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has anyone lost 25lbs in 2 months?
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Posted 07 May 2022 - 01:13 AM
as the title says ^
just need some reassurance as im shitting myself that i wont lose enough by my holiday at the end of June and im desperate to lose 13kg which translates to approx 28lbs
PLS let me know if you have lost that amount in 2 months and if not, how much you've lost in that time frame xx
btw my bmi is floating between 21.7 - 23.4 atm and it was 17 in january which is where im hoping to get back to
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Posted 07 May 2022 - 06:19 AM
Most people have a TDEE under 1900kcl, which would mean exercise paired with very very low intake. Needless to say, dangerous and sets yourself up for failure.
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Posted 07 May 2022 - 06:29 AM
so 7 weeks to go from 215 to 185 and 8 weeks to go from 185 to 165. if you have a higher bmi its possible, but if not i highly doubt it
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Posted 07 May 2022 - 09:46 AM
I've lost 10 lbs in a week before, so 20 lbs isn't too much of a stretch, but I did start at bmi 29.1
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Posted 07 May 2022 - 10:13 AM
It's do-able depending on where you're starting. Most I've lost in the time would be around 22lbs low-med restricting.
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Posted 07 May 2022 - 08:04 PM
tilldeath, on 07 May 2022 - 06:29 AM, said:
i lost 30lbs in 7 weeks however i started out with a bmi of 35 lmao which made the weight loss significantly faster. my bmi is currently 27.3 so the weight loss is still fast but has slowed down n it took me 8 weeks to lose another 20lbs.
so 7 weeks to go from 215 to 185 and 8 weeks to go from 185 to 165. if you have a higher bmi its possible, but if not i highly doubt it
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Same. When I was at my highest weight, (BMI was around 38 as I recall), I lost 20 lbs the first month through medium restricting and walking 30-40 minutes every day. I remember being both elated and horrified at the same time...it was undeniable proof that I was so fucking fat I could drop 20 lbs and it didn't even show. 😔
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Posted 09 May 2022 - 11:55 AM
i've lost 22 lbs in a week and a half before, but i was eating under 200 cals and exercising for at least 2 hours. my job at the time also required a lot of moving around, so that also would have helped.
essentially, whatever i ate - if i had eaten anything - was almost immediately burned off. lol.
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Posted 09 May 2022 - 08:41 PM
I lost 18 lbs last September by only eating 3 bites of food a day, but I completely lost my mind and became very unwell physically and mentally. Also, I was overweight - I went from bmi 29.93 to bmi 26.75.
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Posted 10 May 2022 - 02:04 PM
Beaucoup Fish, on 10 May 2022 - 03:49 AM, said:
I lost 26.5 lbs in eight weeks, so yeah it is possible. I did start at BMI 24.5 though.
thats quite close to what i am now. if you dont mind sharing, how did you do it?
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Posted 10 May 2022 - 02:16 PM
I have lost around 28 pounds in two months - from bmi 26 to 22. But it was at the beginning of my ed and I was very young, honestly I think that even with the exact same behavior I couldn't repeat it right now, being 20 and having responsibilities.
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Posted 25 May 2022 - 02:35 AM
tilldeath, on 07 May 2022 - 06:29 AM, said:
i lost 30lbs in 7 weeks however i started out with a bmi of 35 lmao which made the weight loss significantly faster. my bmi is currently 27.3 so the weight loss is still fast but has slowed down n it took me 8 weeks to lose another 20lbs.
so 7 weeks to go from 215 to 185 and 8 weeks to go from 185 to 165. if you have a higher bmi its possible, but if not i highly doubt it
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Hey! Your start stats are similar to mine and I’ve got 6 weeks til I go on holiday!! How did you get down to 185 so quick? Xx
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Posted 05 May 2022 - 07:08 PM
hiiii!! im back
making a new accountability so i can get ready for my europe trip in june - july!
quick catch up/summary
- found out i have insulin resistance and PCOS fml which has made me gain around 25kgs
- back at my highest weight --> around mid sixties
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- 2-3 meals a day
- around 500-1000 calories so mid-high res
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Posted 06 May 2022 - 01:40 AM
Day 1/49
6/5/22
food
1/2 protein bar - 62
2 eggs - 142
exercise
12-2-30 treadmill
Overall, a pretty decent day. i need to get back into pilates as i've been having a lot of nausea with the metformin so i've been slacking with exercise recently. i'm feeling a bit nervous about not losing the weight, like im scared i wont lose enough. In the middle of May, i have a 9 day fast scheduled, as well as a 8 day fast in June, so hopefully i will lose the weight. I just need to make sure i count my carbs and do 1-2 fast days per week as this insulin resistance will be the death of me. I'll include a pic of my goal weight and where i think i look the best and happiest <3
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Posted 06 May 2022 - 04:09 AM
Hii! You're also going to Europe in June? Its like fate I find 2 people also going to Europe in June and want to lose weight till then. Nice to meet you! You look amazing in that pic I'm sure you'll look EVEN better by Europe. Oh and I love your hair color!
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Posted 06 May 2022 - 01:33 PM
Day 2/49
7/5/22
food
1/2 protein bar - 62
2 eggs - 142
mushrooms - 30
tomato - 35
exercise
12-2-30 treadmill
pilates reformer
Very happy with today's log! Last night i saw this awesome diet which i've never heard of and it basically follows the same principles as i'm following now, except more strict. It's called the Copenhagen Diet which is ironic because i'm going to Copenhagen on my Europe trip hahahahah. It's only for 13 days but i might just keep doing it if it's easy. I don't want to be chopping and changing through 'fad diets' but this one seems legit and i like how it's very planned and organised. It's slightly higher than my cal limit - i think it's between 350 and 600 cals or so. Ill insert the web pic that explains the daily meal plan
I just don't want to be looking fat and disgusting when surrounded by a bunch of skinny and beautiful scandinavian women. It makes me so sad considering i was like that one year ago and now i'm just bleh.
edit: i ate a tiny bit of chocolate and 2 chips/fries. i feel so guilty but i think i just did it because i was thinking 'oh i'm starting this SUPER strict diet tomorrow'. Which to be fair, is true. I just need to move on and not feel bad about it. Tomorrow when i start the copenhagen diet things will hopefully go back on track because i actually had a really good week last week. I'm just worried it wont work but tbh im probably just overthinking. It's so shit because when i eat carbs, it doesn't matter if its low cal, ill gain because of my PCOS - sad face : ((((((((((
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Posted 06 May 2022 - 01:44 PM
odile's coda, on 06 May 2022 - 04:09 AM, said:
Hii! You're also going to Europe in June? Its like fate I find 2 people also going to Europe in June and want to lose weight till then. Nice to meet you! You look amazing in that pic I'm sure you'll look EVEN better by Europe. Oh and I love your hair color!
I know!! its crazy. I saw your accountability and had to follow since we have to same goal to look good for our trips! Thank you lots x I hope i can get back there by then, it is A LOT of weight to lose but i guess we will have to wait and see ♡
isabella ♥, on 06 May 2022 - 02:04 AM, said:
you look literally perfect in that pic ♡
AWW thank you sm <33
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Posted 09 May 2022 - 09:59 PM
old bod checks : ((((
i miss it sm. i think these were around bmi 16
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heidiiii, on 09 May 2022 - 9:59 PM, said:
old bod checks : ((((
i miss it sm. i think these were around bmi 16
If you don't mind me asking what BMI was this at? You look great now don't get me wrong but this is PHENOMENAL. I have no doubt you'll get where you want to go. You did it once, you can do it again!
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Posted 10 May 2022 - 01:59 PM
odile's coda, on 10 May 2022 - 04:06 AM, said:
If you don't mind me asking what BMI was this at? You look great now don't get me wrong but this is PHENOMENAL. I have no doubt you'll get where you want to go. You did it once, you can do it again!
ofc! im always happy to answer anything <3 this was at around bmi 16.2 - 16.6 x
and thank you so much for the encouragement 
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okay i made a new account but heres the board containing my europe trip inspo xx
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heidiiii, on 13 May 2022 - 2:20 PM, said:
41 days left14/5/22food4 strawberries - 20cantaloupe - 50white fish - 150tomatoes - 30broccolini - 25exercise12-2-30 treadmillpilatesweight liftingsorry ive been a bit MIA in the last couple of days, i have a bunch of uni assessments due next week :// Ill still be logging my food etc. ofc, i just wont be able to write much as ill be short for time xxALSO, the most embarrassing thing happened to me yesterday. So i was at pilates and at the moment (bc im fat) i always wear a massive jumper and then these sport mini shorts that are WAY too big that i have to fold. So i legit looked like an idiot (one of my biggest motivations is to be able to get skinny enough to wear all those cute workout clothes again ugh i miss it) anyway, so then i rock up and im getting ready just sitting on the reformer machine and in walks this girl i knew from highschool i was legit mortified. Especially since i graduated 2-3 years ago when i was at one of my lowest weights and now my bmi is like 21 ish. Anyway it was just SO embarrassing. i was in the sort of 'popular' group EW i hate that term/word and i didnt even belong in that group but i was in it, and she was in like a really weird group (i dont want to sound rude because i do have aspergers so im definitely weird myself) so i didnt expect her to show up to this pilates class in legit a tiny sports bra and leggingsfuck im so jealous of everyone there who's so skinny and can wear cute outfitsthat WILL be me!!
You are surely on the path for your goals. Don't be discouraged! Sending lots of love and luck xx
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Posted 20 May 2022 - 01:34 PM
hi guyssss, ive decided not to go on the trip because ii dont think ill get to a point where im comfortable enough to go im so sorry to disappoint
i am really upset, but i also know that theres plenty of opportunities in the future and id rather fix my health issues so that i can achieve long term weight loss
ill keep updating this thread but instead of daily, i think ill do it 1-3 times per week.
sending lots of love to you all <333
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Posted 20 May 2022 - 04:13 PM
aw im sorry to here about the trip, but it is okay! your health is more important!! also fellow celiac here haha
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Posted 21 May 2022 - 12:08 AM
heidiiii, on 20 May 2022 - 1:34 PM, said:
hi guyssss, ive decided not to go on the trip because ii dont think ill get to a point where im comfortable enough to go
i am really upset, but i also know that theres plenty of opportunities in the future and id rather fix my health issues so that i can achieve long term weight loss
ill keep updating this thread but instead of daily, i think ill do it 1-3 times per week.
sending lots of love to you all <333
I'm on the same boat as you. I'm so uncomfortable with myself right now but all the tix are pre bought. I wish you all the health, prosperity and peace. xx
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Posted 15 May 2022 - 06:26 PM
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me:
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stats:
height: 5'5
sw: 187.0
cw: 187.0 / 84.8 kg
gw: 175 / 79kg
ugw: 88 / 39kg
diet:
I have celiac so i will be eating gluten free. I was thinking about doing keto too but not atm. so everything i eat will be gluten free.
story:
hiii you can call me berry
I have been gone for quite some time due to recovery and finally being able to love myself after 5 years with an ed. well um
that has now changed lol. idrk what happened but my mental health has been tough lately and it is getting better
but idk i feel like i do not have control, so i basically just want that control back and feel like i am in control again hehe.
i'll be posting everyday my intake. idk if im going to count calories yet but i will be soon. i might also be posting meal pics and other pics from my life
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Posted 15 May 2022 - 06:39 PM
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weight:
187.0 / 84kg
(i will be only weighing in once a week)
intake:
brekkie: mcdonalds caramel coffee
lunch: butter chicken w/ rice
dinner: rest of rice w/ seasoned chicken (made sausage but i didn't eat it cause i don't like it)
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journal:
today was a really good day! yesterday i got a cat hehe so i spent my morning with her. she's so freakin cute. then me and my roomie went and got coffee and went to a few stores. I ended up getting a lot of cute things!! i got a new perfume hehe cause I've been wanting a decent one recently. I also got a few stickers that are clear for my window (they make rainbows) and then a super cute sun catcher also!! i was sooo excited when i saw them cause i saw it on shein last year but never got it sooo i had to get it. i also got a friday the 13th tattoo. ik its sunday now but on friday i had signed up to get one and they still did them throughout the weekend for $20 so of course i had to still go. my roomie even went so we got new tatts hehe. i also got another one on friday so i am getting a lot haha.
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Posted 15 May 2022 - 06:57 PM
Following cause my HW was quite close to yours (80kg) and my LW close to your UGW so it IS possible.
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Posted 16 May 2022 - 03:06 AM
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Hello, a fellow barista, how nice!
Following cause my HW was quite close to yours (80kg) and my LW close to your UGW so it IS possible.
You can do it queen
ah yess!!
and omg thank you so much! i’m glad you followed
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Posted 16 May 2022 - 06:09 PM
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weight:
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intake:
brekkie: egg (90) sausage (180) cheese (77) tomato (22) green pepper (15)
lunch: n/a
dinner: tortilla chips (160) nacho cheese (140) chocolate pudding (240)
snack: cold press (9) sf caramel syrup (20) caramel syrup (48) 2% milk (122)
total: 1,123
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okay so today was good! i had a long ass day tho at work. i worked from 530am - 1pm. it was really long. but then i came home and chilled and read Wintergirls. Wintergirls is my fave ed book. reminds me of my days when i first restricted lol. i love the writing of it and it is what i aspire to write like. also today i got out of the house! this was big more me since my roomie was at work until 8. my brother had a baseball game in my college town so i went. it was chilly. the winds gave me goosebumps while the players were hitting the ball and running. running like i could never lol. i got dinner from my dad hehe so i did not have to make anything at home. love when that happens haha.
how was everyone today? also if anyone has an ed insta plzzz message me and i can give you mine and we can be friends hehe : )
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Posted 17 May 2022 - 06:33 PM
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weight:
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- 2/ 0.9kg
intake:
brekkie: egg (90) sausage (180) cheese (77) tomato (22) green pepper (15)
lunch: n/a
dinner: binge - cheeto puffs, chai blender w/ whip, spicy chicken w/ rice (purged) 3 meatballs
snack: americano (0) sf chai syrup (0) 2% milk (120) chocolate pudding (240)
total: unkown
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today was crazy. I am kinda upset cause i binged. i was doing so well today. i went to the gym and burned 200 cals and had a plan for dinner to stay under 1,200 cals for the day. well i ended up going on a road trip with my roomie and i was not doing well. i was so weak feeling. we stopped for a bathroom break and i got a diet dr. pepper to kill some cravings. well it did not work i just felt awful and weak. my body felt like it hasn't eaten in days. it was not good. when we were almost home we stopped again and i ended up getting cheeto puffs and a chai blender from scooters. then i went home and ate my planned dinner. but i was so full cause of allll that i ate so i purged. i purged most of my dinner and got to the chai but had to stop cause the chai was low key gross and tasted like cough/sick medicine but i drank it anyways so it coming back up was even more terrible so i had to stop. then i was starving again so i ate 3 small itty meatballs and currently as i am writing this i am again hungry but i cannot eat. i refuse. i hope tomorrow goes better and i think i am gonna make a protein shake to get me through mornings and figure out what makes me feel more full so i do not feel so weak. i only binged cause i was feeling so terrible. i am gonna continue to browse on here and read wintergirls. i hope everyone had a good day. i am also glad tho cause i had to weigh myself tonight cause i just had to know my weight and i have lost 2 pounds so i am happy cause of that!! okie night everyone : )
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Posted 18 May 2022 - 06:38 PM
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intake:
brekkie: cheddar cheese burrito (280)
lunch: strawberry smoothie (187)
dinner: ziti & meatballs (330) mixed berry muffin (482)
snack: protein shake w/ pumpkin spice (170) (did not drink all but still counting it)
totat: 1,449
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okay so decent day! went to the store this morning to get more milk to make a protein shake. while i was at the store i got walden farms whipped peanut butter. i was so so hoping to would taste at least a little good. well. the smell of it smells chemically. i tased it and it tastes chemically too lol. idk what i was expecting BUT there is a lil nutty taste so if i put it in like a shake or something hopefully it'll taste decent. anyways i was not that hungry today which was good. except i had to have a moment where i was like "why am i doing this, i need to eat" blah blah blah bullshit. so i went and got a gf muffin. it was good but it too like 10 minuets of debate in my head to actually get it and i almost started crying. but like i can not eat normal. i feel like my life is boring and way too normal if i am not restricting. like if i eat normal then what am i gonna think about or look forward too??? i know way to much about my ed and get way to excited to come on here and also restrict like whoops lol. i hope im not the only one. so i counted it in my cals for the day and i think it still counts as high restricting cause i did not binge so. but i did buy other muffins and now i have 2 muffins chilling in my kitchen. FUCK i also got a coffee. that makes my total to 1,783, fmllll. i estimated it to be (334) cals. i over estimate things unless i know exactly how many cals are in it, so like if it says on the label but like things like iced mochas i gotta guess. ahh okay hopefully it does not make me gain. okay okay im gonna browse here some more and go to bed and try not to freak tf out on my own doings. i hope everyone had a good day
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Posted 18 May 2022 - 09:49 PM
Hey Berry!
following along!
Somewhere out there someone will notice me
Starting weight: 282.3
Current weight: 267.6 >.<
Height: 5'7
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Goals & Rewards
Gw1: 240 - new nail polish Gw2: 220 - new book Gw3: 200 - new game
Gw4: 170 - new shoes Gw5: 150 - new bag Gw6: 130 - new skinny jeans
Gw7: 120 - new dress Ugw: 110 - new wardrobe!
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Posted 19 May 2022 - 06:23 AM
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Hey Berry!
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Posted 19 May 2022 - 06:17 PM
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weight:
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intake:
brekkie: strawberry banana smoothie (195)
lunch: cheese, rice, and bean burrito (280)
snacks: 2 pumpkin muffins (656) cheeto puffs (231)
dinner: bagel w/ cream cheese and salmon (??) baked sweat potato (202) butter (102) brown sugar (50)
total: 1,717 counted calories but not the actual total, actual total is unknown
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so today was okay. work was good except i got sent home early :/ and my work schedule changed for next week to less hours but oh well lol. after i got home tho i decided i needed to eat again like a normal person 
so i had two pumpkin muffins and cheeto puffs. hey with those and my sweet potato dinner i was under 2,000 but now since i ate a bagel with it, it has to be over than 2,000. how annoying. i wish my brain would slow tf down and let me do what i want. i do not want to eat, so stop making me lol. i went on a walk with my roommates and it was fun! i mean i spaced out the whole time and was in my own world but it was still fun. I think im gonna start walking more haha. so right now i guess im on high restriction. i think that is what is gonna be best for now to reduce less binges. I haven't really "binged" i mean i have but i purged and i count today as "normal" eating and not a binge cause i was not nearly as full as i was when i normally binge. so its okay ig. also today i got new batteries for my scale cause the other ones weren't working. i weighed myself tho and it says im 134.2????? (this was before my binge so it's different now) but like??? losing 3lbs in a week???? i low key might bye another scale so i can compare the two lol oops. okay time to go to bed cause i work at 530 am. also!! tomorrow i go grocery shopping yesssss so excited because i can buy low calorie food hehe. okie hope everyone has a good rest of their day.
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I think walking is a great idea! I need to do as much as i can handle, but get as much as you can it’s always great to burn extra calories! hehehe
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Posted 20 May 2022 - 03:06 AM
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Any reason you got sent home early? you don’t have to share if you don’t want to
I think walking is a great idea! I need to do as much as i can handle, but get as much as you can it’s always great to burn extra calories! hehehe
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oh yeah i forgot to mention it oops. it was because our sales have been low but we were in the middle of a rush and leaving only 3 people and that’s tough in a rush. so it didn’t make sense to me lol. and i know! i’ve walked on a treadmill and it’s sooo much easier to walk outside! i like looking and hearing everything!!
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oh yeah i forgot to mention it oops. it was because our sales have been low but we were in the middle of a rush and leaving only 3 people and that’s tough in a rush. so it didn’t make sense to me lol. and i know! i’ve walked on a treadmill and it’s sooo much easier to walk outside! i like looking and hearing everything!!
Oh I hate when sales are slow! Hope your day was good today
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lunch: chips (?) white coffee w/ pumpkin and white chocolate (?)
dinner: burger (?) w/ bacon (?) onion (?) mashed poatao and cauliflower (?)
snack: 2 rice cake (?) strawberry jam (?) strawberry rhubarb cake thing (?)
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today was okay. work was alright except i get in like this feeling everyday where i feel like im sowing down and i dissociate and feel a little outside of my body. this happens every morning. and idk i decided to actually eat chips and make myself a drink. then i went home and regretted it. the only good thing is when i tend to eat time goes faster than when i don't lol, anyone else? then i went grocery shopping hehe. i took video of it for a vlog, so ill post that here when i am done! i got some safe foods and those will be posed below. i was gonna get my snack before but decided against it but then my dad asked me if i wanted to go out for dinner and i said yes so i eventually went out an got it. i ended up purging a bit of it. then i went to dinner and it was good! but then came home and talked to my roomies and then tried purging my dinner. i would say i only got about 1/4 at most out. kinda disappointing but unless im overly stuffed it's apparently hard to get it all out. i was gonna go for a walk before dinner but decided against it and tried how to edit my video, did not get very far as i am using a new software to edit and don't know what i am doing so i have to look up videos lol. okay i have to wake up at 530am so im gonna go to bed. hopefully everyone had a good day! ooooh ooooh i also ordered another scale! i ordered it so i can compare it to my other scale lol. also this one is fancy and can connect to my phone. i also order a paperback version of wintergirls so i can tear out pages. i have been reading it online and it was only $7 on amazon so i plan on tearing pages and putting into my journal. okie night!
some stuff from my grocery haul
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I love winter girls, and cool safe food haul! Also sorry you purged, it can be pretty tiring.
ahh thank you!! you’re so sweet
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I need to re-read winter girls
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I need to re-read winter girls
yesss!! you can read it online by looking up wintergirls free pdf if you don't have the book
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i have had a really good weekend haha. I have been spending time with my best friend that does not live near me anymore and it has been really nice! she bought me joints so we smoked in my car in the driveway at my house lol. we got so high it was so funny lol. we had a good time tho. we went and got dinner at a sushi place before hand and i couldn't purge BUT it made me almost sick cause it (TMI) made me shittzzzz lmao. my friend got sick today too so we think we got food poisoning :/ we also bought food cause we knew we would get the munchies so i ate so much after and it made my stomach hurt all day. i didn't plan on eating anything since it hurt but i got a little hungry so i ate but it made my stomach worse lol. but anyways it was a good weekend. i got my scale and wintergirls book so i am excited!! can't wait to step on my scale in the morning ehehe. i hope everyone had a good weekend!
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i'm glad you had a bit of fun this weekend! lol hope your belly gets some rest and starts to feel better
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i'm glad you had a bit of fun this weekend! lol hope your belly gets some rest and starts to feel better
thanks! i was doing a lil better today!
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today went well! i weighed in this morning at 182.3. i think that is crazy tho. cause that is 5lbs in a week! like whaaat crazy. but! the only difference between my 2 scales was like .2lbs. so i chose the higher one. so i think it has to be right, right? well anyways i did not have to be at work until 11 so i relaxed until then. work went by so so fast lol. i hope it goes fast tomorrow too lol. i bought a pair of roller blades from my co worker and i can't wait to use them! i want to get padding first so i don't hurt myself and then i can use them. after work i also went on a walk. i walked over 3 miles and burnt over 300 calories!! i don't count it towards my total and still eat the same amount. i don't know why i do that but i just do. now my back and arms are sore for no reason lol. tomorrow my legs will probs be sore but i like it when i am sore hehe. now time to ignore my roommates and go to my room lol. hope everyone had a good day!!
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Did you get your new scale in? do you like it? -5lbs is AWESOME!
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Ravenshollow, on 23 May 2022 - 6:17 PM, said:
Did you get your new scale in? do you like it? -5lbs is AWESOME!
yeah i did! i do like it, it connects to my phone and automatically tracks it so that’s really nice!!
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hello! ive missed a few days oops. well, yesterday I thought it would be a good idea to just stop. stop doing this. but ya know i am deep back to where I was. The switch well, switched and it's too late to go back. I almost had a full ass breakdown yesterday over it. I keep thinking it is a "weight" thing again. I am mostly comfortable with my body and this time it's about control and the lower my weigh gets the better and more control i'll have. becoming skinnier is just a plus lol. It's just weird cause i've been fine for the past 10 months and now i am undoing all the work I put in for years to recover from this. but, this stuff never goes away and i desperately need to be in control. anyways since i thought i decided i was done i went to my favorite cafe and got a latte and a carrot cake muffin. so now i'm gonna go home and once my roomie leaves for work i'm gonna go for a walk to burn it off, or at least some of it. I can't purge cause it's been too long so walking it is. i am hoping to burn at least 500calories and then hopefully eat very little the rest of the day. then i am also going to the gym later with my roomie so i'll burn even more hehe. I'll update again later! have a good day everyone
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glad you are ok! I hope you can find some sort of peace and solitude in everything. We all know it's hard, just take care of yourself
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I haven't been on here in a bit. I have been struggling tho with wanting to get better and then restricting. this happens everyday. I start out restricting and then decide to eat and bruh is it annoying. buuuut i have decided to go to cosmetology school and i want to be skinnier and have more control by then. also food i getting really boring for me right now and its hard to eat something i like besides it being desserts. when i first became gluten free i did not eat pastries and desserts so right now that's all i want. so im trying to find low calorie keto desserts that taste good so im not completely denying my cravings lol. but im gonna try to only be on here and write everything down instead of logging it on my fitness pal or lose it since i tend to delete those apps every single day and then re download them lol. i hope everyone is doing well and i hope t be updating here more often again. <3
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hellooo
I have had a busy week with work and trying to figure out schooling info. I have been b/p everyday. I forgot how addicting purging is lol. If i ever feel full i go straight to purge. even if i am at work. i've purged multiple times at work, oops. this weekend tho i am going camping and then to pride with my friends!! i am sooo excited. I won't be able to purge at all unless i can get away but i doubt that. so i am going to have not eat so much of everything i see. i plan on after this weekend updating here at least every few days, and ik i said that before but if i am doing ed things i should write about it lol. so i hope everyone has a good weekend and ill be back soon!!
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hi! i recently found out i have insulin resistance and i've gained 20kg since my lw last year:((( im so desperate to lose it, as i dont feel like myself at all and i cant bear to be seen out in public. i have seen professionals and they just say the same thing as the internet says, which is exercise and gradually cut out sweets etc. but i feel like that will just take SO long especially since ive been doing that for a month with no results to come
ive heard keto can help with it, so i guess i'm asking if anyone here has successfully reversed insulin resistance and lost weight? how much kg in what period of time? and what you did to achieve this?
im a bmi of around 21-22 at the moment and hoping to get to 18. my lowest was 15, but i know thats too low for me at the moment. given my stats, can anyone tell me how long it may take to drop those 4 bmi points?
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hi!
I have pcos related insulin resistance and after doing keto i lost 14 kgs (30lbs) in 4&1/2 months, i wasn't even that strict about it (wasn't carb counting just avoided obv carbs) and did not exercises or calorie count.
but it's also important to note that i was way heavier than you when i started and that everyones body is different and you might lose more or less( for example my sister lost more in the same amount of time doing the same thing)
hope this helps!
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hiiiieeee I know all about this cause I have it too. I have PCOS and insulin resistance.
keto will help MAJORLY, it's the best diet you could be on for this issue. I will say it's much healthier and easier to just stick to basics like eggs, meat, cheese, vegetables. don't get those "keto" versions of foods at the grocery store that are processed.. there's a lot of junk in them and I don't trust the labels.
doing keto turns my body around FAST, and after just 1 week I usually drop close to 10lbs of water weight. I hover around 114lbs at my normal weight and when I start keto I drop down to about 106 in a week. adding in weight resistance exercise is a big help too.
BUT!! the absolute best thing you could possibly do for insulin resistance is factor in a day or two of fasting a week. the less you spike your insulin the better. if you do all 3 of these I bet it would improve things super fast for you
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hiiiieeee I know all about this cause I have it too. I have PCOS and insulin resistance.
keto will help MAJORLY, it's the best diet you could be on for this issue. I will say it's much healthier and easier to just stick to basics like eggs, meat, cheese, vegetables. don't get those "keto" versions of foods at the grocery store that are processed.. there's a lot of junk in them and I don't trust the labels.
doing keto turns my body around FAST, and after just 1 week I usually drop close to 10lbs of water weight. I hover around 114lbs at my normal weight and when I start keto I drop down to about 106 in a week. adding in weight resistance exercise is a big help too.
BUT!! the absolute best thing you could possibly do for insulin resistance is factor in a day or two of fasting a week. the less you spike your insulin the better. if you do all 3 of these I bet it would improve things super fast for you
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how much do you restrict your calories when you're doing keto? I was doing it for 1 month and gained another 5kg so i'm thinking it may be bc of the calories
also, how much weight do you think i could lose in 2 months or so doing keto/weight training/fasting days? sorry ik that question sounded really dumb ahaha but like based on your experiences how much have you lost in that time?
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omg thank you!! you're a lifesaver <33
how much do you restrict your calories when you're doing keto? I was doing it for 1 month and gained another 5kg so i'm thinking it may be bc of the calories
also, how much weight do you think i could lose in 2 months or so doing keto/weight training/fasting days? sorry ik that question sounded really dumb ahaha but like based on your experiences how much have you lost in that time?
I've never been consistent with it, only about 3 weeks is my best go lol. but when I did it I wasn't weighing myself so I'm not sure. it's just SUCH a drastic change in my body from the water weight and then it continues to fall off which is fun. but also makes me not stick with the diet cause I get such fast results I kinda give up haha.
if I did it for 2 months I think I'd lose 20+lbs, but I hold onto a ton of water weight so about 10lbs of that is gone in about a week and a half. even when going back to eating carbs I'd only gain 3-5lbs of water weight back.
I'm starting again and am very serious this time, I also have my numbers and a good scale so I'll be keeping track of my weight. I know that doesn't help you now but it may be interesting to follow if you want lol.
it's really easy for me to calorie restrict on keto cause I do IF and eat once a day, a "dinner" and a "dessert" and I'm set. otherwise I'm drinking coffee or water. I just recently decided to give up my sugarfree drinks cause I think they are messing me up, but also it helps your taste buds get acclimated to a normal amount of sugar so berries are super sweet! since I only eat once time a day and not very much I don't bother trying to count calories. I've done this on/off enough that I have a rough idea if there are carbs in something and know what I should focus on eating. I'd estimate that I don't go over 700 calories a day
I have a friend who did keto and also gained, you have to be really careful of the amount of butter/fat/CHEESE cause they add up super fast. I try to keep cheese to a minimum cause it's super easy to go overboard.
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There's a lot to doing the keto diet that could be found on Youtube, so I suggest doing some research there
I was pre-diabetic once. I didn't go on the keto diet specifically for that, but I did some bloodwork recently after about 4-5 months of keto and my hemoglobin A1C is within normal/low range. So that's a good sign.
There's a lot to adapt to; I was eating a fuckton of sugar beforehand, so the transition period (night sweats, headaches, dizziness, etc.) SUCKED. But once I overcame that and got my electrolytes in, it's honestly the best thing ever. I hardly feel that hungry, I get to eat a pretty decent amount, and there are other benefits to doing keto besides weight loss (longer lifespan, better skin, no cellulite, anti-aging). I had to get used to eating more dense foods such as meats and cheeses with less volume, but I'm pretty used to that now.
As for results -- it really depends on the person. I'm finding that when I'm not too stressed out, the pounds fall off me so fast it can scare me. There have been days where I accidentally lost 1-2 lbs in a couple days, so I'd eat like 1600-1800cals to maintain my weight. On the other hand, when I'm stressed out, I can eat 1200cals and still gain weight. I'm not sure what the cause behind this is, as it's something I'm still trying to investigate.
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I am SO scared that even if I lose around 50 lbs, I'll still have my neck fat. It's so noticable even when I'm not laying down or anything. It just hangs under my face and I have such a hard time believing my boyfriend finds me attractive because of it (not saying I want his validation or anything, I just don't understand how he could think my face is a good face).
I envy people that have big bodies but they don't have neck fat, and their jawline is straight. Why couldn't I have that kind of body? It honestly make me want to end my life.
At what BMI does neck fat go away? Are there any exercises that helps get rid of it that ACTUALLY work?
Idk I just eugh, does anyone else have excess neck fat? How did it go away? What did you do to be at peace with it? I don't really think I'll ever be at peace with it but I'll take any advice I can get.
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no one but you notices it. i had no jaw line years ago and it just went away when i lost weight. i didn't even notice til suddenly i looked at old pics and was like where is my chin?
patience. it's all fine.
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yeah exactly what above said. i can't tell you an exact weight my jawline became sharper at but even when it became defined , i still have a quadruple chin when i lean my head forward LOL. and also i still have fat all around my face which is nice haha this sucks man. trust me it's not something that other people make note of. ik when i'm looking at someone i don't even think to look at their neck unless they're wearing a nice necklace or scarf or smth. although i know that can be really difficult to believe and we're all our own worst critics here. but i'm not lying when i say a lot of the stuff we notice the most now is usually the stuff we don't even notice is gone once it's actually gone.
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Neck fat hack- wear the mask over it. I always do this at my hw and my mom is always like omg you look fantastic. Next day I look the exact same but no mask she's like you looked so much better yesterday. Lol
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The ed servers I've been in are either dead or have channels dedicated to fat shaming which is fucking nasty.
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Posted 09 May 2022 - 11:21 AM
day 1, start!
hiya friends. as per my latest blog entry, i'm a disgusting piggy now from recovery. 
too afraid to weigh myself just yet - but i know i'm disgusting from constant binges and nothing fitting me anymore...so today, i'm done!!! my goal is to fast as long as i can, entirely on liquids. mostly water/tea/diet coke, but if i feel like i HAVE to have something, i might spice it up with a
juice or something. not sure yet, but if i do, i'm not going to go over 200 calories in a day. i know this seems kind of extreme, but i'm done. i'm huge now. i can't keep living like this. 
grrrrrr....
i'll report back in tomorrow on how today went. i binged this morning which is why i'm here now - because i'm disgusting. please help keep me motivated, friends!! and feel free to join me, as well!!!
note: for now, i'm too ashamed to post my current weight. as days go by, if i can keep myself motivated, i might start including it - but at the moment, i'll only be posting how much i'm down compared to the previous day.
i'm definitely not expecting tomorrows number to be too different from today, because of the morning binge, but hopefully as i continue on, it'll become more satisfying!! 
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Posted 09 May 2022 - 11:28 AM
If you're looking for support and accountability for reaching your goals, I made a Discord server just for that. We have 60 wonderful members so far !! The link is: https://discord.gg/UDcp5d2X
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Posted 09 May 2022 - 11:30 AM
possiblydissociating, on 09 May 2022 - 11:28 AM, said:
If you're looking for support and accountability for reaching your goals, I made a Discord server just for that. We have 60 wonderful members so far !! The link is: https://discord.gg/UDcp5d2X
oh wow!! thank you, joined <3
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If you're looking for support and accountability for reaching your goals, I made a Discord server just for that. We have 60 wonderful members so far !! The link is: https://discord.gg/UDcp5d2X
Could I possibly join too? Totally cool if not 😊
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Posted 10 May 2022 - 09:30 AM
hm. so as expected, from my morning binge - i'm only down 0.5 lbs. however, the number still went down! so i'm happy with that, at least. but obviously, today i will be trying even harder!! i have a job interview in 2 days, so i'm hoping my crippling anxiety makes it easier to not eat (plus like....my panic attacks manifest as vomiting, too, which is a win tbh)... unfortunately today (and yesterday) i work the closing shift at my current job, so it takes up 90% of my day which means i'm not able to get much, if any, exercise in. if i get this new job, it'll be SO much easier for me though!! here's to hoping!!
also, adding my goals and such to the bottom of the post!! i'm going to cross them out when i reach them <3
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Posted 11 May 2022 - 03:29 PM
i'm so happy with today's progress!! I weighed myself n i'm down 2.6 lbs total now!! which is 2.1 from yesterday, so i'm pleased. only thing that i've dealt with today is a headache, but i didn't drink enough water yet i don't think. we'll see how the rest of the week goes. sorry i don't have more to say here - i spent the whole day today out shopping with my best friend n completed all my rings on my apple watch > hopefully tomorrow's update is more eventful? haha....
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sorry for no update yesterday - i had a job interview early in the morning, and the hunger kept me up all night. as soon as i finished the interview (it was online) i crashed and slept until 5 pm :/ and then my best friend wanted to go shopping again, hahaha...so i wasn't home until like 8pm. by then i was still exhausted, so i just kinda collapsed on my pc and played a bunch of valorant. unfortuately though, i did eat yesterday - 250 cal donut (but only half, but i rounded to 150 just in case) a light iced coffee, which is 70. good news, though! weighed myself today and i'm down 6.4 total. thank god. just another 44 to go, lmfao.
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I started running in early April — could it be muscle weight? I'm really frustrated and anxious about this.
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forgive me for asking but do you get your period ? usually around the time i get my period i hold onto at least 2 pounds for a few days until it's fully over.
if not for that then there's all sorts of other factors that can make your weight loss stagnate like dehydration, hormone changes not relating to ur cycle (if youre AFAB ,i'm not sure how it works if youre AMAB though), too much salt in your system (especially if youre dehydrated), increase in exercise, and sometimes we just have an unexplained plateau. i think you starting to run may have definitely played a role in this , it can take a little while for ur body to adjust to that sort of chance in rountine. i would just make sure youre drinking plenty of water and in time you'll see a whoosh on the scale. definitely dont lower your intake any more even though it's tempting. it'll be okay
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It's normal to hit a plateau sometimes. As much as people with EDs like to think of weight loss as mathematical, progress is not linear.
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2. After a maintenance day, you have to wait a few days so the food and water weight subsides, then weigh in. Be patient
3. If you’re not eating as much as your body needs, there is reason your body will hold on to weight. It’s not getting enough, it doesn’t matter if your bmi is 24.
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Posted 29 May 2022 - 01:51 PM
I'm in the 130s as well and it takes me FOREVER to lose weight, I've lost a ton of weight from my highest weight and it just melted off no problem until I hit the 140s and it only seems to take longer and longer the lower I get. I just try to be patient and remember it will come off eventually if I just stick to what I'm doing, and it always does, it just takes a long time and I get a lot of multi-week plateaus.
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SageLeaf, on 29 May 2022 - 1:51 PM, said:
I'm in the 130s as well and it takes me FOREVER to lose weight, I've lost a ton of weight from my highest weight and it just melted off no problem until I hit the 140s and it only seems to take longer and longer the lower I get. I just try to be patient and remember it will come off eventually if I just stick to what I'm doing, and it always does, it just takes a long time and I get a lot of multi-week plateaus.
Yes, this is exactly. My hw was 208.8 and it takes significantly longer now. My anxiety has just been way out of control by not seeing any significant movement on the scale. But I think that's exactly what's freaking me out — plateaus used to last maximum 5-7 days for me and now they last longer and this comment helped me realize that, so thank you
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Posted 10 May 2022 - 07:34 PM
So, in the past, I've aimed for low and/or medium restriction, depending on the relapse. That's how I lost 58 lbs in 4.5 months last year (I was also obese when I started) and 18 of them in the last month of the relapse, but eating 3 bites of food a day while being on my feet for minimum 10 hours a day was a disaster and I ended up having to go inpatient because my physical health and mental health tanked fast.
I engaged in low and/or medium restriction in January-February as well, and while the consequences weren't as bad as they were in 2021, I still got to the point where all I did was lay (lie?) in bed all day because I had no energy. I was sort of in quasi recovery in March and April (aka not losing but eating was still a mess) but I really want and need to lose weight and so I decided to try something different.
For the past 10 days, I've restricted to 900-1200 cals a day and gone on shortish runs all but 2 days (burning about 250-400 cals with each run). I've lost 6.2 lbs, I still have energy, I can think about things other than food, and I'm able to keep my family and friends in the dark. Why didn't I do this sooner????? I was afraid high restriction wouldn't lead to weight loss, but this is so so so much better and more sustainable than what I've done in the past and I'm still losing pretty rapidly! Anyway all that to say high res & exercise is now my favorite combo ever.
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Posted 11 May 2022 - 08:13 AM
This is really inspiring to read, thank you for posting. I'm currently in a low res phase after years of recovery in an effort to get off at least good part of the excess weight. But I've been thinking about switching to higher res with exercise once I lose a little more, so this is just what I needed.
I'm glad you've found a better way and are able to focus more on things that are truly important, your loved ones.
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thanks for sharing!! this is really nice to read. i'm currently trying to up my intake because the low res is so unsustainable and it's leading to me b/p'ing (which is not conducive for weight loss i'll tell you what), and i have just started a standing job where this just isn't going to work out eventually. i'm also starting at a high (over 200 lbs) weight so maybe i'll just learn from you 
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Posted 25 January 2022 - 12:38 AM
i'm going to try to hide the weight loss with sweatshirts and baggy clothes, which is what i usually wear anyway. i just have no clue how i'm going to hide the weight loss in my face. also, i no longer have a dietician because of financial reasons (and i'm really glad tbh) but i have a therapist. i only see her on zoom but i need to hide my weight loss in my face too. any suggestions?
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I dont really have much bc this is usually where ppl tell me they notice it bc I wear baggy clothes too. best I can say is wear your hair down if its long, untucked.
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eleganthoe, on 25 Jan 2022 - 01:05 AM, said:
good idea! also sorry guys, i think this post posted twice because of tapatalk even though i only pressed it onceMaybe try to use makeup?
Something like a blush, without contouring to make your face seem fuller.
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beAbody, on 25 Jan 2022 - 01:07 AM, said:
yeah, i'm gonna have to do that. i can tell the weight i've lost more when my hair is in a ponytail or bun.I dont really have much bc this is usually where ppl tell me they notice it bc I wear baggy clothes too. best I can say is wear your hair down if its long, untucked.
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Posted 18 January 2022 - 02:19 AM
i'd say my ed behaviors were moderate, sometimes kinda mild, from 2016-2019. went to treatment 2x (res, php, iop). in 2019 i began to recover for real because i had several health scares from purging up to 5 times a day. but here's the deal - i never combined low res with purging many times daily during this time like i do now.
from sept 2019 to may 2021 i went from 149 lbs to 209 lbs. in mid may, i relapsed because my life was (and still is) in shambles and i hated being rhat weight. i lost 58 lbs in 4 and a half months (18 in sept when i was eating 3 bites of food daily) and essentially went insane w/ my bpd, si, and anxiety. additionally, i became almost unable to read and write and i made errors while speaking constantly, plus i had bradycardia, lost my period, an electrolyte imbalance. i went to treatment knowing i would prob relapse after but i really wanted to get my bpd and si under control.
i discharged late nov after gaining 16 lbs and lost about 7 lbs from late nov to late dec. but something clicked in my brain and i began restricitng more and more until i've gotten to this point - barely eating during the day and eating several small snacke/meals (100-240 cals) and then purging them. i'm purging at least 3 times a day. i've lost 10 lbs since jan 1st. i am concerned abt my degree of restriction combined with the frequency of purging but i'm having a difficult time reducing the purging. i don't wanna recover but i'm legit scared because this feels worse than those 4 and a half months already and i know it's dangerous. anyone have harm reducution tips?
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Posted 18 January 2022 - 11:56 AM
im so sorry you are going through this. instead of purging could you try doing other things like going on a walk until the calories have settled? or maybe call a friend after eating so you can't go to the bathroom? i find distraction helps the most.
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Posted 25 January 2022 - 12:38 AM
i'm going to try to hide the weight loss with sweatshirts and baggy clothes, which is what i usually wear anyway. i just have no clue how i'm going to hide the weight loss in my face. also, i no longer have a dietician because of financial reasons (and i'm really glad tbh) but i have a therapist. i only see her on zoom but i need to hide my weight loss in my face too. any suggestions?
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meandmyself, on 25 Jan 2022 - 01:16 AM, said:
the issue is i've told him that so many times that it's like the boy who cried wolf....plus i'm 8 lbs from a normal weight so i imagine in a week i'll be very close, where i was like bmi 29 early december. so he'll know unfortunately :/ gotta go with that makeup tip though - thanks!If you’re still a little overweight maybe just explain you’re trying to lose it healthier now. So he can try to understand… other than that stay away from contour use blush on the tip of your nose and apples of your cheeks.
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dwindlingrose, on 25 Jan 2022 - 01:30 AM, said:
the issue is i've told him that so many times that it's like the boy who cried wolf....plus i'm 8 lbs from a normal weight so i imagine in a week i'll be very close, where i was like bmi 29 early december. so he'll know unfortunately :/ gotta go with that makeup tip though - thanks!
I get you honestly, my dad and my grandmother are the same way. If I wear shorts or anything my grandmothers first thing to say is “you’re too skinny again ,your legs look like there’s nothing there” or when I ask my dad to pick me up some low cal protein shakes he has a problem with it , and always asks why I can’t just eat food. He’s forever trying to get me to do things I physically can’t, I don’t think he understands what and eating disorder is. But sometime he try’s….. also make up wise definitely look up baby doll make up definitely something cute and round will help
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Posted 10 February 2022 - 04:31 AM
weight is anywhere between bmi 17.6-19, will know for sure at some point in june. update 16th june: bmi is 17.9
i don't rly lose anymore bc my brain is the etch a sketch of disordered eating: i restrict, i fast, i drink, i purge, i exercise and then i don't, i binge, binge, binge, i don't care. repeat?
my very passive "goal" weight is 42kgs or bmi 15. the incentive being im a nerd and has little to do with the look of it tbh. iykyk. but yeah, in the end, i'd be happy if i settle on high restriction long enough that i reach it.
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10.02 thursday
tested positive for covid today. i had stronger symptoms yesterday -- body pain, migraine, fever, sore throat, but i tested negative. today i only had back/neck pain and fatigue.
food:
-- apple, 2 kiwis, 3/4 banana
-- 1/2cup oats w/ mango and rasp, ~1.5tsp honey and ~tsp chia
-- bowl of homemade lentil dahl
im not very aesthetic with my food so gonna spare u(?) the photo
i rly dislike cooking so most of the time i eat prepackaged food or sth that's very quick. but two of my flatmates' hobby is cooking and baking, so we have sth homemade (cooked, baked, or both!) virtually at all times. im a bit of a picky eater (+ sometimes for disordered reasons) so i don't join their dishes that often, but still, it is lovely to have something homemade every once in a while.
i finally got around to watching the matrix lol. was fun, 10/10 would recommend (as if im not the last one watching it lmao...). altho i think action movies is not fully my cup of tea. & there were some unexpectedly gruesome scenes. i did enjoy myself tho; i found those scenes weirdly invigorating -- it was hardly gore, yet it made me wince.
im gonna try to fast tmrw but no promises my stomach feels weird and i dont feel nice etc.
also im falling behind at uni and i can at least use the next 3 days to catch up since i wont be working (which is ... painful. financially. but anyway.)
food total ~1100. im generally ok below 1400.
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-- one can chickpeas
-- pumpkin cream soup
-- 2x homemade waffles w/ jam & brunost
total is rly unsure bc of the waffles but probs overestimated 1400. without waffles is 650.
i rly like chickpeas, and i rly like pumpkin cream soup... but i put the chickpeas in the cream soup and it was severely anticlimactic. i kinda regret wasting 650cal on this.
my flatmates are doing a bonfire at the nearby lake rn. im stuck in quarantine :///
at least tmrw i'll go to the supermarket, if i don't have any symptoms anymore.
today i found out that i can actually get sick leave!! i thought my contract was too shitty (it *is* very shitty), but at least it covers sick leave! so that's very, very good news.
i didn't do much in way of uni work today... kept getting distracted cause the thing im reading atm is boring and i rly wanna move to the other stuff. but tryina do that first. i will try to finish it now -- it's 10pm but it'd be sooooo lovely if i wake up tmrw only with stuff i feel like doing to do.
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12.02 saturday
-- 4x toast with brunost and jam
-- like, 100ml kefir
-- 4x tangerines
-- broccoli w/ mustard & ketchup
total ~1050
it's unfortunate that brunost, which i crave a lot atm, has 440cal/100g. and it's so dense!! a block of 500g is much less volume than yellow cheese :// i'm thinking of doing a sort of mono of either brunost, or brunost+jam, or maybe even toast w brunost & jam. at some point maybe. if cravings persist.
i didn't finish the reading yesterday lmao. i fell asleep. but i gave up today and decided to do work for my other modules instead -- much better. i'll tackle as much work as possible tmrw and then it'll be easier to devote time to the boring reading bc i won't be thinking what other stuff i need to do.
i did laundry + grocery shopping today. 2512 steps, to be exact. and my body was tired. like, my legs went tingly numb the way they'd go after a tough workout. i reckon that's the corona in me lmao.
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13.02 sunday
-- 2x toast w/ brunost & jam
-- more brunost
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-- a piece of homemade carrot cake
total ~1350
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this was kinda the prequel to my current cause of sadness and stagnation. my skin has been relatively bad lately -- relative to my usual skin, i mean. and i do put effort in my skincare. so thoughts about this + intrusive images of my ugliness plagued my mind the whole day today. and i just want to cry. the thing with the skin genuinely feels like the universe is punishing me LMAO. like, not only am i ugly, but the one thing that could be quasi-alright and is semi- in my control, is just horribly wrong and ugly. more even, the one thing i actively put effort to make pretty... is ugly. and my brain of course goes the entire length neatly reframing this as an allegory of my entire life: whatever i try or do, nothing is ever going to be good (enough).
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Posted 15 February 2022 - 04:38 PM
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~1950cal after going thru 100+ page historical perspectives on human rights in multiple languages, so i didn't rly feel guilty abt indulging, i was in a heavy-reading-for-hours haze.
15.02
3000max, not sure exact number and tbh don't rly care. this is what no going out does to a mf. beginning to return to a normal routine from tmrw so that should improve my intake significantly. the government regulation for corona quarantine here is 4 days even if you have symptoms. the only thing is, you have to be fever free for at least 24 hours w/out taking medication. i only had fever last wednesday. but 4 days sounds super random and not enough in my absolutely unprofessional opinion... so i decided to spare me going out yesterday and today as well, just in case. but it's been a week now, so gonna yeah, return to normal tmrw; i don't have any symptoms anyway and i'm starting to feel very low mentally ngl been spending too much time ruminating.
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1. i need to call my uni bc i accidentally locked myself out of my uni e-mail
2. *finallyyyyyyyyy* send my bank account application docs & that's if it's not too late
3. finish the boring reading that i keep procrastinating then
4. go to the seminar for that same module
5. somewhere in-between i need to draft up a doc outlining an event i need organize
6. go to the association meeting and present the plan lmfao...
7. finish up my reading for thursday. there's only like 15pages left, so it should be fine.
i have some bonus activities, but i think they'll need to happen another day lmao.
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good luck sorting everything out with uni and the bank. i definitely feel that on not going out being detrimental to mental health, sucks you tested positive but glad to hear your fever broke relatively quickly
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i started writing a long thing about displacement, identity and the humiliation of language (as a friend eloquently put it an hour ago), but i'm having a headache flareup, so today's not the day. instead, here's a book that i want to read + a very old poem of mine has been stuck in my head & i need to sit down and revise it cause it's the closest thing i've ever come to articulation. been stuck in my head, may post it here at some point.
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Posted 17 February 2022 - 12:08 PM
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100g chips
~80g choc cake
500g broccoli w mustard/ketchup
total ~1100
15k steps + 2.15km run
considering that i usually have no problem maintaining 5'30" per km and today not only did i stop once (yes, within the 2km lmao), but also my pace was 5'38 and i was rlyyy pushing it... i ended up giving up and stopping cause i just couldn't. i think it's some leftover corona effect or smtng, but i hardly remember a time i've had such a hard time pushing thru on a run. so then i had a long-ish walk instead.
some photos from my run place... which also happens to be one of my favorite places in general period. i can't believe i get to call this "my neighborhood." & there's always people ice bathing. i rly wanna try ice bathing sometime.
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Posted 18 February 2022 - 06:58 PM
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double latte w oat milk (100?)
burger w bean patty, tomat, lettuce, pickle, cheddar & a tsp aioli (600?)
2x lemonade w ginger ale, lemon, passion fruit liquor (~240)
200ml sour ale (100?)
this (300?) --
total 1350
steps 14 200
it's 2:50am and im in bed post-work. it was a quiet friday. hope tmrw is gonna be quiet too hehe. although not too quiet, it gets boring.
at one point a colleague of mine burst into laughter. i looked up at her -- was looking at my phone -- in question. she, "you had to see yourself looking at your phone like that -- smiling, in a half-giggle. i *know* what's up," she winked, "that's why you're so lost," (i was complaining before abt feeling out of it), "in loooove and looost." she was serious in her conclusion that i was texting w/ a lover or sth, maintained her i-know-whats-up-but-ok-we-wont-say-it-out-loud-winkwink look for the rest of the evening... i was ordering me some weed... LMAO
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Posted 22 February 2022 - 01:11 AM
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i have literally zero time. i spent the whole day yesterday w a friend and i do not want to sound horrible (which i will), but it's v hard for me to not feel like social life is a waste of time just cuz i've 2476836 other things to do. but this friend needed to hang and i refuse to not try to be an ok friend. so anyway. i also had the last part of my psych assessment yesterday and gonna get the results next week. a lot of anxiety that imma be told that im making shit up and they dont know how to help me cause theres nothing to be helped with. whatever. her last question was what do i want from therapy and i just. blanked. and said, "yeah uh so now im good but i just kinda wanna... avoid swinging down to suicidal and ruining my life... again... so like... therapy just in case, i guess?" LITERALLY the second i was outta that room, i thought of at least 10 other, actually valid, things i want help with lmfao... im gonna write them down and give them to her next week 'cause i dont wanna miss this opportunity for help.
also i think i'd been holding onto some water weight bc today i woke up w a noticeable difference in my legs and i don't think it's weight loss cause it's too noticeable within one night... so yeah idk, maybe it is some water that ive been retaining for some time.
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Posted 22 February 2022 - 01:50 AM
TPWLMST, on 19 Feb 2022 - 10:53 AM, said:
i mean talking to someone you love, hitting someone up for weed, what's the difference?
truly
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Posted 22 February 2022 - 05:52 AM
also i def understand wanting to be there for friends but viewing it as a waste of time. having a social life is important, sure, but especially during the semester it just feels like a question of when is that supposed to fit in, exactly?
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Posted 22 February 2022 - 04:12 PM
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7 mandarins
200g alpro vanilla yogurt
3x toast w vegan spread
total 850
yesterday i went to a supermarket that's the same chain as my local one only in a rich neighborhood. the mandarins were on offer per 5kg and i love, love, love mandarins but the ones in my local supermarket taste like plastic, so i thought i won't buy & carry around 5kg of plastic mandarins thru half a town only to have them rot... until i saw their vegan range. which made me stop dead in my tracks and get those mandarins cause i figured if they have vegan stuff like that, they probably have nice mandarins too lmao.. i was right! i've devoured half of them already (...10 yesterday lmao) and probably gonna finish them tmrw lmao. and idc but im gonna find the time sometime these days to go back there and get, like, 10kgs. lmao. i also got a vegan spread thats super tasty, and choc soya milk, and tofu. who would've thought lmfao.
it's not like im trying to transition to plant-based -- i have periods where i eat or don't eat diary and im okay with the way it is, but i do try to eat it as little as possible anyway + i suspect a mild lactose intolerance. so that's why i get so excited abt vegan products lol.
i've been craving tomatoes with samardala (bulgarian spice) so badly. but im very spoiled in the way of tomatoes cause i've grown up exclusively eating homegrown bg tomatoes which i start salivating just thinking about. anything else tomato-wise is just a crime against tomatoes in my book. and i only have so much samardala in me. i brought a little bag with me here in august and i've been using it sparingly lmfao... this is one of the very few things that get me excited abt visiting in late april lol. i did end up buying four (4!!) tomatoes but i kind of stare at them, trying to will them to turn appetizing, every time i open the fridge without daring to waste my precious spice on... this. :')
last thing, i accidentally bought bread that's 100cal a slice. amazing.
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Posted 23 February 2022 - 02:15 AM
there's a closing shift on friday available and idk if i should take ittttttt.
why yes:
1) i desperately need the money, esp considering the sick pay turned out to be so little,it's virtually nothing. this may be only one "why yes" but boy, is it a big one. i am, yet again, late with my bills and sbfabrjqgi
2) i don't know if im gonna be given enough shifts in march and so it'd be good to take whatever i can whenever i can. im in the process of searching for a new job just cause this one is unstable and shitty (my contract is yuck cause i signed it in the first week i came when i didn't know i have rights here + i work with a sexually harassing neo-nazi for a cook. to brush the tip of the iceberg), but it's a process and i still rely on this to sustain my life lol.
why no:
1) a friend is visiting next week and i don't want to fall behind in uni so im reaching for every possible free second to keep up...i took way too many classes, basically stuffed close to a year worth of credits in one semester and now im here lol.
2) im opening on saturday so uh. thats gonna be not exciting in any way. but it's only one time so it's not really a reason.
3) honestly, i just dont want to. the place is toxic and i have a shit ton of worthwhile stuff to do instead of wasting a friday slaving for the bosses such as they are (they received 100 000 euro in tax return and one of them... just laughed condescendingly at this). but again, this is not really a reason.
materially speaking, i should 100 percent /why is my percent key button not working wtf??/. i guess it's just on an emotional level where im so opposed to doing what i perceive as a waste of time. like, i will be able to keep up with uni anyway ig, just at the expense of sleep. & then it's one more day that adds a little bit of financial security, maybe. ah, im really unsure :// cause it's not only academic work, im also running a group for an event during human rights week and im the one who does everything for some reason. then i also have my film society where i need to basically sort through some movies for next semester. and obviously i have meetings for both those stuff, one of which i need to coordinate myself. then also i need to organize a study group for one of the subjects bc *yet again* no one does a thing when they keep talking about how nice it'd be. THEN DO STH ASUBDWEVFUEW. and i have a leftist reading group that i've severely neglected and need to text to actually get them to meet. AND THEN we were supposed to start a dnd campaign with some friends and they are waiting for me 
and so im somehow expected (or expect from myself moreso) to be excited at the prospect of spending time at a place i don't like, working for genuinely bad people in the private sector, being underpayed, having 8+ hours of stress every time i need to talk to someone bc of the prospect of them being assholes to me while also having to deal w the bosses, who have the tendency to pop by fridays/saturdays and be absolutely useless meat slabs while intensely trying to micromanage everything even tho they know nothing of how their fucking business actually runs
this just turned into a rant shitting on my work place LMAO
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Posted 23 February 2022 - 11:43 AM
sounds like a shithole tbh. how far behind on bills are you is the main question lmao, if it won't really help you either way i'd pass just because you're still fucked but at least then you'll be fucked with having gotten a little more sleep. i'd chip in a bit if i could, sorry you're stuck in the bind you're in rn
also people who don't do any sort of organizing towards what they want to happen are so obnoxious :/ i've shamelessly left study groups to fend for themselves for wasting my time ngl, if you won't get more out of it than what you lose from organizing them you aren't obligated to do it. someone else can step up to the plate for a change, you're busy
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Posted 23 February 2022 - 03:11 PM
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700cal food + 1000cal alcohol (apparently) for now, gonna update later if i continue drinking.
654 for 200ml baileys
880 for 8 shots x 5cl vodka
total 2260
well, this thread started well enough ig it was time. tbh this is probably not scientifically backed up at all but i do believe alc calories are absorbed differently. i have periods of serious alcohol binging and i've always end up losing weight OR maintaining lower normal/underweight during those. so today's count is rly more for the sake of this accountability rather than myself -- personally, i dont care abt alc calories in 1 day. like obvi i regulate food round it but ive found as long as i dont eat too much, all's fine. i realize all this sounds like an excuse, but i don't care.
edit: yes, i do have high alcohol tolerance, 1) im eastern european, 2) i started drinking at 12 (see pt.1)
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Posted 25 May 2022 - 07:15 AM
.......this man was fine as hell i can't even lie. like WOW look at him. ramses slay.
see moses was fine too but, idk if it would be disrespectful to say he was fine in the movie too LMFAO
this dude is ramses. from the movie prince of egypt.
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i literally have thought he was hot for years now. this is the first time i had the balls to say it out loud tho.
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Posted 25 May 2022 - 07:32 AM
milkflower, on 25 May 2022 - 07:30 AM, said:
the villains are always hot fr ✋ like shan yu can get it…
NO EXACTLY. WHY ARE VILLIANS ALWAYS HOT AS FUCK.
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yeonnie୨୧, on 25 May 2022 - 07:32 AM, said:
NO EXACTLY. WHY ARE VILLIANS ALWAYS HOT AS FUCK.
i’m literally googling ramses prince of egypt clips crylaughing rn, i love you 😭😭💖 he kind of gives me s1 zuko vibes…. another extremely hot villain……
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Posted 25 May 2022 - 07:53 AM
milkflower, on 25 May 2022 - 07:42 AM, said:
i’m literally googling ramses prince of egypt clips crylaughing rn, i love you he kind of gives me s1 zuko vibes…. another extremely hot villain……
HES HOT AS HELL BRO. i can't say what i want to say because i think it would be disrespectful but. HES SO FINE BRO.
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yeonnie୨୧, on 25 May 2022 - 08:08 AM, said:
I LOVE TO GATEKEEP HOT MEN TBH.
Well then.. uh.. I’m not gonna tell you about this one man I know…who totally exists and stuff… SO HA
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Posted 25 May 2022 - 08:22 AM
~mist~, on 25 May 2022 - 08:13 AM, said:
Well then.. uh.. I’m not gonna tell you about this one man I know…who totally exists and stuff… SO HA
so ur gonna do me dirty after i HAND deliver you gossip and tea?
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Posted 25 May 2022 - 08:49 AM
THIS IS ONE OF MY FAVORITE MOVIES <3
i wont judge.. this is an Old Testament story after all.
but while we're at it
PERHAPS ALL HIS PAIN AND SUFFERING WAS WORTH IT FOR THIS "CHARACTER DEVELOPMENT" ^^^
i'm a HOEses for moses <3
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Posted 25 May 2022 - 08:49 AM
yeonnie୨୧, on 25 May 2022 - 08:22 AM, said:
so ur gonna do me dirty after i HAND deliver you gossip and tea?
Nvm nvm I’m forever in your debt how could I EVER imagine doing something like that to you
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Posted 25 May 2022 - 08:52 AM
oh yeah and we need to appreciate the ladies as well.
UM. I LOVE HER OKAY
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Posted 25 May 2022 - 08:53 AM
~mist~, on 25 May 2022 - 08:49 AM, said:
Nvm nvm I’m forever in your debt how could I EVER imagine doing something like that to you
see this is the appropriate energy. thank u misti.
lunoct, on 25 May 2022 - 08:52 AM, said:
oh yeah and we need to appreciate the ladies as well.
UM. I LOVE HER OKAY
oh my god all the fine ass women of color in this movie. literally black women SOLO. she's SO PRETTY!!!
i think this was like the first movie i ever saw where like everybody was either black or otherwise a poc so legendary.
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yeonnie୨୧, on 25 May 2022 - 08:53 AM, said:
see this is the appropriate energy. thank u misti.
oh my god all the fine ass women of color in this movie. literally black women SOLO. she's SO PRETTY!!!
i think this was like the first movie i ever saw where like everybody was either black or otherwise a poc so legendary.
RIGHT??? when you watch it grown up too you realize how much history has whitewashed the Bible.
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lunoct, on 25 May 2022 - 08:59 AM, said:
RIGHT??? when you watch it grown up too you realize how much history has whitewashed the Bible.
EXACTLY, but i aint even gon open that can of worms cuz then someone gon get mad at me.
oh my god i wish ramses was real so bad. like dgshjhgwjhdj. i would let him punch me in the gut.
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Posted 16 June 2022 - 09:16 PM
■ DAY 1 | THURSDAY, JUNE 16, 2022
weight: 145 lbs (65.7 kg)
calories in: ~500/800
workout: 35 mins butt + arms
Forgive me ana, for I have been overeating this week. lol. Starting to turn things around and I have a feeling this time the plan will stick, idk why. Maybe just a naive hope? Today wasn't too bad, and usually day 1 is by far the hardest. But it felt easy undereating and sticking to OMAD. I usually wouldn't go under my intake limit this much, but I'm seeing my boyfriend Evan for the first time in 12 days tomorrow night and I need my stomach to be as flat as possible. Because I am going to fuck the shit out of him. ♥ It's always so hard when he has to travel for trade shows, but I'm proud of him and he makes bank and likes to treat me to fancy dinners and experiences so I'm not complaining.
Today was my first calm day in a while. I've been feeling guilty/bad about not having a job at present, but my industry is very "feast or famine" and I know an offer will be around the corner soon. I'm coy about what I do exactly, but the way the industry works is that I'm on projects ranging from 2 weeks to a few months in length. I'm at the very beginning of my career so I know work will be more sporadic until I really build up my network. I should just appreciate it! I literally don't pay rent, I live with my parents or I stay at Evan's during the weekends/whenever his dad is traveling. And soon his dad is going to move countries for work, meaning I'll be living rent-free with my boyfriend in the big city, full time... ahh, can't wait for that. Thank god for rich dads who continue to pay the mortgage, lol. I love freeloading.
Anyway, yeah. I shouldn't feel guilty. Not even two weeks ago I was killing myself over work and making $1000/day. I am good for a bit, truly. Of course I'd love to make more money soon, but I'm learning how to appreciate the time off instead of feeling anxious and letting time pass me by.
I made the most of it today. Did a ton of personal finance reading, specifically when it comes to planning for retirement. I know, I'm literally 24, but this is the BEST time to get a jump on investing because the power of compound interest is soooo insanely good. Seriously, everyone out there - if you haven't been thinking about retirement/have investment accounts, I highly recommend you do your homework. In particular I've been loving this economist's blog, Early Retirement Now. I would love to retire early, around 50 or so, and it seems very possible as long as I play my cards right. Anyway, this dude seems to have the absolute best takes I've encountered in all my research so far, and he managed to comfortably retire at 44. This whole early retirement thing is called the FIRE movement in case you're interested in more reading - he links to other resources in his blog, and there's the subreddits r/FIRE and r/financialindependence.
I invested a lot of money today. Maxed out my Roth IRA for the year and have a few thousand more to pour into the stock market some time next week, once I really solidify how I want to allocate my portfolio/budget. Currently I am investing 50-60% of each paycheck and living off the remaining 40%, which is very doable when you don't pay rent. Yes, I recognize and vastly appreciate my privilege.
Diving right into the financial talk on day 1, haha. It's been heavily on my mind! I want financial independence. I love my job, but I want to enjoy my later years to the fullest. Travel, travel, and more travel. I'm not forgoing the first half of life, though. I'm trying to live as expensively and luxuriously as I can on my budget. A large part of that strategy comes from simply making a lot of money, which is definitely my goal (I can easily make north of 150k/year once I have consistent work), but the other part is living more minimally.
It's insane how much stuff I have, how much stuff everyone seems to have. Did a huge spring clean this week and got rid of everything that didn't spark joy, and am using up all the "products" I possibly can before buying more of it - skincare, makeup, candles, etc. No more excess. Why am I buying expensive skincare if I let the tube sit there for two years? And clothing, oh my god, the clothing. I had a very bad habit of buying "skinny clothes" for years, and I'm just grateful my taste hasn't changed that much so I don't have to donate all of it lol. I have two huge boxes of clothing to shrink into as I lose this last 35 pounds. So ultimately, I have no reason to spend money on items for a good long while!! Instead, I'm prioritizing fun experiences in my big metro area and booking travel.
Other than that, I watched a Wong Kar-Wai film today - Fallen Angels. Wow. So good. It incited a flurry of emotions and made me cry. Think this film officially cements him as my favorite director. I work in a creative industry and have been entertaining a variety of creative side hustles to explore when I do have time off (such as... writing a book) and watching cinema like this always leaves me feeling so inspired. Plus lots of insane thinspo, as is usually the case in his work. Also gave me all the good mid 90s-mid 2000s alternative vibes.
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