188 lbs	-6 lbs
5	Sep 9	186 lbs	-8 lbs
6	Sep 16	184 lbs	-10 lbs
7	Sep 23	182 lbs	-12 lbs
8	Sep 30	180 lbs	-14 lbs
9	Oct 7	178 lbs	-16 lbs
10	Oct 14	176 lbs	-18 lbs
11	Oct 21	174 lbs	-20 lbs
12	Oct 28	172 lbs	-22 lbs
13	Nov 4	170 lbs	-24 lbs
14	Nov 11	168 lbs	-26 lbs
15	Nov 18	166 lbs	-28 lbs
16	Nov 25	164 lbs	-30 lbs
17	Dec 2	162 lbs	-32 lbs
18	Dec 9	160 lbs	-34 lbs
19	Dec 16	158 lbs	-36 lbs
20	Dec 23	156 lbs	-38 lbs
21	Dec 30	154 lbs	-40 lbs
22	Jan 6	152 lbs	-42 lbs
23	Jan 13	150 lbs	-44 lbs
24	Jan 20	148 lbs	-46 lbs ✅

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If you followed this pace perfectly, you’d reach 148 lbs by January 20, 2026.

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If you want, I can also make you a visual timeline chart so you can see the downward trend week by week. Would you like me to make that?

You said:

what about 2.5 lbs a week?

ChatGPT said:

Alright — at 2.5 lbs/week, the weight will drop faster.

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📉 Overview

• Start weight: 194 lbs

• Goal weight: 148 lbs

• Total loss needed: 46 lbs

• Rate: 2.5 lbs/week

• Estimated time: 18.4 weeks (~4 months, 2 weeks)

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📆 Weekly Weight Loss Schedule

Week #	Date	Target Weight	Total Lost
1	Aug 12	194 lbs	0 lbs
2	Aug 19	191.5 lbs	-2.5 lbs
3	Aug 26	189 lbs	-5 lbs
4	Sep 2	186.5 lbs	-7.5 lbs
5	Sep 9	184 lbs	-10 lbs
6	Sep 16	181.5 lbs	-12.5 lbs
7	Sep 23	179 lbs	-15 lbs
8	Sep 30	176.5 lbs	-17.5 lbs
9	Oct 7	174 lbs	-20 lbs
10	Oct 14	171.5 lbs	-22.5 lbs
11	Oct 21	169 lbs	-25 lbs
12	Oct 28	166.5 lbs	-27.5 lbs
13	Nov 4	164 lbs	-30 lbs
14	Nov 11	161.5 lbs	-32.5 lbs
15	Nov 18	159 lbs	-35 lbs
16	Nov 25	156.5 lbs	-37.5 lbs
17	Dec 2	154 lbs	-40 lbs
18	Dec 9	151.5 lbs	-42.5 lbs
19	Dec 16	149 lbs	-45 lbs
19.2	Dec 18	148 lbs	-46 lbs ✅

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At 2.5 lbs/week, you’d hit 148 lbs around December 18, 2025 instead of January 20, 2026.

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If you want, I can now make you a combined chart comparing 2 lbs/week vs 2.5 lbs/week so you can visualize how much faster the second pace is. Would you like me to do that?

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I just need to provide this blog with a win. I've legit had it for almost 11 years (so sad and pathetic i've been trying to lose weight that long) and the only win i ever had was Summer and Fall 2020 (July 2020 - November 2020) God, I miss that era so much. Wherever did that self-control go? I would've loved to lose weight gradually with frequent fasting and slip ups every now and again, why did It have to end? 💔

But anyways, I'm over-repeating myself. I just feel like if I can at least lose a bunch of weight, It will hurt less to age and the passage of time will hurt less. I can't stand the idea of being 24, 25, 26, 27, and so on at this weight... I think I once imagined a nightmre scenario where I'm an obese 26 year old working at a grocery store, that nightmare is close to becoming reality.