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Posted Yesterday, 05:14 AM
13th May 2022:
weigh in: 162.4lbs (did weigh myself later at 12 n it said 162.2lbs wooo but i wont count it lmao)
intake: 699
in a rlly good mood today! weather is beautiful n i plan to get my references done for my assignment today
)
lunch was soup, a matzo cracker with ham on, carrots n a small orange (345) n dinner was the usual soy burger etc but had burger sauce today instead of bbq was 354 cals altogether.
heading to a pals in about an hour to hang out, im tired n would rather stay in bed but i should be social
they will probs drink n smoke some weed but i 1) dont drink n 2) too scared to smoke since this relapse bc im worried i’ll get the munchies :’)
just booked flights to go on holiday with my friend. i am so excited but also so god damn terrified because of the food and unknown calories. i wont be able to keep up 800 as we will be eating out so often. we are going for 7 days. 7 days of not only holiday eating but ITALIAN holiday eating. i guess i can opt for salads and fish etc but im god damn terrified as ik how much oil is used and how there will be no way of knowing calories. im so scared. 2 days will be travel so i can eat a minimal amount. 5 days will be full eating. i know a weeks worth of normal eating wont destroy my progress, and in that week id lose a max of 3lbs anyway, more likely 2.5-2.7ish. and i know eating a normal amount of food for 5 days isnt gonna make me gain actual weight, but it is so scary. i guess i will have to deal with it when it comes and tolerate the fact that i will gain a bunch of food weight.
ootd part 1 - just a lil outfit i put together with the new clothes i bought. giving up on privacy etc lmao
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weigh in: 162.4lbs (did weigh myself later at 12 n it said 162.2lbs wooo but i wont count it lmao)
intake: 699
in a rlly good mood today! weather is beautiful n i plan to get my references done for my assignment today
)lunch was soup, a matzo cracker with ham on, carrots n a small orange (345) n dinner was the usual soy burger etc but had burger sauce today instead of bbq was 354 cals altogether.
heading to a pals in about an hour to hang out, im tired n would rather stay in bed but i should be social
they will probs drink n smoke some weed but i 1) dont drink n 2) too scared to smoke since this relapse bc im worried i’ll get the munchies :’)just booked flights to go on holiday with my friend. i am so excited but also so god damn terrified because of the food and unknown calories. i wont be able to keep up 800 as we will be eating out so often. we are going for 7 days. 7 days of not only holiday eating but ITALIAN holiday eating. i guess i can opt for salads and fish etc but im god damn terrified as ik how much oil is used and how there will be no way of knowing calories. im so scared. 2 days will be travel so i can eat a minimal amount. 5 days will be full eating. i know a weeks worth of normal eating wont destroy my progress, and in that week id lose a max of 3lbs anyway, more likely 2.5-2.7ish. and i know eating a normal amount of food for 5 days isnt gonna make me gain actual weight, but it is so scary. i guess i will have to deal with it when it comes and tolerate the fact that i will gain a bunch of food weight.
ootd part 1 - just a lil outfit i put together with the new clothes i bought. giving up on privacy etc lmao
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Posted Today, 04:00 AM
14th May 2022:
weigh in: 162.5lbs. up 0.1lbs which is annoying but sometimes it be that way. i had 699 cals yday and my tdee was good so i should just end up seeing a bigger drop tomorrow!
intake:
having a chill day today. im supposed to be going to see a friend in a city nearby tomorrow n we are going to this meet, we are both into kink lol and its just a meet in the park but ik there will be littles there n no one is allowed to wear anything or act in any way that is obvious but ppl will be bringing stuffies n colouring etc and im extremely uncomfortable with the fact that it is in public n like regardless of what ppl are wearing or how theyre behaving thats just extremely sus and i domt think it’s appropriate to expose the public to it in a park on a sunday lmao when it will be packed. so im playing it out like i feel grim today n so might not make it. i just feel guilty not going but also i will not enjoy myself bc i will be uncomfortable. like if it was just a couple of us then id be like cool but when its 10+ ppl its too sus for my liking lmao
okay i let her know im not feelin fab and she was so okay with it now i feel bad for bullshitting :’)))
had 798 cals in total today - just the usual stuff. holiday accommodation is booked now too n im actually really excited. me m my pal said we wanna cook most of our meals and only go out maybe 3-4 times for a meal maybe even less so i feel SO much better bc we are gonna do a big grocery shop n ik he eats healthily and also us cooking our own food means there will be no ridiculous hidden cals so i can have control over what we are eating. so i shouldnt gain too much. like breakfasts will be scrambled eggs, avocado on toast (avo is a fear food of mine bc cals but i also need to remind myself its healthy), fruit etc. lunches will be pasta with seafood etc same with dinner probs like salmon with rice etc, i’ll probs get some soup in n stuff. he does really good portions also so i know it wont be huge amounts. im just terrified a week of eating normally will lead me wanna binge/make me super hungry but after a week it will be over. i am just gonna try and listen to my body and stop eating when im full etc to not expand my stomach etc
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weigh in: 162.5lbs. up 0.1lbs which is annoying but sometimes it be that way. i had 699 cals yday and my tdee was good so i should just end up seeing a bigger drop tomorrow!
intake:
having a chill day today. im supposed to be going to see a friend in a city nearby tomorrow n we are going to this meet, we are both into kink lol and its just a meet in the park but ik there will be littles there n no one is allowed to wear anything or act in any way that is obvious but ppl will be bringing stuffies n colouring etc and im extremely uncomfortable with the fact that it is in public n like regardless of what ppl are wearing or how theyre behaving thats just extremely sus and i domt think it’s appropriate to expose the public to it in a park on a sunday lmao when it will be packed. so im playing it out like i feel grim today n so might not make it. i just feel guilty not going but also i will not enjoy myself bc i will be uncomfortable. like if it was just a couple of us then id be like cool but when its 10+ ppl its too sus for my liking lmao
okay i let her know im not feelin fab and she was so okay with it now i feel bad for bullshitting :’)))
had 798 cals in total today - just the usual stuff. holiday accommodation is booked now too n im actually really excited. me m my pal said we wanna cook most of our meals and only go out maybe 3-4 times for a meal maybe even less so i feel SO much better bc we are gonna do a big grocery shop n ik he eats healthily and also us cooking our own food means there will be no ridiculous hidden cals so i can have control over what we are eating. so i shouldnt gain too much. like breakfasts will be scrambled eggs, avocado on toast (avo is a fear food of mine bc cals but i also need to remind myself its healthy), fruit etc. lunches will be pasta with seafood etc same with dinner probs like salmon with rice etc, i’ll probs get some soup in n stuff. he does really good portions also so i know it wont be huge amounts. im just terrified a week of eating normally will lead me wanna binge/make me super hungry but after a week it will be over. i am just gonna try and listen to my body and stop eating when im full etc to not expand my stomach etc
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