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■ DAY 116 | TUESDAY, APRIL 26
weight: ?
calories in: ~1200
workout: none
Feeling really depressed.
I think it's a combo of my period starting in a couple days + this job. This fucking job, man. I'm working 15-16 hours a day, slouched at my computer, dealing with a guy who is so rarely pleased and cannot articulate exactly what he wants. I had my second crying bout in just one week and I'm already tearing up again. This is so bad for my mental health. All I do is wake up and work. I take two breaks to eat, no more than an hour each. I go to sleep, I get 6-7 hours, I wake up and do it again. This morning I woke up feeling as tired as death and the team lead was half an hour late to our meeting because he slept in. He didn't apologize.
Fuck I'm gonna cry again. This fucking sucks. Sucks sucks sucks sucks sucks sucks. All I have to look forward to is my trip with Evan. Thank god for this trip, man. I don't know how I'd survive through the end of this project without that in the middle to revive me.
It's making everything feel grey. It literally has me questioning the meaning of life and shit, like getting real fucking existential about what the point of living is. All the stuff I usually care about feels like nothing. Being skinny, having nice things, making lovely memories with Evan, it all feels like nothing. The only thing that motivates me is getting to my next break hour. I feel constantly stressed out and anxious.
God. I'm so sad. All I have for solace is the knowledge is that my job usually shouldn't be this way. For one, I'm not usually someone's personal bitch, let alone to some Artiste guy that has a leaky brain, disrespects my time, and has nothing kind to say. For two... I'm not supposed to be doing admin/research shit for minimum wage. My usual job is so fun and creative and pays $55 hour at minimum. I just had nothing better to do so I took this. And I hoped it would lead to that $55/hour position offer. But god, now... I just. Idk. I want to get off this ride.
This all sucks so much. At least it's only 5 weeks total. One week down.
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aw babe, this sounds so awful. but it's like you said - one week down, only five in total. you've already made the transition, which is hands-down the hardest part. the finish line is in sight! every day of the next four weeks is one day closer to never having to do this job ever again.
would it help to make a bucket list of things you're going to do when it's over, so you can picture the future after it? or cross off the days on a calendar? i hope you're being gentle with yourself, love. it's not forever, you can do it <333
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Posted Yesterday, 09:59 PM
Calories total today: 775
-Morning: Plain instant oatmeal (110 cals) + Vanilla Nutpods creamer (20 cals) + ½ banana (60 cals) + Swerve brown sugar substitute sweetener (0 cals)
-Afternoon: Pink Lemonade Crystal Light (10 cals) + Peach Two Good yogurt (80 cals)
-Evening: Seafood Udon noodle bowl (290 cals) + 2 soft boiled eggs (140 cals) + Green onions (5 cals) + Baby shrimp (60 cals) + A&W Root Beer Zero Sugar (0 cals)
Exercise: n/a
I had a migraine most of the day, this is my third one in a week and I’m annoyed because my insurance is requiring prior authorization for the new migraine drug I want to try. I’m not sure if I’ll be able to afford it even after insurance, so I’ll probably just continue having to take an ungodly amount of Maxalt!
Here’s a really unaesthetic pic of my attempt at banana oatmeal 🍌
I wanted to add a pinch of cinnamon but then I realized that my husband had mixed sugar in it.
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you're so f-ing gorgeous!!! i hope things get easier soon <3 hugs.
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153.0 
good but not good enough for me sadly. I want 146.6 ~ 148.8 by may 1st.
but that probably won’t happen unless I keep wooshing with a sub 500 intake lol.
im tired of this super low restriction but I neeeed to see 140’s,
I’m tired of 150 even though it’s only been a month?? beloved intake:
lavender honey ice cream from local shop - 250
baigan bharta from local shop I banned myself from bc I ate here too often - 750
pink drink venti w almond milk and no ice - 290
1290 hhhj
realistic intake:
staged bowl of beans to make it seem like I ate - 0
maybe drink from Starbucks- 195 grande, 145 tall… or just drink water faye smh.
really want to eat but I feel like a failure… I don’t deserve it. I’m not working on my homework, haven’t started on my essays that are due in a week or two… just out of control outside of this.
real intake:
medium skinny berry slushie - 25 cal
[tostada - 60
lettuce - 5
cheese - 10
tomato? - 5
beans - 60
carnitas - 60>]
dinner - 200
225 total? okay
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flaneur, on 26 Apr 2022 - 12:55 PM, said:
eat!! you do deserve it, you’re losing at an incredibly fast rate and ngl im a little worried ab you
ahhh ily, no need to be worried! i feel fine & im extremely sedentary even on the days i go to campus so it's okies. I promise I'll eat "normally" again once I get to 140's :c
I know ED brain aside, what I'm doing is extremely concerning, so thank you for caring as much as you do <3
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Posted 25 April 2022 - 01:48 PM
maintenance calories ig. still feel crap ab it but at least i won’t gain fat weight
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more or less maintained. don’t know why i’m upset LOL considering i haven’t been in a real deficit + i have salt bloat from the ramen i ate yesterday
i feel like having iced coffee. might buy some
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anyways, down to the good stuff
intake: 429 calories
i love macarons. i love how fluffy they are, i love how pretty they are and i love how damn low calorie they are. is that news? to me it was. i used to love them pre crap mh but avoided them like covid 19 bc i figured that to be that sweet, they must be really high in calories. that was wrong, i was wrong, and i feel like a dumbass for never bothering to confirm this. i was shopping w my mum today and decided to check them out out of curiosity and they were 51?? calories. yes, 51! and they’re so damn good. this is an ode to macarons
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no way you've gained or even maintained. c:
and yes macarons are so good! I'm also surprised how little in calories they are for how good they taste
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Posted 22 April 2022 - 03:34 PM
CW:201
Total calories: 0
I’ve unintentionally cut out coffee so no cream calories and I haven’t had broth just salty water so far it’s a pure water fast. I’ll ride that out as long as possible. Trying for a pure water fast 0 calories and play it by ear. Today’s been good slight hunger but not bad. Reorganizing the cabinets to stay occupied!
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Seriously sick of 200’s!! Scale didn’t move again so just going to hang out here for awhile I guess… Might be awhile if I’m waiting for a BM. All that food is just hanging out and hanging on! Just like me lol hunger pains around meal time are minimal, but nagging and last until bedtime. I slept badly since my man “runs” in his sleep sometimes. That happened to be last night! He didn’t stop until 1 in the morning. I had to pee at 2 of course
. So I ended up getting 5 hours of uninterrupted sleep. Not enough for me! Sometimes I see the reason for separate beds! Lol I’m off to find myself a project to keep myself busy!Good luck fasters!!
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Almost done with day 3! Feel good hunger is going away again. Still no coffee so no calories. Really hope the scale goes down tomorrow! I’m tired of 201!! Almost made my goal of a gallon of water. Should make it by bedtime! Hopefully my bladder doesn’t keep me up all night! I don’t know what my plan is for after the 5th… I’m thinking I need to go back to eating and I’ve been considering moving to more veggies and less processed crap like cheese and oils. Get some really nutrient dense food in me for a bit before fasting again. Try to add in some more exercise too. Maybe I’ll focus on planning that during this fast, instead of food.
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Well at least it’s going down again… Really regretting breaking my fast at all now even though I know my weight would have gone up anyway. Definitely going to go back to keto OMAD low cal for a bit before fasting again. Gotta change things up!! I’ll need energy to start walking more anyway so hopefully that will burn enough calories to lose almost as quickly as fasting. I’ll do that for a few weeks then do another fast. About 251 hours left until I have to decide for sure! So much time left still!! Ready for triple digits again!
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Hungry2BHealthy, on 26 Apr 2022 - 11:32 AM, said:
Well fasters I made it to a little over 105 hours. I’m really sick pretty sure from my symptoms I have Covid. So yesterday I ate what tasted like nothing lol! Not being able to taste food is definitely strange! I had soup that just tasted slimy and some eggs with a little sausage. I was achy and feverish all day and night. Had a couple hours symptom free in the middle of the day yesterday and I’m symptom free at the moment. Going to try to get some stuff done before the fever starts up again. I’m going to use this time for healing and then I’ll start OMAD for a few weeks.
Good luck fasters!
Oh no! Get better soon! COVID is no joke
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My nutritionist um. Wants me to log my meals. Might have to just lie?
my stats
hahaha IM SO FAT NOW: ALMOST 260 ELBEEES AHAHAHA
260 258
256 254 252 250 248
246 244 242 240 238
236 234 232 230 228
226 224 222 220 218
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Okay obv I fucked up, but it's REALLY challenging to fast when you have weekly meets with a recovery-focused RD >:-(
which, i guess, technically is good.
but im so fat ;n;
my stats
hahaha IM SO FAT NOW: ALMOST 260 ELBEEES AHAHAHA
260 258
256 254 252 250 248
246 244 242 240 238
236 234 232 230 228
226 224 222 220 218
216 214 212 210 208
206 204 202 200 198
196 194 192 190 188
176 174 172 170 168
166 164 162 160 158
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HAHA. recovery blew me up like a balloon. Pushing 260.
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Posted 22 April 2022 - 04:58 PM
Every time I weigh on a different tile it gives me a different number
And then it dropped to 60.5 after my shower lolll
The numbers that kept showing up were 60.1 and 60.5
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try to weigh at the same exact spot and same exact time every single time. i usually weigh within 30 mins of waking up and after using the bathroom. that way i always get consistent numbers. oh, and try placing the legs of the scale within the tiles and not on top of the gaps.
I do but for some reason I put it on a different tile and it gave me a higher number so I got paranoid haha. Then I kept moving it around back and forth. Big headache.
Yea I’ll do that tomorrow morning
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I tried one coat of fake tan. The brand is called Bondi Sands. Im really liking the way it looks. It doesn’t have that orange / green effect that some tans do. This is like the second time I’ve tried fake tan loll.
Look at those fat fucking inner thigh fat.
Don’t get me wrong I generally like the way I look atm (still want to lose of course) especially my top half. Love how small my waist is. It’s 23.5 inches the last time I checked but I wish my bottom half matched my top half lolll I have those child bearing hips grrr
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I so relate to having fucking wide ass hips I can’t stand it omfg but your tan looks so nice and natural! I’ve always wanted to fake tan but I’m scared I’ll mess it up and look insane hahaha
It’s so annoying! I just want to be straight up and down grr. Aww thanks! I’m really liking this brand of fake tan. Yea it’s a tricky one. Maybe just check out the ones that have good reviews on YouTube?? That’s where I started from first haha xx
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Your parrot is hella cute!
I have two!! Yes they are adorable
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I use Inshot, and I'm loving it!
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I use Inshot, and I'm loving it!
It’s free??
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Cute fact: Olive is so in love with Pluto but Pluto doesn’t want a bar of it lmao.
This photo sums up their relationship
ALSO yesterday I decided to have a maintenance day. Bought these right
Mini cheesecakes yea yea ate half of everything. Out of nowhere there was a sudden sense of fear that rushed over me so I purged it for the first time in years. When I was underweight I used to restrict but purge half of what I ate.
I also can purge hands free but it takes time. I still feel shitty, have a headache and feel blahhh over.
I just wanted to have an innocent maintenance day but the ED wouldn’t let me agrgfjgjgjjf
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I'm so sorry you purged after such a long time
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Heisenbυrg, on 16 Nov 2021 - 03:15 AM, said:
Intake is around: 1300
Tdee is rounded up to 1900
You can see my tdee under where it says “start logging your food” I have it set to a 1000 cal deficit but that’s a bit too much for me atm
As long as I don’t go over my tdee this month I should be fine.
Also the eye drops and shif I have to put in hourly in my eyes affect my appetite too,goes through the nasal area apparently so I’m left with this weird taste in my mouth that lingers for a while. Blahhh
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I'm so sorry you purged after such a long time
I’m ok now hun. Thanks for caring
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" data-cid="77611461" data-time="1650981426" data-date="Yesterday, 11:57 PM">i’m sorry hun :c i hope you feel a bit better soon xx
Feeling much better today hun. No more purging for me xxx
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Calories Consumed, 770/1000
Calories Burned, 2154
Calorie Deficit, 1384
Notes,
So today was okay. Ate a sushi roll then purged. Counted 1/4 of the calories just to be safe bc I feel like i absorbed the sauce or something idk im paranoid. For work I got slushies for me and my boss in medium size. On my break I went to the shoe store and got new walking shoes! Pic included! So pumped! Anyways after work i made 2 of those pita pizzas like i had last night. Mostly bc my boyfriend told me to eat something. He wasn’t happy that all I had today was liquids, i argued that i did eat today it just came back out and that the slush i drank had calories. He didn’t like that argument lmfao, so i made food to keep down.
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congratulations on 153! your progress is really quick!! just going to echo what flaneur said - you deserve to eat - but i know how difficult that must be for you. if you feel faint or dizzy i hope you can take a moment to sit and maybe eat something tiny just to keep you going.
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congratulations on 153! your progress is really quick!! just going to echo what flaneur said - you deserve to eat - but i know how difficult that must be for you. if you feel faint or dizzy i hope you can take a moment to sit and maybe eat something tiny just to keep you going.
thank you <3 I always keep a little treat in the bag I take everywhere just for that, & my water is infused with a MIO electrolyte packet (water enhancer type thing) so I’m okay! but again. thank you.
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cw 150.2 <3
intake tbd
i have an advising appointment today so I’m gonna see if I’m doing okay in my progress for my degree. That will help me a lot.
otherwise, for homework, I have to watch one movie, one lecture, write 4 full length essays, and then do two exams
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Weight: 110.2 lbs
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Water: 3.5L
Intake: 885
Ok weight went down to the same as 2 days ago which is reassuring that it was just water retention so I'm gonna try not to b/p for as long as I can. Realistically I know I need to eat more and take high restriction seriously if I want to keep the weight off and not binge everything back but god I can't bring myself to eat over 900 without b/ping. Maybe I'll eat thicker pieces of bread in the morning or something lol. I don't want to eat more protein bars though because that shit is expensive and I literally have been throwing money getting ready for edc lol
25 more days!! Here's another house set because I am currently obsessed with house lmao
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I am so fucking tired and hungry holy shit lmao I'm surprised I haven't b/p'd yet. One of my residents that went to the hospital passed away yesterday and even though he was so fucking mean I feel bad because he was only 63 (younger than my dad). His son is kind of a shit lol he's younger than me and isn't working or in school and he only ever calls his dad to ask for money and they always end up arguing on the phone. Apparently he didn't even visit his dad at all when he was in the hospital before he passed?? I guess it's different for everyone but I could never leave my parents like that no matter what ):
I already bought so much fucking clothes for edc but I want to get this set however it's so fucking expensive........... https://www.iheartra...ve-triangle-top it's so cute though :''''( Gonna sit on it for a while but I'll probably end up buying it tomorrow lmao
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I slept at 5am this morning and somehow my body just automatically woke up at 9 which was fucking annoying because I was so tired and my eyes were sore as hell but I couldn't get back to sleep. It seems that this always happens when I'm deep into restricting like I'll wake up super early just because. I was drained at work and almost fell asleep on the drive back home LMAO it's currently 135am right now and I'm gonna go to sleep right after I post this. I was so fucking hungry the entire day and almost didn't eat the protein bar I originally planned to eat when I got home but my stomach was literally DYING so I was like ok fine I'll eat it. Hopefully tomorrow will be better hunger-wise because I literally cannot deal with this
I ended up buying the shorts and top of the reflective set I posted yesterday omg I'm so excited for it but I also hate myself because it seems like there's always something else I can buy and I tell myself it's ok because it's for edc lol. 23 more days fuck yeah I'm so excited for illenium ANNNNND he'll be on the same stage as zedd so there won't be any conflict in the set times hehehehehehehehhehhehe
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weigh in: 169.6lbs officially in the 160s! this gives me a huge head start for june!
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okay drs apt one is done, she weighed me and said i was 12stone 4 (172lbs) and last time she weighed me which was just over a month ago (a month n a half maybe???) i was 13stone 4 (186). i remember after she weighed me and i was 13stone x i was sad bc she weighed me with clothes which added about 1kg so i technically weighed less lmao. i weighed myself in all my clothes before i left to make sure i knew how much weigut my clothes would add and it said 173.xlbs so i know my 169 lbs today was true as it aligns with the drs scale! she didnt seem concerned nor say much about the weight loss, i wasnt expecting her to weigh me again bc she had last months weight but its nice to know my scales are also accurate, if not showing a lb heavier than i rlly am. luckily i dont have to do this for another year bc its a pill checkup n they give me my pill a years supply at a time so no medical professionals sussing my weight loss out!
went to tesco and bought these twister ice lollied that are mango, raspberry and orange and GOOD FUCK THEY ARE SO GOOD ohdbsjwjwjwnw i will add a pic omg and only 65 cals.
lunch wasnt until like 3??? had my usual soy burger etc & tried these paw patrol pizza flavoured pea snacks and they werent horrible but weren’t groundbreaking n only 65 cals. lunch was 292 cals.
dinner was again my usual mash w veg n protein n gravy (342 - wouldve been less but i added extra sweetcorn n peas n carrots bc i forgot to add the quorn pieces onto mfp ffs but it wasnt a bad total). 99 cals left might have a chocolate rice cake!
okay the rice cake was 98 calories and at first i was like meh not worth the cals but i took a second bite and omfg it is a standard ricecake covered in milk chocolate and then has salted caramel pieces sprinkled on top it was amazing.
ive done 10k steps today waaay tdee is 2510 at 9:43pm. i’ll probs be up until midnight but am gonna end my posting on here for today i think!
this was the ice lolly it was so yummy n took a while to eat bc its quite thick! my leg looks fucken tiny in this pic i wish it looked like that irl :’))))) thanks shadow
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AHHHH you look so amazing!!!!!! this look is 🔥🔥🔥 and your hair is so cute and ahhhhhhhh!!!! your legs look GREAT
also did you get the top/waistcoat combo in the end?? i'm gonna try to find that ice lolly
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earthmoon, on 27 Apr 2022 - 12:07 AM, said:
AHHHH you look so amazing!!!!!! this look is
and your hair is so cute and ahhhhhhhh!!!! your legs look GREAT
also did you get the top/waistcoat combo in the end?? i'm gonna try to find that ice lolly
thank you so much!! AH U ANGEL! yes i did buy it in the end, i bought SO much i assume it was probably the same person who donated all of the stuff but got a lovely dress and another couple of tops and a skirt!
this is what the packaging looks like theyre in tesco - £2 or £1.75 with a clubcard
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Dr Pepper, on 27 Apr 2022 - 01:20 AM, said:
You have such a cool style, i'm high-key jealous
thank you so so much!!!
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weigh in: so today i really struggled to get a consistent number it showed me 169lbs, 168.8lbs and then at one point 169.4lbs wtf so i took the batteries out and let it reset and it gave 168.8lbs so it will be interesting to see what tomorrow says, im not sure why they were so strange today, theyve been sat on the floor for a couple days so it cant be a calibration issue and i always calibrate before using them anyway so im not sure!
intake: 698.
gonna have another chill day, i need to shower but my motivation is non existent i think i have burnt myself out from all the uni work and tryna do so much. we have a house viewing today for a new housemate and i just look hideous hahahah oh well.
lunch was the usual, but had bbq sauce instead of mayo and had cucumber and celery and carrots n dipped them in some mayo which was an absolute waste of calories but oh well. lunch was 275.
ive just had a CHOCOLATE BAR OH GOD IT WAS SO FUCKING GOOD it was a caramel dairy milk bar from my easter egg from my mum. 218 cals such a god damn waste but SO YUMMY. but im annoyed because i didnt realise i had an ice lolly earlier today and didnt put that on mfp so forgot i had it so my sugar today wont be good
dinner is two rice cakes w ham n i might have an apple tho that will put me over my carb goal. it’ll help with fibre tho i guess!
had an apple bc its god damn fruit and i cant be afraid of fruit :’) intake today is ending at 698. i feel a bm brewing lmao which will be my third of the day if i go which is pretty nice bc ive been struggling w being constipated :’)
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tilldeath, on 27 Apr 2022 - 03:00 AM, said:
thank you so much!! AH U ANGEL! yes i did buy it in the end, i bought SO much i assume it was probably the same person who donated all of the stuff but got a lovely dress and another couple of tops and a skirt!
this is what the packaging looks like theyre in tesco - £2 or £1.75 with a clubcard
i'm gonna get them, thank you for the rec!!!!!!! and that's so good, do you have photos of the rest of the fashion haul?? i'd love to seeee!! also, do you have discord? my messages on here are not working and i can't seem to message anyone successfully on this site but i miss chatting to youuu <3
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earthmoon, on 27 Apr 2022 - 04:04 AM, said:
i'm gonna get them, thank you for the rec!!!!!!! and that's so good, do you have photos of the rest of the fashion haul?? i'd love to seeee!! also, do you have discord? my messages on here are not working and i can't seem to message anyone successfully on this site but i miss chatting to youuu <3
yes i will grab some pics n post it in a wee bit! my discord is #6974 i think thats what you need to add me?? im not v good with discord i have it but have never used it
i will be honest i just checked my messages and saw you sent one literally a month ago and i never ever got a notification!!! im so sorry omg yes discord is defo the way to go. it would be fun to make a group chat with some mutuals on the higher bmi accountability! i miss chatting with you too!!Sent from my iPhone using Tapatalk
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omg no need to apologise at all! i can't even access our messages lmao, MPA literally won't allow me to even see what's happening in my inbox. i just checked and saw i had unread messages from other folk that i could read, but it wouldn't let me reply?? it's so brokennn. but yes! i'll float a lil discord chat idea on my accountability and see if anyone else fancies it! i think i need your full username including your wee #number to add you as a friend!
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earthmoon, on 27 Apr 2022 - 08:34 AM, said:
omg no need to apologise at all! i can't even access our messages lmao, MPA literally won't allow me to even see what's happening in my inbox. i just checked and saw i had unread messages from other folk that i could read, but it wouldn't let me reply?? it's so brokennn. but yes! i'll float a lil discord chat idea on my accountability and see if anyone else fancies it! i think i need your full username including your wee #number to add you as a friend!
i have popped one in the main higher bmi thread but no replies yet - i imagine putting it on ur accountability will be more successful! n its tilldeath#6974
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fαye, on 26 Apr 2022 - 3:56 PM, said:
hopefully! i LOVE ramen but the sodium bloat is wild so i rarely have it 🥲 was worth it tho icldood ramen makes me bloat like a mf, considering that, you're probably a bit lower than 102.3!! even lower than 101.5 I'm sure!
no way you've gained or even maintained. c:
and yes macarons are so good! I'm also surprised how little in calories they are for how good they taste
fr !! they’re so luxurious and i like pretending that i’m the main character in a little parisian cafe when i’m eating that. they taste so indulgent you’d never guess that they were so low calorie
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Choco_Bitch_612, on 27 Apr 2022 - 12:13 AM, said:
loooove macarons lmao. only downside to them is that they're expensive, at least where i'm at lol
check out your local supermarkets! i’m not sure what prices are like where you are, but in the uk iceland does a pack of 12 for £3, a literal bargain. and you’d never even guess that they were so cheap
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Pulchra Cadaver, on 28 Oct 2015 - 8:49 PM, said:
What would you label your personal style? What's your end goal for your "look"? Waifish and pastel? Grunge and punk?
What do you want to do with your hair? What kind of clothes do you like?
Mine is (bear with me) swamp witch.
I've been doing a lot of reading about New Orleans, voodoo/hoodoo and Marie Laveau, and it just sounds so ethereal.
I want to get a spray tan, have wild, dark, big curls (like this), and "modern hippie" style (like Misty Day in AHS: Coven).
I actually do want to practice voodoo, might as well look the part.
Post some pictures of hairstyles and outfits that inspire you!
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f your not a POC "New Orleans VoodooHoodoo" sounds cultrually appropriative and racist as.
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wehateeveryone, on 29 Oct 2015 - 1:56 PM, said:
BMI of 15.8, mostly if not all black clothes. I want to dye my hair black and keep it long or grow it even more. I want more piercings and a tattoo, pale skin and natural make up. I want the body of a fucking model, even though I'm 5 ft 3 lol. I want to rock high heels and skinny jeans but also fancy ass clothing just for kicks
In a way I can achieve this but I'll never look exactly how I want, because I'm short, am an ugly Eurasian and have scars on my arm and legs :/ still I think I can look pretty bad ass once I'm skinny.
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