intake:
6 small meals concept
12:30ish: 2 eggs w/ ketchup(~185), yogurt(80), bunch of strawberries [didn't count] (~100)
2:30ish: banana(120) + spoontip of peanut butter(~45), tangerine(40)
3-4ish: popsicle(80), 4 bagel bites(190)
4:30ish: glucerna shake(180)
6
total: /1,800
exercise:
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so, i turn 23 tomorrow. i don't wanna dwell too much or even cry today like i did last year, though every time i think about it it hurts a bit in my chest. i just can't stand the passage of time or getting older, it drives me mad. time goes by so fast and just like the last 11 years, another birthday will pass without me reaching my goals and it hurts me so bad. i'll be 23 fluctuating in the 190s, face covered in hyperpigmentation, and hair messed all the way up. i feel like i'd feel so much better if i was at least thin and dressed and looked nice. i'm going to dress nice tomorrow and possibly wear makeup to feel better about it being my birthday. i also need to do hair removal, no way i can go into my birthday with unnecessary body hair (specifically my upper lip). on the (not-so) bright side, i got my period yesterday. it sucks, but i'm trying to be more annoyed about having my period on my birthday than the fact that i'm going to be 23.
i just really need this age and year to be my year. i need to lose at least 45 lbs before the end of the year. i don't know how much I weigh currently because I keep forgetting to weigh in and I'm also a coward, but it's probably somewhere between 193-195,.. 198 if I'm extremely unlucky. I've also been off my Vyvanse for at least three days now, but surprisingly my appetite (at least in the beginning of the day) doesn't seem to be excessively high, but that still doesn't stop me from unnecessary night snacking. I really need to nip that snacking in the bud. If my estimations for my weight are correct, I should get down to somewhere between 148 to 153 by the end of this year but that's only if I get serious. I'm pretty nervous about going back to school because part of the reason I'm in this mess is due to my super size eating when it came to the cafeteria, but I think the real mess up was the snacks I ate to spend all of my money on my card which I didn't know I had. I just really need to control myself and if it comes down to it, make it so that it's a rule that I can no longer visit the cafeteria. The hardest thing is going to be eating healthier since that means getting regular groceries which I will have to order online/DoorDash aka UberEats. Maybe if I'm capable of becoming really close friends with one of my roommates, we can go grocery shopping together? Regardless, as I was saying I just really need this to be my year. I can't do this again with another birthday where I spend that birthday being fat and with bad skin. I just really need to make this year my bitch. I really need to lose the weight, I need to clear my skin, take better care of my hair and grooming overall, better hygiene, go out and have new experiences as making new experiences will literally make time feel like it's going slower rather than doing the same shit every single day laying in bed, and I just don't want to be this sad again, I don't wanna feel like I'm constantly wasting my life. On one hand, I can make myself feel better when I think about the fact that people I love and look up to are older than me and a lot of them still seem young and they seem like babies, and it's not the end of the world.
I also desperately need to get an acting win. I need to try harder and get into my acting, and book at least a commercial or something, just to feel like it's starting. I also need to try with content creation if i'm really serious about that and gaining a career as a tiktoker or whatever. I have good content creation ideas for the niche audience i want, i just need to start. i hope i will once I get to college and have the room and freedom to record in my own damn room.
i also made calculations to see how i can possible reach 148-153 by late December this year:
justcico:
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justCICO
It's just calories in, calories out.
Curious to know how much you’ll weigh in the future if you stick to your diet? Punch in your stats below to find out.
You'll weigh 153.0, BMI 23.61 on 12/17/2025x
You'll weigh 150.0, BMI 23.15 on 12/28/2025x
You'll weigh 148.0, BMI 22.84 on 1/4/2026x
You'll weigh 124.0, BMI 19.13 on 4/14/2026x
You'll weigh 114.0, BMI 17.59 on 6/3/2026x
- New BMI: 29.72
- BMI: 29.94
- IBW (Hamwi): 137.0 / 141.6% IBW
- BMR: 1681
- TDEE: 2899
| Date | Weight | BMI | % IBW | Deficit |
|---|---|---|---|---|
| 8/12/2025 | 193.6 | 29.88 | 141.3% | 1296 |
| 8/19/2025 | 191.1 | 29.48 | 139.5% | 1276 |
| 8/26/2025 | 188.5 | 29.09 | 137.6% | 1256 |
| 9/2/2025 | 186.1 | 28.71 | 135.8% | 1237 |
| 9/9/2025 | 183.6 | 28.33 | 134.0% | 1218 |
| 9/16/2025 | 181.2 | 27.96 | 132.3% | 1199 |
| 9/23/2025 | 178.8 | 27.60 | 130.5% | 1180 |
| 9/30/2025 | 176.5 | 27.24 | 128.8% | 1162 |
| 10/7/2025 | 174.2 | 26.88 | 127.1% | 1144 |
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chatgpt(i know i know, using ai is pathetic:
ChatGPT said:
Alright — here’s a 2 lbs per week weight loss trajectory starting from 194 lbs on August 12 down to 148 lbs.
📉 Overview
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Start weight: 194 lbs
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Goal weight: 148 lbs
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Total loss needed: 46 lbs
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Rate: 2 lbs/week
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Estimated time: 23 weeks (~5 months, 1 week)
📆 Weekly Weight Loss Schedule
| Week # | Date | Target Weight | Total Lost |
|---|---|---|---|
| 1 | Aug 12 | 194 lbs | 0 lbs |
| 2 | Aug 19 | 192 lbs | -2 lbs |
| 3 | Aug 26 | 190 lbs | -4 lbs |
| 4 | Sep 2 | 188 lbs | -6 lbs |
| 5 | Sep 9 | 186 lbs | -8 lbs |
| 6 | Sep 16 | 184 lbs | -10 lbs |
| 7 | Sep 23 | 182 lbs | -12 lbs |
| 8 | Sep 30 | 180 lbs | -14 lbs |
| 9 | Oct 7 | 178 lbs | -16 lbs |
| 10 | Oct 14 | 176 lbs | -18 lbs |
| 11 | Oct 21 | 174 lbs | -20 lbs |
| 12 | Oct 28 | 172 lbs | -22 lbs |
| 13 | Nov 4 | 170 lbs | -24 lbs |
| 14 | Nov 11 | 168 lbs | -26 lbs |
| 15 | Nov 18 | 166 lbs | -28 lbs |
| 16 | Nov 25 | 164 lbs | -30 lbs |
| 17 | Dec 2 | 162 lbs | -32 lbs |
| 18 | Dec 9 | 160 lbs | -34 lbs |
| 19 | Dec 16 | 158 lbs | -36 lbs |
| 20 | Dec 23 | 156 lbs | -38 lbs |
| 21 | Dec 30 | 154 lbs | -40 lbs |
| 22 | Jan 6 | 152 lbs | -42 lbs |
| 23 | Jan 13 | 150 lbs | -44 lbs |
| 24 | Jan 20 | 148 lbs | -46 lbs ✅ |
If you followed this pace perfectly, you’d reach 148 lbs by January 20, 2026.
If you want, I can also make you a visual timeline chart so you can see the downward trend week by week. Would you like me to make that?
You said:
ChatGPT said:
Alright — at 2.5 lbs/week, the weight will drop faster.
📉 Overview
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Start weight: 194 lbs
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Goal weight: 148 lbs
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Total loss needed: 46 lbs
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Rate: 2.5 lbs/week
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Estimated time: 18.4 weeks (~4 months, 2 weeks)
📆 Weekly Weight Loss Schedule
| Week # | Date | Target Weight | Total Lost |
|---|---|---|---|
| 1 | Aug 12 | 194 lbs | 0 lbs |
| 2 | Aug 19 | 191.5 lbs | -2.5 lbs |
| 3 | Aug 26 | 189 lbs | -5 lbs |
| 4 | Sep 2 | 186.5 lbs | -7.5 lbs |
| 5 | Sep 9 | 184 lbs | -10 lbs |
| 6 | Sep 16 | 181.5 lbs | -12.5 lbs |
| 7 | Sep 23 | 179 lbs | -15 lbs |
| 8 | Sep 30 | 176.5 lbs | -17.5 lbs |
| 9 | Oct 7 | 174 lbs | -20 lbs |
| 10 | Oct 14 | 171.5 lbs | -22.5 lbs |
| 11 | Oct 21 | 169 lbs | -25 lbs |
| 12 | Oct 28 | 166.5 lbs | -27.5 lbs |
| 13 | Nov 4 | 164 lbs | -30 lbs |
| 14 | Nov 11 | 161.5 lbs | -32.5 lbs |
| 15 | Nov 18 | 159 lbs | -35 lbs |
| 16 | Nov 25 | 156.5 lbs | -37.5 lbs |
| 17 | Dec 2 | 154 lbs | -40 lbs |
| 18 | Dec 9 | 151.5 lbs | -42.5 lbs |
| 19 | Dec 16 | 149 lbs | -45 lbs |
| 19.2 | Dec 18 | 148 lbs | -46 lbs ✅ |
At 2.5 lbs/week, you’d hit 148 lbs around December 18, 2025 instead of January 20, 2026.
If you want, I can now make you a combined chart comparing 2 lbs/week vs 2.5 lbs/week so you can visualize how much faster the second pace is. Would you like me to do that?
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I just need to provide this blog with a win. I've legit had it for almost 11 years (so sad and pathetic i've been trying to lose weight that long) and the only win i ever had was Summer and Fall 2020 (July 2020 - November 2020) God, I miss that era so much. Wherever did that self-control go? I would've loved to lose weight gradually with frequent fasting and slip ups every now and again, why did It have to end? 💔
But anyways, I'm over-repeating myself. I just feel like if I can at least lose a bunch of weight, It will hurt less to age and the passage of time will hurt less. I can't stand the idea of being 24, 25, 26, 27, and so on at this weight... I think I once imagined a nightmre scenario where I'm an obese 26 year old working at a grocery store, that nightmare is close to becoming reality.
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