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Posted Yesterday, 10:10 PM
Weight: 91 lbs 
Going back down but not quickly enough.
Calories total today: 785
-Morning: Nothing
-Afternoon: Lemin Blue Raspberry Lemonade (15 cals) + Lemon Cake Quest protein bar (170 cals)
-Evening: Tom Yum ramen noodle soup bowl (360 cals) + 2 tbsp coconut cream (60 cals) + Baby shrimp (60 cals) + Thai basil (5 cals) + Green onions (5 cals) + Toasted seaweed snack (30 cals) + Soft boiled egg (70 cals) + Mountain Dew Spark Zero Sugar (0 cals)
Extra: Peach Konjac Jelly for “dessert” (10 cals)
Exercise: 30 min treadmill
My weight is finally starting to get back down just in time for me to FUCK EVERYTHING UP this weekend when I’ll have to go to multiple social events. I’m pissed off and stressed out at the same time, but these happen to be things I’d feel really terrible for trying to get out of. Like, there’s a get-together that my best friend’s mom organized because it’s both her birthday and the 10 year anniversary of her death (1 week apart.) Her mom and I are still close, she officiated my wedding, so I really feel like I need to go and support her. I also feel like it’s the least I can do because I still carry a lot of guilt for being a crappy friend toward the end of her life… I was so wrapped up in my own mental health issues and ED that I wasn’t there for her in the ways I should have been while she was dying. I need to go because she deserves that much from me.
The day after that my husband’s friend from work is having a birthday thing, which he personally invited me to. My husband wants us to go and his work friends are cool and always trying to include me in things so I feel kind of obligated. But I tbh all I want to do is stay home and restrict for a month straight so I can be alone with my ED and get down to 75 lbs. I’m not even back down to where I was plateauing forever before increasing my intake.
Selfie dump (from a few weeks ago bc that was the last time I actually bothered to put effort into my appearance)
Going back down but not quickly enough.Calories total today: 785
-Morning: Nothing
-Afternoon: Lemin Blue Raspberry Lemonade (15 cals) + Lemon Cake Quest protein bar (170 cals)
-Evening: Tom Yum ramen noodle soup bowl (360 cals) + 2 tbsp coconut cream (60 cals) + Baby shrimp (60 cals) + Thai basil (5 cals) + Green onions (5 cals) + Toasted seaweed snack (30 cals) + Soft boiled egg (70 cals) + Mountain Dew Spark Zero Sugar (0 cals)
Extra: Peach Konjac Jelly for “dessert” (10 cals)
Exercise: 30 min treadmill
My weight is finally starting to get back down just in time for me to FUCK EVERYTHING UP this weekend when I’ll have to go to multiple social events. I’m pissed off and stressed out at the same time, but these happen to be things I’d feel really terrible for trying to get out of. Like, there’s a get-together that my best friend’s mom organized because it’s both her birthday and the 10 year anniversary of her death (1 week apart.) Her mom and I are still close, she officiated my wedding, so I really feel like I need to go and support her. I also feel like it’s the least I can do because I still carry a lot of guilt for being a crappy friend toward the end of her life… I was so wrapped up in my own mental health issues and ED that I wasn’t there for her in the ways I should have been while she was dying. I need to go because she deserves that much from me.
The day after that my husband’s friend from work is having a birthday thing, which he personally invited me to. My husband wants us to go and his work friends are cool and always trying to include me in things so I feel kind of obligated. But I tbh all I want to do is stay home and restrict for a month straight so I can be alone with my ED and get down to 75 lbs. I’m not even back down to where I was plateauing forever before increasing my intake.
Selfie dump (from a few weeks ago bc that was the last time I actually bothered to put effort into my appearance)
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Posted Yesterday, 11:14 PM
I know slow weight loss is endlessly frustrating... been there. One time I spent an entire 2 months just fluctuating from 88lbs to 90lbs no matter what I did for some fucking reason. It was the worst thing ever. It happened again at 77lbs, where I'd go from 77 to 79 over and over again in an endless loop, this time for 4 months, despite knowing I was definitely restricting. But, both times I got put of the plateaus having lost 5lbs seemingly overnight, magically, so I promise this won't last forever. Consistency will get you where you want to be. Weight loss just becomes so much more painfully slow when you're underweight, and being short and having a lower TDEE anyway makes it so much worse. I promise your body or metabolism isn't abnormally broken, because I'm pretty sure this is something every anorexic goes through... that's why we feel cold and get all those symptoms. But it's literally impossible to stop losing weight on less than 1000kcal, and it will happen! Hugs
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