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Posted 27 May 2022 - 06:44 AM
- 27 MAY 2022 -
WEIGHT
CW: 74.5 KG | 164 LBS
TL: -10.5 KG | -23 LBS
BMI: 24.3
INTAKE
Black coffee
Coke zero
Sweet potato burrito (367)
35g Baklava (134)
Total: 501
THOUGHTS
15:44 - The fast continues. Currently on hour 44. I've had two talks about my weight today. First my boyfriend mentioned I had lost a lot of weight and asked when I'm going to be done dieting. I told him idk and asked when he thought I should. He said "70kg is a healthy weight right?" to which I agreed. I told him the honest truth that I'm unsure about quitting. He doesn't know about my disordered eating which is why he didn't notice I'm fasting. But I'm sure I must look different today cause of dehydration or something. He told me I look perfect the way I am right now but he understands if I have my own body preference.
The second talk was more uncomfortable. I got a ride from both my parents and my step dad brought up my weight again saying I lost a lot. My mom agreed. I tried to spin it so that I'm really into walking recently and showed them my fitbit but I don't know if they bought that. They looked concerned. They brought me baklava as a gift. I'm not ready to break the fast yet, but now I know what I'll eat at the end of this.
15:49 - I should mention that I have reached my second goal weight of 75 kg. I'm 10 kg down. Which is fantastic, don't get me wrong! It's just not even close to my UGW so it's concerning how many people are noticing already.... I wish I could flip a switch in my brain and just decide to maintain for 6 months. That way people will get used to my new weight as my normal weight so it won't look as bad when I start losing again. Should I work out and increase my intake? Should I start lifting weights? I feel so lost right now. The only goal I know is keep losing.
16:23 - Something I forgot to mention is that 75kg was my original SW back in 2015. Just a fun fact.
19:26 - In a few minutes I have fasted 48 hours and I will end it then. It was a short and easy fast and I feel a lot better now mentally and physically somehow.
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