Tuesday, October 10, 2023

Aversion Visualization

 1. a run through of a day where i barely eat anything, and when i’m presented with the opportunity i’m completely disinterested in food. 5x/ 5 min

2. i automatically see food as disgusting and crawling with bugs (+while eating it) 5x/5 min

3. knee-jerk reaction to idea of eating food “why would i do that??” 5x/5min

4. great anxiety at the idea of eating food




October 4, 2023 (moved to physical journal)

MW: x (weigh-in every Sunday)


planned intake:

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everything i ate:

- lowfat strawb. milk

- pizza crepe

- chicken wings

- small spoon of metamucil

- poptarts

- 1/2 grape fruit

- grapes

- 2 taquitos

- 1/2 pb&j

- apple juice

- strawberries

- n/v bars

(fuck i'm a goddamn fat-ass)


Total:  / | 800-1500


Exercise: walking (10,957 steps)


Extra:


Week Goal: 182

Month Goal: 175

Overall Goal: 114


October 3, 2023


MW: x (weigh-in every Sunday)


planned intake:

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everything i ate:

- chicken wings

- pocky (pepero + strawberry pocky)

- boba

- n/v bars

- tom-yum noodles

- lemon water


Total:  / | 800-1500


Exercise: walking (10,578 steps)


Extra:


Week Goal: 182

Month Goal: 175

Overall Goal: 114


Wednesday, October 4, 2023

September 30, 2023 - Oct 2

MW: x (weigh-in every Sunday)


planned intake:

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everything i ate:

- bites of shrimp fried rice

- cashews

- some of mom's chipotle

- n/v bars

- gatorade

- 1 pc short rib

- bueno choc. bar

- 3 oreos

- lean cuisine: five cheese rigatoni


Total:  ~2,000/ | 800-1500


Exercise:


Extra:


Week Goal: 185

Month Goal: 182

Overall Goal: 114

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oct 1
- noodles
- other stuff
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oct 2

- 5 chicken wings
- panda cookies
- raising canes
- 2 cookies
- stater bros sandwich
- vit c gummies
- n/v bars
- knife of cookie butter


Saturday, September 30, 2023

September 29, 2023


MW: x (weigh-in every Sunday)


planned intake:

- cheese katsu curry

- pineapple

- 1 egg (80)

- apple (80)

- salmon (150) -maybe-


everything i ate:

- cheese katsu curry

- watermelon

- pineapple (3 pcs)

- cereal w/ granola

- potato wedges, chicken w/ bbq sauce


Total:  / | 800-1500


Exercise: walking (7k steps)


Extra:


Week Goal: 185

Month Goal: 182

Overall Goal: 114


Friday, September 29, 2023

September 28, 2023


MW: x (weigh-in every Sunday)


planned intake:

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everything i ate:

- 2 vit c gummies

- 1 cookie

- sip of salmon/mushroom soup

- brown sugar boba

- soma of cheese chicken katsu curry


Total:  ~1,700/ | 800-1500


Exercise: walking (13,258 steps)


Extra:


Week Goal: 185

Month Goal: 182

Overall Goal: 114


Thursday, September 28, 2023

September 22, 2023-September 27, 2023 - (cw: 186.0)

~22:2 hour fast mimic~

- "meals" eaten from 8-10 pm

- preferable to eat noting the rest of the day, but can make exceptions for SMALL nibbling/healthy snacks



MW: x (weigh-in every Sunday)


planned intake:

- yogurt (80)

- acv lemon water / metamucil (~45)

- apple oatmeal (155)

- turkey burger & egg salad (~325)

everything i ate:

- 2 m&ms

- donut

- 6 strawberries

- 14 m&m's


Total:  / | 800-1500


Exercise:


Extra:


Week Goal: 185

Month Goal: 182

Overall Goal: 114


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- 1 slice pizza w/ ranch & 2 small pieces of chicken
- rice and chicken
- granola + yogurt (small spoon of cookie butter)


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- sushi
- cookie butter
- golden corral: diet coke mixed w/ coca cola, pizza, cinnamon bun, meatloaf
fruit: cantaloupe, pineapple, mango | bite of steak
chips/taco shell + ingredients, 2 marshmallows, candied yams
minuscule bite of cake, + strawberry, sips of fanta soda
- toast w/ cookie butter & coca spread
- cashews
- n/v

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- cereal (w/ a little granola i believe)
- panda cookies
- noodles
- pb & j (w/ a little cookie butter)
- juice
- taco bell quesadilla
- cashews

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- ice cream cone (260)
- takoyaki
- n/v bars

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cw: 186.0
- salmon salad (150 + 15 + 60)
- vanilla panda cookies
- sausage cheddar sandwich sbux
- potato wedges
- stater bros sandwich
- n/v bars
- sip of most gross concoction ever (white mocha creamer w/ carnation milk, lotus butter, hersheys choc chips)
- cereal w/ little granola

Friday, September 22, 2023

September 20, 2023(cw: 187.0) - September 21, 2023

MW: 187.0


planned intake:

- 1/2 grapefruit (52)

- 2 taquitos + yogurt (300)

- acv lemon water / metamucil (~45)

- apple or banana oatmeal (155 or 195)

- turkey burger & egg salad (~325)

- marshmallow + ritz + hersheys

everything i ate:

- cupcake + mini sips of tea + 1/2 persian cookie

- 1/2 grapefruit (52)

- 4 ritz s'mores

- 1/2 can of pepsi zero

- 1/2 cup of cottage cheese (110)

- ham & cheese sandwich

- n/v bars


Total:  / | 800-1500


Exercise: walking (8,094 steps)


Extra:


Week Goal: 185

Month Goal: 182


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Sept. 21

- corn chips

- vanilla soft pastry cookie roll thing

- peach

- chicken bbq

- pork bbq

- joyburst sugarfree strawberry energy drink

- grapefruit (104)

- small piece rotisserie chicken + sweet potato fries

- 2 slices pb toast

Steps: 9,109

September 18, 2023-September 19, 2023 (re-edit)

MW: x (weigh-in every Sunday)


planned intake:

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everything i ate:

- small piece of short rib

- n/v bars

- marshmallows/ritz

- 4 taquitos


Total:  / | 800-1500


Exercise: walking (9,581 steps)


Extra:


Week Goal: 185

Month Goal: 182

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sept 19

- pepero

- corn chips

- rice + chicken

- pork bbq

- strawb. soju

- filipino noodles

- donut

- smores/ like 1 or 2 ritz w marmallows

exercise: 9,647 steps


Monday, September 18, 2023

September 17, 2023

MW: x (weigh-in every Sunday)


planned intake:

- 1 real s'more (nvm bc some fatty ate my graham crackers)

- 3 servings of fruit

- 1 serving veggie

- 1-2 eggs

- metamucil & acv


everything i ate:

- pepsi zero (0)

- marshmallows / ritz/ ritz smores

- bite of rice


Total:  / | 800-1500


Exercise: 10 min dance practice, walking (9,102 steps)


Extra:


Week Goal: 185

Month Goal: 182

Overall Goal: 114


Sunday, September 17, 2023

September 16, 2023 (HSGD Day 18)

MW: x (weigh-in every Sunday)


planned intake:

- 2 s'mores (graham cracker - hershey choc chip - toasted marshmallows)

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everything i ate:

- 2 marshmallows

- 1 strip of bacon

- white choc almon pepero

- strawberry pocky

- slice of pizza, 2 mini lemon pepper chickens (w/ ranch)

- honeybun

- 2 ritz smores

- 3 taquitos

- tangerine


Total:  / | 800-1500


Exercise: walking (11,274 steps)


Extra: marshmallows, bacon


Week Goal: 185

Month Goal: 182

Overall Goal: 114