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Posted 17 May 2022 - 02:21 PM
you know, I just did a weigh in and I already forgot the number past the decimal
its either 145.6 or… something. Idk. I’ve been in a deficit so anything above 144.6 is a lie lol.
I got my grades for this semester!: A,A,A,A,B! I thought the B class would be a D so I’m very happy and surprised lol. Yay!
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intake: ??? idk but I want chicken we're getting my beloved indian food!
ok nvm apparently we’re getting innout burger
protein style hamburger, with cheese essence ig - 264... x 2 = 528
about 530 cals today
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Posted Yesterday, 01:57 AM
freaked out a little too disorderedly today
i panicked visibly when my hamburger had not only two slices of cheese, but also double the amount of patties
took me like 15 mins scraping off the cheese from the patties so they were acceptable to me.
even offered one to my sister. which she declined.
and I didn’t even eat the fries ordered for me, cause they were too scary at around 630~700 cals an order. but they would’ve tasted so good. fuck lol… 
also officially decided that , after reading many thinspo posts with bmis attached, if I don’t look bmi 16.5 at bmi 18.5, I’ll allow myself to get to weights 92 to 87 for bmi 17.5~16.5. yeahhhh.
I wanted to say I wanted to start eating my bmr but that’s too scary, too. 1347…? with a tdee of 1617, that’s a deficit of nothing.
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Posted Yesterday, 04:36 AM
why don’t you try for 1117 instead? it’s still enough of a deficit to allow you to lose a pound a week, but it’s far better on your health than your current intake, and perhaps you can work upwards !
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Posted Yesterday, 06:24 PM
flaneur, on 18 May 2022 - 04:36 AM, said:
sorry that you had a rough day :c 18.5 bmi is rly tiny though, especially if you have a large frame ! you’ll look amazing
why don’t you try for 1117 instead? it’s still enough of a deficit to allow you to lose a pound a week, but it’s far better on your health than your current intake, and perhaps you can work upwards !
thank you <3
maybe I’ll try that & try to exercise more. we’ll see. thanks again c:
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Posted Yesterday, 06:28 PM
stayed in bed all day today. not sure what I’ll eat now that I’m up. I took a shower despite not wanting to, yay, helth lmao.
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intake...
92g baked pinto beans - 100 cal
gonna drag the stationary bike to my room since I don’t have much to do now, might as well get skinni idk. don’t hold me to this though.
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Posted Today, 04:56 AM
i uhhh am going to stick with yesterdays 144.4
soo its 5 am and im allowing myself a maintenance day? if thats okay. might go over my tdee. but idk. def over my bmr.
well i had left overs from the other day including,,,
animal style fries - 630~
1 serving of munchies chips - 140
thats like 770 and its not even noon... so ill have a maintenance day
or wait for tomorrow
further intake:
tazo skinny chai latte concentrate - 200ml - 67 cal?
cashew unsweet 200ml - 20
87cal
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clowndoll, on 19 May 2022 - 07:09 AM, said:
It is okay to have maintenance days
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thank you <3 actually very comforting
158lbs -----> 120lbs (30 day fast)
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Posted 12 May 2022 - 02:21 AM
I'm embarking on a 30 day fast, to lose hopefully most of the weight I have gained and get back the control I once had over food. For the past 6 months I have been continuously bingeing and it has completely ruined my life in every way. I am miserable and fat and feel like every day it all just gets worse and worse. I'm giving myself the next 30 days as a last ditch attempt to get out of this mess than I've made. Eating myself to the point of disgust, eating while in floods of tears because I'm so full, eating despite how I no longer recognise myself in the mirror because of how much I've gained, eating from the moment I open my eyes, even if its in the middle of the night, eating the most crappy, sugary junk foods imaginable, eating eating eating despite all I want to do is stop eating and lose weight.... I could go on and on... but all I know is that this has to stop.
I am desperate. Not just for my body but for my mind and my soul too.
I'm only 14 hours in at the moment so its obviously very early and I'm full of optimism. But I just have to remind myself that this is my last hope. If I can do this, I can get myself back again... and I need that more than anything. I will be drinking water, diet soda, occasional Bovril drink (for salt, 8kcal per cup)... and if absolutely desperate, some fresh orange juice or a protein shake, but that will be extremely rare.
I walk for around 45 minutes every day and hope to be able to continue that but will see how things go. I hope to be able to sleep a lot of the time away and find as many distractions as I can. Hopefully the weather is getting nicer now so that might help me get outside even more.
Anyway .... all I want is my old body back... before all this binge eating started, I had been losing weight really well, 24lbs+ and got down to 127lbs, my goal has been 121lbs for a very long time and I want to finally see it happen instead of being this big fat blob who just talks about it all the time.
My stomach is huge, my face is chubby, my legs are like huge kebabs..... it has to end... this is it.
I'll update my how things are going as often as I can for motivation and accountability!
Love, Jovi x
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Posted 17 May 2022 - 02:43 AM
Sorry for the lack of updates since I started this! It's now been four days and I'm down to 154lbs making a 4lbs loss. I am feeling pretty good and my cravings are getting less and less which is amazing considering how deep I was into my sugar addiction. I'm drinking a lot of water and 7up Free... and so far I've been able to keep up my daily walks of around 40 minutes/2 miles.
Seeing the results so far is keeping me motivated, be so glad to get back into the 140's as a first small goal! When I am back to 140 is when I will be at my original starting point so my goals are like this:
Goal 1 - Back in the 140s
Goal 2 - 140
Goal 3 - 130
Goal 4 - 128 (Lowest weight of recent times)
UG - 121/120 or below.
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Posted Today, 04:33 AM
guyyyyys its going so well, I'm losing 1lb a day with ease and I feel good! My cravings and appetite are GONE. I never thought I'd ever be able to say that!!!
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