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Today: 16 May 2022
Weight: n/a
Steps: 10,621
Intake: 954 (kept down)
TDEE: 1645 (@9:50pm, will update)
Net: -691
Days without b/p: 0
Personal Best b/p free days: 5
(TDEE as per Samsung watch)
Stats as at 20-Apr 2022
Height: 5'10
Weight: 122.5 lbs / 55.51 kg / BMI 17.56
Goal: 115.0 lbs / 52.15 kg / BMI 16.50
Tracking:
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I don't think I've mentioned this yet but I have a new colleague - she's very clearly disordered; keeps talking about food and sneering at my snacks I keep at work. Openly complains about food others have, keeps talking about having joined the gym. Also her Facebook is public and full of bodychecks. I feel extremely watched at work with her commenting so much on what I'm eating. She said something like "I thought I snacked a lot but you eat way more than me," and "I don't eat anything /that/ processed," and "I can't believe you finished that," and just, so much more but imagine every day full of that kind of crap. I'm skinnier than her, I know that, but she's very quickly gone and made being at work extremely difficult. She 'never eats at work like I do' and 'hates eating that much' and honestly she can fuck off with all her comments about my food. But also ~~~ I was triggered as hell~~~
So yeah I had breakfast to try and help with the daytime snacking to get less comments today but yeah it didn't help. So snacking happened anyway.
Breakfast was a bowl of overnight oats I made last night - 30g kialla cacao overnight oats with psyllium husks, forme yoghurt, chocolate protein powder and sweetened PB2 to top. Also a black coffee.
Through the workday I had an avalanche sugar free toffee drink mix, an instant coffee, two Konjac jelly pouches, a macro mike white chocolate and berry protein shake, a Musashi energy drink, and an Atkins protein drink. Also two squares of dream white chocolate (colleague brought chocolate in and I'm a freaking disaster). 481 calories in total. Goddamn and that was occasionally my entire day intake what the hell.
I got home, binged in front of my SO, threw up.
Then inexplicably ate a protein bar. 214 calorie chocolate caramel INC bar.
I need to just freaking weigh myself and use that as my humiliating kick to get a grip. I bet it's bad. I bet it's out of control. Then I can put it up here and shame myself.
Maybe I'll do it tomorrow morning.
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Weight: n/a
Steps: 10,621
Intake: 954 (kept down)
TDEE: 1645 (@9:50pm, will update)
Net: -691
Days without b/p: 0
Personal Best b/p free days: 5
(TDEE as per Samsung watch)
Stats as at 20-Apr 2022
Height: 5'10
Weight: 122.5 lbs / 55.51 kg / BMI 17.56
Goal: 115.0 lbs / 52.15 kg / BMI 16.50
Tracking:
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April 2022
20-Apr - 122.5 lbs / 55.51 kg / BMI 17.56
15-Apr - 122.6 lbs / 55.60 kg / BMI 17.59
08-Apr - 124.4 lbs / 56.42 kg / BMI 17.85
02-Apr - 123.8 lbs / 56.14 kg / BMI 17.76
01-Apr - 124.4 lbs / 56.42 kg / BMI 17.85
March 2022
30-Mar - 124.4 lbs / 56.42 kg / BMI 17.85
29-Mar - 125.6 lbs / 56.96 kg / BMI 18.02
17-Mar - 127.6 lbs / 57.87 kg / BMI 18.31
02-Mar - 129.0 lbs / 59.50 kg / BMI 18.52
20-Apr - 122.5 lbs / 55.51 kg / BMI 17.56
15-Apr - 122.6 lbs / 55.60 kg / BMI 17.59
08-Apr - 124.4 lbs / 56.42 kg / BMI 17.85
02-Apr - 123.8 lbs / 56.14 kg / BMI 17.76
01-Apr - 124.4 lbs / 56.42 kg / BMI 17.85
March 2022
30-Mar - 124.4 lbs / 56.42 kg / BMI 17.85
29-Mar - 125.6 lbs / 56.96 kg / BMI 18.02
17-Mar - 127.6 lbs / 57.87 kg / BMI 18.31
02-Mar - 129.0 lbs / 59.50 kg / BMI 18.52
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I don't think I've mentioned this yet but I have a new colleague - she's very clearly disordered; keeps talking about food and sneering at my snacks I keep at work. Openly complains about food others have, keeps talking about having joined the gym. Also her Facebook is public and full of bodychecks. I feel extremely watched at work with her commenting so much on what I'm eating. She said something like "I thought I snacked a lot but you eat way more than me," and "I don't eat anything /that/ processed," and "I can't believe you finished that," and just, so much more but imagine every day full of that kind of crap. I'm skinnier than her, I know that, but she's very quickly gone and made being at work extremely difficult. She 'never eats at work like I do' and 'hates eating that much' and honestly she can fuck off with all her comments about my food. But also ~~~ I was triggered as hell~~~
So yeah I had breakfast to try and help with the daytime snacking to get less comments today but yeah it didn't help. So snacking happened anyway.
Breakfast was a bowl of overnight oats I made last night - 30g kialla cacao overnight oats with psyllium husks, forme yoghurt, chocolate protein powder and sweetened PB2 to top. Also a black coffee.
Through the workday I had an avalanche sugar free toffee drink mix, an instant coffee, two Konjac jelly pouches, a macro mike white chocolate and berry protein shake, a Musashi energy drink, and an Atkins protein drink. Also two squares of dream white chocolate (colleague brought chocolate in and I'm a freaking disaster). 481 calories in total. Goddamn and that was occasionally my entire day intake what the hell.
I got home, binged in front of my SO, threw up.
Then inexplicably ate a protein bar. 214 calorie chocolate caramel INC bar.
I need to just freaking weigh myself and use that as my humiliating kick to get a grip. I bet it's bad. I bet it's out of control. Then I can put it up here and shame myself.
Maybe I'll do it tomorrow morning.
♡
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Stats as at 20 April 2022
122.5 lbs / 55.51 kg / BMI 17.56
Height: 5'10
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Tracking:
April 2022
Spoiler
20-Apr - 122.5 lbs / 55.51 kg / BMI 17.56
15-Apr - 122.6 lbs / 55.60 kg / BMI 17.59
08-Apr - 124.4 lbs / 56.42 kg / BMI 17.85
02-Apr - 123.8 lbs / 56.14 kg / BMI 17.76
01-Apr - 124.4 lbs / 56.42 kg / BMI 17.85
15-Apr - 122.6 lbs / 55.60 kg / BMI 17.59
08-Apr - 124.4 lbs / 56.42 kg / BMI 17.85
02-Apr - 123.8 lbs / 56.14 kg / BMI 17.76
01-Apr - 124.4 lbs / 56.42 kg / BMI 17.85
March 2022
Spoiler
30-Mar - 124.4 lbs / 56.42 kg / BMI 17.85
29-Mar - 125.6 lbs / 56.96 kg / BMI 18.02
17-Mar - 127.6 lbs / 57.87 kg / BMI 18.31
02-Mar - 129.0 lbs / 59.50 kg / BMI 18.52
29-Mar - 125.6 lbs / 56.96 kg / BMI 18.02
17-Mar - 127.6 lbs / 57.87 kg / BMI 18.31
02-Mar - 129.0 lbs / 59.50 kg / BMI 18.52
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What are you thinking?
How are you feeling?
What have we done to each other?
What will we do?
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