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Posted Today, 09:43 AM
Weekend Summary
Had a lot of fun with my boyfriend this weekend. He wanted to cheer me up due to a death in my family so we went to a renfaire one day and an exhibit the next. I anticipated one of my days would be a really high calorie day and it ended up being Sunday. Luckily I had been 2,000 under my weekly goal so it should not deter my progress too badly. I plan to return to my regular routine today.
Also I weighed myself Sunday morning!
Weight: 242.6
5.14.22
Breakfast: Applesauce, Monster Ultra Zero, Benefiber = 70
Lunch: Skipped
Dinner: 2 Soft Tacos, Rice = 947
Snack: Sonic Soft Serve cup, Diet Coke = 350
Total: 1,367
5.15.22
Breakfast: Applesauce, Monster Ultra Zero, Benefiber = 70 cal
Lunch: Skipped
Dinner: Tonkatsu Ramen, Crispy Chicken, Japanese Highball = 1,800 cal
Snack: Popsicle = 60 cal
Total: 1,930
Overall not the best weekend in terms of calories but I did not binge and that is a win to me.
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flaneur, on 15 May 2022 - 06:27 AM, said:
fr i can’t tell if i did it right or not
i put in the mango and ice and blended it for like two minutes at the highest speed and this happened. it tastes rly good but i don’t know if this is how it’s supposed to looklool
edit: sorry for the crap quality
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My goodness you've got so much going on right now! I totally relate to having a junk spare room. We finally got ours mostly in order - enough for a bed and dresser after like 10 years xD We moved 6 years ago but moved one junk room to another. Just take one step at a time! You can do this! Also I hope you had a great anniversary.
I wouldn't worry too much about one day at the buffet. I totally relate to that. My wife and her family always want to go out to buffets and things of that nature and usually I can get out of it since they like to eat later *kiddo has a 7pm bedtime and being autistic/adhd we have to adhere to a schedule pretty tightly or meltdowns happen*
I'm trying not to be a nervous wreck myself when we go down to the beach in like a month for a week. That's a week of basically eating most meals out. We're getting a condo and spending other time with my parents but still. My mom cooks a boatload of high calorie foods - tasty as hell but still lol Plus one night of higher calories isn't horrible. <3
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L0LLIR0T, on 15 May 2022 - 06:59 AM, said:
My goodness you've got so much going on right now! I totally relate to having a junk spare room. We finally got ours mostly in order - enough for a bed and dresser after like 10 years xD We moved 6 years ago but moved one junk room to another.
I wouldn't worry too much about one day at the buffet. I totally relate to that. My wife and her family always want to go out to buffets and things of that nature and usually I can get out of it since they like to eat later *kiddo has a 7pm bedtime and being autistic/adhd we have to adhere to a schedule pretty tightly or meltdowns happen*
I'm trying not to be a nervous wreck myself when we go down to the beach in like a month for a week. That's a week of basically eating most meals out. We're getting a condo and spending other time with my parents but still. My mom cooks a boatload of high calorie foods - tasty as hell but still lol Plus one night of higher calories isn't horrible. <3
AND I still didn't touch the junk room LOL. I did manage to clean the entire house yesterday and go through all of the clothes I have in our outdoor shed. I have 5 trash bags full of off-season clothing and my closet was stuffed full of winter clothing. I took out all the winter stuff and went through all the summer stuff outside and tried on a lot of things that actually fit! That was really encouraging and it's a daunting task that I hate doing pretty much every year. Plus everything smells like moth/beetle killer and I have to re-wash everything every year which pisses me off lol. But I live in the south and there are a lot of creepy-crawlies so the last thing I want is to bust open one of those bags and see that my clothing has all been destroyed by freaking bugs. Thank you for saying that though! I know I probably won't gain too much but food/water weight still stresses me out when I weigh the next morning.
When I go on vacation and we go out to eat every day I always have the "salad for lunch, fish for dinner" rule. It can be fried fish if I'm feeling like it, but I always try to get a protein-packed salad for our lunches, dressing on the side. That way I know I'm not over-eating on vacation and then if we get ice cream or something I know I probably only ate 500 calories of lettuce and chicken lol. Regardless of how you feel about yourself, I'm sure it's a MUCH needed vacation and you'll still have fun! A month is still plenty of time to lose a good bit of weight so you feel a little better about yourself. I know how you feel, though. I can't stand wearing bathing suits and being on the beach and just feeling so exposed. An ultimate goal of mine is to always feel incredible in a bathing suit. Always has been!
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Posted Yesterday, 02:31 PM
Sunday, May 15, 2022
180.6!!!
GUYS. Like I know this isn't *real* weight gain but shit. What still blows me is the fact that I never have a BM on the weekends despite eating more food than I normally do. But yet I go to work on Monday mornings and bam. Bathroom time. Like why is that? Is it just me? I still drink coffee on the weekends normally, which sometimes is what I feel like makes me go, but I just don't get it. It's so WEIRD.
I'm not even going to stress over it. Literally I do this to myself just about every weekend when I logically know that there's no way I actually gained real weight from one or two days of eating like a normal person. Like will I ever get over food/water weight? IDK!
It's Sunday though and grocery day. Thank God I cleaned the whole house yesterday so once we get home I can relax a little while the baby naps. I didn't touch the junk room yesterday because my husband has been on a tirade of "getting shit done" which is great. All of his little projects are in the junk room, though and the last thing I'm about to do is organize all of that shit just for him to tear through it again to find his stuff. Right now he's all about putting his leveling kit on his truck and installing his system that he bought months ago. I bought him the leveling kit for father's day last year and he's just now getting around to it. I'm glad because both of those things are in giant boxes, but I wish he'd get around to these things like when he buys them. Every time he gets in one of these moods he buys more stuff that takes up space in the junk room lol. Makes no sense when I constantly complain about how much I want to organize it.
I'll have to get to that room sometime this week though before my mom flies in, which I'm still not looking forward to. Literally 6 days until my baby is a year old! Then I can finally stop talking about it lol. I know it probably gets old reading about it all the time guys but I'm getting super excited! Also super nervous though. I would love to get closer to the 160s this week, but I know that's an irrational goal unless I fast all week and once my mom is here that's not going to happen. I still don't know when she's coming, though. I think she said Thursday the 19th?
Either way, whatever weight I hit by this upcoming weekend I'll be proud of. I'm almost 30 lbs down from when I started this journey which is a great accomplishment! I think I'll actually be able to wear shorts for the party and not be self-conscious! We'll see. I need to go wake the baby up from her nap though. I've been scrolling on Tik Tok and made myself a vodka drink but I just realized that she's been asleep for like 3 hours. If I don't wake her up she won't want to go to bed tonight!
Breakfast - 174
- Protein coffee
Lunch - 603. Husband wanted Mexican for lunch so IDK if this is even accurate
- Huevos con chorizo (280), rice and beans (103?), 4 small corn tortillas (220)
Dinner - 793
- The last 4 Jack Daniels Ribs - 320
- The rest of the garlic parmesan shells that I made - 473
Daily total - 1,553
IDK if I'll eat dinner. It's 5:30PM right now and I'm still full from the lunch we ate around 1 PM. I'll need to cook something though for my husband so that he has something for lunch tomorrow and I may or may not eat some of it. I want to wake up tomorrow morning actually feeling hungry. I woke up this morning and Saturday morning feeling full and miserable still. I hate waking up feeling like that!
Update: I got a terrible idea to clean out the fridge around 9 PM and ended up eating the ribs and pasta from last week and threw everything else away since Monday is trash day. I packed myself the smallest pork chop that was left of the pork chop and potato dish I made last week for lunch tomorrow, but I really should have thrown that away too. I should have just thrown all of the damn leftovers out. Just about everything was over a week old anyway. UGH why did I do that to myself lol.
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TheHollowBones, on 15 May 2022 - 2:14 PM, said:
AND I still didn't touch the junk room LOL. I did manage to clean the entire house yesterday and go through all of the clothes I have in our outdoor shed. I have 5 trash bags full of off-season clothing and my closet was stuffed full of winter clothing. I took out all the winter stuff and went through all the summer stuff outside and tried on a lot of things that actually fit! That was really encouraging and it's a daunting task that I hate doing pretty much every year. Plus everything smells like moth/beetle killer and I have to re-wash everything every year which pisses me off lol. But I live in the south and there are a lot of creepy-crawlies so the last thing I want is to bust open one of those bags and see that my clothing has all been destroyed by freaking bugs. Thank you for saying that though! I know I probably won't gain too much but food/water weight still stresses me out when I weigh the next morning.
When I go on vacation and we go out to eat every day I always have the "salad for lunch, fish for dinner" rule. It can be fried fish if I'm feeling like it, but I always try to get a protein-packed salad for our lunches, dressing on the side. That way I know I'm not over-eating on vacation and then if we get ice cream or something I know I probably only ate 500 calories of lettuce and chicken lol. Regardless of how you feel about yourself, I'm sure it's a MUCH needed vacation and you'll still have fun! A month is still plenty of time to lose a good bit of weight so you feel a little better about yourself. I know how you feel, though. I can't stand wearing bathing suits and being on the beach and just feeling so exposed. An ultimate goal of mine is to always feel incredible in a bathing suit. Always has been!
Oh goodie! I know the feeling of being able to fit into things! I actually went through totes of clothes here recently and just donated almost all of it. I mean even if I do get down to smaller jeans/clothes I probably wouldn't wear that stuff anyways. Lol No reason to be keeping it. I live in the south too and bugs are definitely the worst. Thankfully we've been able to keep the clothes and stuff in the house. More or less just a giant stack of totes in our bedroom 2 deep and about 6 high, about 8 across. Most of it was baby stuff, my clothes and books. Donated a lot of the books to the library, kid clothes just got rid of, I can't imagine us having another one. It's just too expensive for a lesbian couple to have a baby. *First one was conceived at a drunken Halloween party while we were on a 6 month break up I'm bisexual and honestly barely remember that night truth be told - we never expected on getting back together but here we are nearly 7 years later - lots of other details but that's the short and sweet story.* I am curious as to where in the south you live. Lol If you feel like sharing. I live in North Alabama about 15 minutes from the Tennessee state line. If you don't feel like sharing I totally get it. Also even if you didn't do the junk room you got a TON of stuff done, bet you burned a lot of calories too lol
It is a much needed vacation, one that has been planned for nearly a year. I 100% had expected to lose all this weight but here I am, actually 15 lbs more than when we booked the condo. I could probably do a side salad but I don't like meat on my salads and truth be told I maybe eat meat once or twice a week and it's only ever chicken usually or canned tuna / frozen fish sticks. We're going to the beach but I hate seafood xD Like with a passion. I grew up on the Gulf Coast until I moved here when I was 19 and my mom fixed seafood meals most of the time *probably why it was so easy to get away with not eating growing up - go figure* Your tips are amazing though, just not for me. Lol I've actually never been to the beach for vacay since I always just lived there. I've never stayed in a condo or anything. We never went on vacations while I was growing up ever. So I didn't even go on my first vacation until 3 years ago we went to Gatlinburg, then we went again this last year. Thankfully in fall so I just bundled up and covered all this up. I actually decided to go with SPF long sleeve shirts for the beach, and then I just bought a two piece bathing suit for cheap that I'll wear under it. Bought the shirt bigger so it doesn't hug tight. Not an awful look for the beach. Tried it out in our pool and it isn't too smothering shockingly. <3
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L0LLIR0T, on 15 May 2022 - 5:09 PM, said:
Oh goodie! I know the feeling of being able to fit into things! I actually went through totes of clothes here recently and just donated almost all of it. I mean even if I do get down to smaller jeans/clothes I probably wouldn't wear that stuff anyways. Lol No reason to be keeping it. I live in the south too and bugs are definitely the worst. Thankfully we've been able to keep the clothes and stuff in the house. More or less just a giant stack of totes in our bedroom 2 deep and about 6 high, about 8 across. Most of it was baby stuff, my clothes and books. Donated a lot of the books to the library, kid clothes just got rid of, I can't imagine us having another one. It's just too expensive for a lesbian couple to have a baby. *First one was conceived at a drunken Halloween party while we were on a 6 month break up I'm bisexual and honestly barely remember that night truth be told - we never expected on getting back together but here we are nearly 7 years later - lots of other details but that's the short and sweet story.* I am curious as to where in the south you live. Lol If you feel like sharing. I live in North Alabama about 15 minutes from the Tennessee state line. If you don't feel like sharing I totally get it. Also even if you didn't do the junk room you got a TON of stuff done, bet you burned a lot of calories too lol
It is a much needed vacation, one that has been planned for nearly a year. I 100% had expected to lose all this weight but here I am, actually 15 lbs more than when we booked the condo. I could probably do a side salad but I don't like meat on my salads and truth be told I maybe eat meat once or twice a week and it's only ever chicken usually or canned tuna / frozen fish sticks. We're going to the beach but I hate seafood xD Like with a passion. I grew up on the Gulf Coast until I moved here when I was 19 and my mom fixed seafood meals most of the time *probably why it was so easy to get away with not eating growing up - go figure* Your tips are amazing though, just not for me. Lol I've actually never been to the beach for vacay since I always just lived there. I've never stayed in a condo or anything. We never went on vacations while I was growing up ever. So I didn't even go on my first vacation until 3 years ago we went to Gatlinburg, then we went again this last year. Thankfully in fall so I just bundled up and covered all this up. I actually decided to go with SPF long sleeve shirts for the beach, and then I just bought a two piece bathing suit for cheap that I'll wear under it. Bought the shirt bigger so it doesn't hug tight. Not an awful look for the beach. Tried it out in our pool and it isn't too smothering shockingly. <3
How about that!!! I live in Southeast Georgia so you're only a few hours away from me! Sounds like you had a LOT of stuff to go through too! I don't even know where all of these clothes came from over time lol. What beach are you guys going to?
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Posted Today, 10:16 AM
Monday, May 16, 2022
180.4 UGHHHH
I'm telling you, it's one step forwards and two steps back when I eat. I'm so ready to feel light again. I felt so gross and bloated and heavy this morning. WHY did I eat so much pasta before bed LOL. I knew better but I really didn't want to throw away that pasta because it turned out SO good.
Your average Monday today, though. I don't have much to say about work. It's been going by pretty quickly and it's already almost 2 PM. I'm just ready to go home and get my baby. Her little cough is getting really gross sounding despite me giving her cough syrup since Friday. I really don't want her to be hacking and coughing sick on her birthday 
it's like every time something big comes up she gets sick at that damn daycare! Like why do we not have a single break here??
I've been so busy at my desk job that I have barely even gotten 4,000 steps in today so far so I'm about to go into the warehouse and find something to do and try to at least get in a few thousand steps before I come back up to the office.
My lunch was so unsatisfying too, I would have been better off just not eating it. I ate about half of the pork chops and about 1/2 a cup of the potatoes, but I just didn't want to eat it so it wasn't good. I hate that feeling.
Breakfast - 157
- Protein coffee
Lunch - Estimating 240 but idk and idc really
- 1/2 a pork chop and 1/2 a cup or so of potatoes
Dinner - 472
- 1 cup of imitation crab and broccoli alfredo made with penne pasta is on the menu tonight (an idea I got on Tik Tok that looks good AF)
Daily total - 869
Having a lower restriction day today since I'm not planning to get in too many steps, but I'm sure once I get home I'll still probably hit my 10,000 step goal. I have a load of laundry from the clothes I went through that were in the outdoor shed that's still in the dryer from yesterday that I need to fold up before I cook dinner tonight.
I also don't plan on drinking this week until this weekend but it depends on how stressful my week ends up being I guess. Today has been full of little aggravating work tasks but I'm not stressed out. Yet. I just want to finish off the alcohol I have right now though because it's easier to not drink if I just simply don't have alcohol, but I also don't need to be getting myself plastered on week nights lol. We'll see. I might just have one drink and leave it at that, it eases my nerves and makes the rest of my night go by smoothly when I have a drink while I cook. I just get carried away when I drink vodka straight from the bottle. I've been pretty good about not doing that though lately and I'm glad that switch flipped because I'd be getting drunk in like 30 minutes for no reason and it's so hard to cook, clean, and take care of a baby when you're too inebriated lol. I never get to the point where like I can't take care of her at all, but it still makes me feel guilty when I'm a little too buzzed. It does make playing with the baby way more fun though before we put her to bed but totally not worth the headache the next morning.
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TheHollowBones, on 16 May 2022 - 09:47 AM, said:
How about that!!! I live in Southeast Georgia so you're only a few hours away from me! Sounds like you had a LOT of stuff to go through too! I don't even know where all of these clothes came from over time lol. What beach are you guys going to?
Haha that's crazy. I think the last person I enjoyed talking to was from Central Florida so apparently us southern people stick together? Lol
I've got so much to go through it's insane. But the wife just got her new building and the electric ran to it, so we will be going through it all and making huge progress. As we put it in the building we will be labeling thoroughly xD Our 5 year plan includes hopefully moving if the housing market would calm the hell down x_x we were supposed to be moving closer to her work but then between covid hitting and then the housing market blowing up, it's totally out of our budget when the house we are in, seems like a steal at this point mortgage wise. Haha clothes always multiply. We're going to Gulf shores. I've actually never been. I always stayed around Destin/Panama area since that's where I lived. No reason to drive to a new beach.
TheHollowBones, on 16 May 2022 - 10:16 AM, said:
Monday, May 16, 2022
180.4 UGHHHH
I'm telling you, it's one step forwards and two steps back when I eat. I'm so ready to feel light again. I felt so gross and bloated and heavy this morning. WHY did I eat so much pasta before bed LOL. I knew better but I really didn't want to throw away that pasta because it turned out SO good.
Your average Monday today, though. I don't have much to say about work. It's been going by pretty quickly and it's already almost 2 PM. I'm just ready to go home and get my baby. Her little cough is getting really gross sounding despite me giving her cough syrup since Friday. I really don't want her to be hacking and coughing sick on her birthday
I've been so busy at my desk job that I have barely even gotten 4,000 steps in today so far so I'm about to go into the warehouse and find something to do and try to at least get in a few thousand steps before I come back up to the office.
My lunch was so unsatisfying too, I would have been better off just not eating it. I ate about half of the pork chops and about 1/2 a cup of the potatoes, but I just didn't want to eat it so it wasn't good. I hate that feeling.
Breakfast - 157
- Protein coffee
Lunch - Estimating 240 but idk and idc really
- 1/2 a pork chop and 1/2 a cup or so of potatoes
Dinner - 472
- 1 cup of imitation crab and broccoli alfredo made with penne pasta is on the menu tonight (an idea I got on Tik Tok that looks good AF)
Daily total - 869
Having a lower restriction day today since I'm not planning to get in too many steps, but I'm sure once I get home I'll still probably hit my 10,000 step goal. I have a load of laundry from the clothes I went through that were in the outdoor shed that's still in the dryer from yesterday that I need to fold up before I cook dinner tonight.
I also don't plan on drinking this week until this weekend but it depends on how stressful my week ends up being I guess. Today has been full of little aggravating work tasks but I'm not stressed out. Yet. I just want to finish off the alcohol I have right now though because it's easier to not drink if I just simply don't have alcohol, but I also don't need to be getting myself plastered on week nights lol. We'll see. I might just have one drink and leave it at that, it eases my nerves and makes the rest of my night go by smoothly when I have a drink while I cook. I just get carried away when I drink vodka straight from the bottle. I've been pretty good about not doing that though lately and I'm glad that switch flipped because I'd be getting drunk in like 30 minutes for no reason and it's so hard to cook, clean, and take care of a baby when you're too inebriated lol. I never get to the point where like I can't take care of her at all, but it still makes me feel guilty when I'm a little too buzzed. It does make playing with the baby way more fun though before we put her to bed but totally not worth the headache the next morning.
I drink when I cook too. Lol I started drinking a couple beers on the night I cook and 100% agree it makes being a parent easier. I've started taking CBD gummies to deal with my anxiety and my goodness it's helped loads.
You'll be back at the LW before you know it. <3
I hate that the little one has a cough. Mine has had a snotty nose I swear since starting school in Pre-K. Between whatever goes around school and then sinuses lol Most likely you're kid wont be as sick when school starts. Mine didn't go to daycare or anything so once Pre-K started I mean he missed most of it because he was constantly sick with some sort of head cold, chest cold, stomach bug etc. But he's leveled off since then, so there is a silver lining lol it does get better 
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