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Posted 23 May 2022 - 03:28 PM
Had 3 little pieces of garlic bread , 1 piece of chocolate and a tiny bit pasta at school
Update
More chocolate bc blood sugar and some pasta
I got stoned with my mate and I've never smoked it before despite the other shit I've done, yeah it's pretty good not bad. But tbh I already have this slight effect naturally from purging but still cool I feel heavy n giggly, it's like lyricq a bit
B/ped and a handful of cereal
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✧˚₊‧ Kez | 16 | ENTP ‧₊˚✧
I like listening to music, writing and fashion
diagnosed anbp, e-bpd, c-ptsd, adhd
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153cm
HW: 53kg, bmi 23 (11/20)
CW: Low 14's
waist: 20 inches
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Not sure what I want atm,
I'm still doing disordered things
out of habit and fear. thats all
i know. not ready to recover but
seems fun, but not yet, i dunno.
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Posted 24 May 2022 - 07:26 AM
I need to recover from my ed. I'm gonna do like,,, semi recovery so I can stop bp a bit and stop losing too. If I gain its OK I guess. But I want to stay underweight.
Handful of cereal
Little spoonfull of jambalaya at school and 2 pieces of fudge
Melon and pineapple
Tuna on toast
I know that's not what I said yesterday but ugh I can't live like this
uh oh changed my mind on semi recovery already
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✧˚₊‧ Kez | 16 | ENTP ‧₊˚✧
I like listening to music, writing and fashion
diagnosed anbp, e-bpd, c-ptsd, adhd
╭────── stats · · · · · ♡
153cm
HW: 53kg, bmi 23 (11/20)
CW: Low 14's
waist: 20 inches
╰━━━━━ ☆ ━━━━━╯
Not sure what I want atm,
I'm still doing disordered things
out of habit and fear. thats all
i know. not ready to recover but
seems fun, but not yet, i dunno.
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Posted 24 May 2022 - 08:42 AM
i feel so stuck w my ed like,, i dont want this but i really do.
like i want to have this persona of being strong, confident, attractive, etc yk just maintaining a toned bmi 16 or something. but then on the other hand i feel so comforted by my ed so i want to go lower and lower because this is what makes me happy and this is who i am. i dont want people to think less of me for being too thin, but then i want people to notice as well to validate my ed lol. i hate this. like theres the rational side of me that says no, this is dumb, this isnt achieving anything, be normal. theres the ed side thats like, fuck off, have fun, bp, lose weight. i dont know.
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✧˚₊‧ Kez | 16 | ENTP ‧₊˚✧
I like listening to music, writing and fashion
diagnosed anbp, e-bpd, c-ptsd, adhd
╭────── stats · · · · · ♡
153cm
HW: 53kg, bmi 23 (11/20)
CW: Low 14's
waist: 20 inches
╰━━━━━ ☆ ━━━━━╯
Not sure what I want atm,
I'm still doing disordered things
out of habit and fear. thats all
i know. not ready to recover but
seems fun, but not yet, i dunno.
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Posted 25 May 2022 - 05:43 PM
damn
ive bped 6 times today
✧˚₊‧ Kez | 16 | ENTP ‧₊˚✧
I like listening to music, writing and fashion
diagnosed anbp, e-bpd, c-ptsd, adhd
╭────── stats · · · · · ♡
153cm
HW: 53kg, bmi 23 (11/20)
CW: Low 14's
waist: 20 inches
╰━━━━━ ☆ ━━━━━╯
Not sure what I want atm,
I'm still doing disordered things
out of habit and fear. thats all
i know. not ready to recover but
seems fun, but not yet, i dunno.
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Posted Yesterday, 03:50 PM
240 quid a monnnnnthhhhhh yess mate, I'll have some for binge food which is very expensive and maybe some for weed cuz I'm allowed to smoke it but I won't do loads. I might save a little on the side as emergency money too hmm
I took home like half the trifle and bped it as well lol
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✧˚₊‧ Kez | 16 | ENTP ‧₊˚✧
I like listening to music, writing and fashion
diagnosed anbp, e-bpd, c-ptsd, adhd
╭────── stats · · · · · ♡
153cm
HW: 53kg, bmi 23 (11/20)
CW: Low 14's
waist: 20 inches
╰━━━━━ ☆ ━━━━━╯
Not sure what I want atm,
I'm still doing disordered things
out of habit and fear. thats all
i know. not ready to recover but
seems fun, but not yet, i dunno.
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Posted Yesterday, 10:47 PM
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Stats, Goals, and Dragons
I have dragons and dragon eggs! Click them to help them grow up 
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Stats
Height: 5'5.5" / 65.5in / 166cm
HW: 157lbs / 71kg / BMI 25.7
LW: 145lbs / 65kg / BMI 23.8
CW: 146lbs / 66kg / BMI 23.9
Goals
SW: 149lbs / 67kg / BMI 24.4
GW1: 145lbs / 65kg / BMI 23.8
GW2: 140lbs / 63kg / BMI 22.9
GW3: 135lbs / 61kg / BMI 22.1
GW4: 130lbs / 59kg / BMI 21.3
GW5: 125lbs / 56kg / BMI 20.5
GW6: 120lbs / 54kg / BMI 19.7
GW7: 115lbs / 52kg / BMI 18.8
GW8: 110lbs / 49kg / BMI 18.0
UGW: 105lbs / 47kg / BMI 17.2
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Posted Today, 06:18 AM
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Posted Today, 08:23 AM
iscarewhitepeople, on 26 May 2022 - 5:39 PM, said:
omg, congratulations! so happy for you x
SadSun, on 26 May 2022 - 10:47 PM, said:
Yooo congrats!!!
StarvingLlama*-*, on 27 May 2022 - 06:18 AM, said:
Yay that's awesome congrats on getting the job
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Thank you!! im looking forward to starting it, i think itll be quite enjoyable honestly
✧˚₊‧ Kez | 16 | ENTP ‧₊˚✧
I like listening to music, writing and fashion
diagnosed anbp, e-bpd, c-ptsd, adhd
╭────── stats · · · · · ♡
153cm
HW: 53kg, bmi 23 (11/20)
CW: Low 14's
waist: 20 inches
╰━━━━━ ☆ ━━━━━╯
Not sure what I want atm,
I'm still doing disordered things
out of habit and fear. thats all
i know. not ready to recover but
seems fun, but not yet, i dunno.
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Posted Today, 02:17 PM
convo with my mate on sc that i cant screenshot because thatd look bad
"do you think im fat"
"no youre clearly slim, do i?"
"im not even saying this right, youre scarily thin. i saw you and i was shocked"
"oh what really? i didnt think i was that skinny"
"really, you look 6"
"tbh i dont eat properly but i didnt think people could tell"
"its really obvious and if you lose anymore weight youll die"
i dont even know how to feel, i thought i always wanted this and i am very happy about it. thank god, shits paying off. but now i feel a bit offended i dont wanna look 6 years old. i dont understand why only now people are noticing my weight loss, im barely losing at the moment. am i bad for taking what she said positively? probably. am i still gonna gas myself up? yeah
✧˚₊‧ Kez | 16 | ENTP ‧₊˚✧
I like listening to music, writing and fashion
diagnosed anbp, e-bpd, c-ptsd, adhd
╭────── stats · · · · · ♡
153cm
HW: 53kg, bmi 23 (11/20)
CW: Low 14's
waist: 20 inches
╰━━━━━ ☆ ━━━━━╯
Not sure what I want atm,
I'm still doing disordered things
out of habit and fear. thats all
i know. not ready to recover but
seems fun, but not yet, i dunno.
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