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Posted 05 May 2022 - 10:54 AM
tilldeath, on 05 May 2022 - 10:21 AM, said:
this is a super interesting diet plan! following - good luck my lovely!
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Like good interesting or odd interesting? Haha
I just feel like it might work better for me than like a HSGD, ABC Diet or something which exact numbers listed. For some reason I've always struggled with wanting to get that exact number, And if I go over it gives me this crazy sense of defeat no matter how little I go over. Kind of gives me a little wiggle room to move at my own pace but at a constant pace.
Thank you so much ^-^
Hope you have a great day!
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Posted 05 May 2022 - 11:38 AM
tilldeath, on 05 May 2022 - 11:32 AM, said:
good interesting! it is a nice way to mix it up and also not immediately plunge into restriction which may end up with you binging. i do 800 cals a day and it gets bloody boring after a while of eating the same things every day hahaha. and yes defo great to stick to your own pace instead of some random diet online that i find most people can never stick to
looking forward to seeing how you find it!
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Lol that's the idea. I've done a restrict and then binge cycle for the better part of 4 years.
I've used to tweek the other online diets to like a range like instead of it being 400 it would be 400-500 that day. It helped a lot too in the past. I have found that I do better with gradual changes now, where as when I was younger I could just be like "yup not eating except xyz today" and it wasn't a problem. Truth be told I like eating the same things every day. At least for awhile. I makes me more relaxed mentally when I know what I"m eating, when it's all planned and figured out. I am notorious for getting on "a kick" of a certain food and literally then eating it basically solely for weeks/months until I burn myself out on it.
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Posted 05 May 2022 - 11:47 AM
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So I feel the need to place this in my thread as it feels important to me.
I just made a homemade Egg McMuffin (but without the Canadian bacon, not a huge meat eater, so just egg/cheese/butter/english muffin)
and it's not very often I find something that is just absolutely worth whatever calories it was. But today, in this moment that breakfast sandwich was worth it. (150 + 50 + 80 + 50 = 330 total; round it up to 350 - cause my brain always rounds up) Especially when some of the english muffin gets a little too toasted or "burnt" as my spouse would say. I call it char and it is my favorite bite of my breakfast sandwich.
I love it when I take the time to make food pretty and perfect. It just seems like it's so much more satisfying than just a binge haul from the cabinet of whatever I can get my hands on. ** To myself - keep this in mind. **
Please excuse the foodie part of myself. Being a foodie my whole life with an ED has been horrifying. I mean ultimate life goal would be to have my own food truck.
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Posted 06 May 2022 - 10:47 AM
Love this, definitely following. Seems like a good plan!
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L0LLIR0T, on 05 May 2022 - 11:47 AM, said:
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So I feel the need to place this in my thread as it feels important to me.
I just made a homemade Egg McMuffin (but without the Canadian bacon, not a huge meat eater, so just egg/cheese/butter/english muffin)
and it's not very often I find something that is just absolutely worth whatever calories it was. But today, in this moment that breakfast sandwich was worth it. (150 + 50 + 80 + 50 = 330 total; round it up to 350 - cause my brain always rounds up) Especially when some of the english muffin gets a little too toasted or "burnt" as my spouse would say. I call it char and it is my favorite bite of my breakfast sandwich.
I love it when I take the time to make food pretty and perfect. It just seems like it's so much more satisfying than just a binge haul from the cabinet of whatever I can get my hands on. ** To myself - keep this in mind. **
Please excuse the foodie part of myself. Being a foodie my whole life with an ED has been horrifying. I mean ultimate life goal would be to have my own food truck.
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Egg McMuffins are SO good, I wish they were lower calorie, when I was on third shift I had them for dinner all the time. I'm a foodie myself! I haven't been able to indulge in my habits as much, sadly, but I love cooking and finding new flavors.
Best of luck on your journey! I'll definitely be following along, I'm already inspired to start making my own food again. I can only be getting takeout for so long, haha.
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Posted 09 May 2022 - 09:08 AM
something_of_an_aimless, on 06 May 2022 - 1:32 PM, said:
Egg McMuffins are SO good, I wish they were lower calorie, when I was on third shift I had them for dinner all the time. I'm a foodie myself! I haven't been able to indulge in my habits as much, sadly, but I love cooking and finding new flavors.
Best of luck on your journey! I'll definitely be following along, I'm already inspired to start making my own food again. I can only be getting takeout for so long, haha.
I agree, I totally wish they were less calories. But I mean even though 330-350 is a high number, some days it's just worth the dopamine/serotonin that we get from some things. Moderation is what I'm trying to key into lol I mean like once a week wouldn't be bad. Keeps binges at bay most of the time.
It's amazing to find another foodie on here. I think I've met some on prior times on here or other websites but it's far and few in between. lol
I'm glad you're following a long, hope the journey is a good one haha, not too much spirals.
I'm not huge on take out, I'm weird about not knowing EXACTLY what is in my food like that. Calories listed or not, It's so hard to trust stuff like that. I think that's why I always round up.
This past weekend I made a copy cat version of KFC (with my homemade fried chicken) and I've come across a gravy copy cat that about is the same... pretty sure that was the worst thing I could of done. lol
If you mix the packet of chicken gravy, and the packet of brown gravy together (just cheap store brand kinds) it's EXTREMELY close.
Like probably going to be making those loaded mashed potato bowls that KFC use to sell. I absolutely love making copy cat foods. It's the challenge of it I think. Lol
Such as taco bell fiesta potatoes (when those got taken off the menu) and then the chicken quesadilla, and crunchwrap.
I'm trying my luck at a homemade chalupa soon, and possibly homemade english muffins.
Cooking, and flavors is just such a joy for me, that even if I only cook one good meal like that a week, it's worth it calorie wise. It brings so much happiness and of course, moderation is the key here. Lol
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TheHollowBones, on 06 May 2022 - 10:47 AM, said:
Love this, definitely following. Seems like a good plan!
Thank you! I'm really hoping it works out as well as it looks like it does planned out. xD
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L0LLIR0T, on 09 May 2022 - 09:08 AM, said:
I agree, I totally wish they were less calories. But I mean even though 330-350 is a high number, some days it's just worth the dopamine/serotonin that we get from some things. Moderation is what I'm trying to key into lol I mean like once a week wouldn't be bad. Keeps binges at bay most of the time.
It's amazing to find another foodie on here. I think I've met some on prior times on here or other websites but it's far and few in between. lol
I'm glad you're following a long, hope the journey is a good one haha, not too much spirals.
I'm not huge on take out, I'm weird about not knowing EXACTLY what is in my food like that. Calories listed or not, It's so hard to trust stuff like that. I think that's why I always round up.
This past weekend I made a copy cat version of KFC (with my homemade fried chicken) and I've come across a gravy copy cat that about is the same... pretty sure that was the worst thing I could of done. lol
If you mix the packet of chicken gravy, and the packet of brown gravy together (just cheap store brand kinds) it's EXTREMELY close.
Like probably going to be making those loaded mashed potato bowls that KFC use to sell. I absolutely love making copy cat foods. It's the challenge of it I think. Lol
Such as taco bell fiesta potatoes (when those got taken off the menu) and then the chicken quesadilla, and crunchwrap.
I'm trying my luck at a homemade chalupa soon, and possibly homemade english muffins.
Cooking, and flavors is just such a joy for me, that even if I only cook one good meal like that a week, it's worth it calorie wise. It brings so much happiness and of course, moderation is the key here. Lol
I'm also a foodie so I'm really enjoying this lol. I actually just made copycat KFC tenders for dinner last night and I will never fry anything a different way TBH! I found it in a magazine and I'm so glad I stole it from the doctor's office LOL.
Although I have to say that I view cooking also as a love language. Just because I can't eat it doesn't mean I can't wow other people with my food you know?
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TheHollowBones, on 09 May 2022 - 09:34 AM, said:
I'm also a foodie so I'm really enjoying this lol. I actually just made copycat KFC tenders for dinner last night and I will never fry anything a different way TBH! I found it in a magazine and I'm so glad I stole it from the doctor's office LOL.
Although I have to say that I view cooking also as a love language. Just because I can't eat it doesn't mean I can't wow other people with my food you know?
Haha how come we both made copycat KFC this weekend. That's so wacky. lol I find the best stuff in magazines sometimes.
Cooking is 100% a love language!! I totally get it. I made a huge batch of peanut brittle (which is one of my most favorite sweets ever ) and gave nearly every single piece except the couple we ate after it cooled and we broke it up, to everyone for mothers day. (mine and her mom and her grandma) so even though I got some, it didn't sit in the house for me to pig out on. 
I was quite proud of that lol
I'm going to need this copycat KFC chicken tender recipe. JUST saying.
Everyone loves my fried chicken, but I just found a new baked recipe the other day.
It's just ranch dip powder over chicken tenderloins/breast strips (maybe 1 tsp per 2-3 strips depending) and then bread them in italian bread crumbs. Then bake on 400 until at temp/crunchy. I was shocked how good they were. We legit made them 3 nights in a row. (I only make 4 tenders at a time so we didn't have leftovers)
Also fried ravioli is my weakness.
Just boil frozen raviolis until al dente (I use just cheese filled ones)
then let cool in strainer. Dip in egg wash, then bread in italian bread crumbs and fry until golden brown.
Dip in marinara sauce.
I legit make meals out of these for myself. My picky son gobbles these up 10x faster than just boiled ravioli with browned butter sauce & Parm.
Raviolis and dino nuggets are his every day go to haha.
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Posted 09 May 2022 - 12:58 PM
L0LLIR0T, on 09 May 2022 - 09:50 AM, said:
Haha how come we both made copycat KFC this weekend. That's so wacky. lol I find the best stuff in magazines sometimes.
Cooking is 100% a love language!! I totally get it. I made a huge batch of peanut brittle (which is one of my most favorite sweets ever ) and gave nearly every single piece except the couple we ate after it cooled and we broke it up, to everyone for mothers day. (mine and her mom and her grandma) so even though I got some, it didn't sit in the house for me to pig out on.
I'm going to need this copycat KFC chicken tender recipe. JUST saying.
Everyone loves my fried chicken, but I just found a new baked recipe the other day.
It's just ranch dip powder over chicken tenderloins/breast strips (maybe 1 tsp per 2-3 strips depending) and then bread them in italian bread crumbs. Then bake on 400 until at temp/crunchy. I was shocked how good they were. We legit made them 3 nights in a row. (I only make 4 tenders at a time so we didn't have leftovers)
Also fried ravioli is my weakness.
Just boil frozen raviolis until al dente (I use just cheese filled ones)
then let cool in strainer. Dip in egg wash, then bread in italian bread crumbs and fry until golden brown.
Dip in marinara sauce.
I legit make meals out of these for myself. My picky son gobbles these up 10x faster than just boiled ravioli with browned butter sauce & Parm.
Raviolis and dino nuggets are his every day go to haha.
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I haven't tried the chicken strips but I'm DEFINITELY doing that! Sounds quick and easy, I'd probably air fry them.
I'm definitely coming back later to share the KFC recipe with you, it says to bake the chicken after briefly frying them and baste them with whole milk but I found that it took off all the breading, literally the best part. I just fry them in vegetable oil all the way until they're done.
I make air fried ravioli ALL the time too! But I use frozen ravioli thawed out, egg, and seasoned flour to bread them, which makes a heavier breading. I put parmesan cheese and a lot of other seasonings in the the flour and it makes them SO good. Makes them taste expensive lol
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Posted 10 May 2022 - 11:28 AM
TheHollowBones, on 09 May 2022 - 12:58 PM, said:
ARE YOU ME?!!!!
I haven't tried the chicken strips but I'm DEFINITELY doing that! Sounds quick and easy, I'd probably air fry them.
I'm definitely coming back later to share the KFC recipe with you, it says to bake the chicken after briefly frying them and baste them with whole milk but I found that it took off all the breading, literally the best part. I just fry them in vegetable oil all the way until they're done.
I make air fried ravioli ALL the time too! But I use frozen ravioli thawed out, egg, and seasoned flour to bread them, which makes a heavier breading. I put parmesan cheese and a lot of other seasonings in the the flour and it makes them SO good. Makes them taste expensive lol
Haha I know! It's like having a convo with myself about food. xD Very Bobs Burger feel to it. Lol.
I should probably get an air fryer, been debating on one but never made the jump.
I love the extra breading on the ravioli, but everyone else prefers the lesser italian bread crumbs that I use.
I make the bisquick parm breaded chicken strips a lot as well. I think it's on the back of the box and my wife just LOVES IT. I have so many seasonings in my cabinet it's crazy.
My mom and my in laws have like regular white people seasings. Salt. Pepper. Lemon pepper and paprika and that's like IT. And old bay because of seasfood. Lol I'm trying to take my wife into making me nicer area for my spices instead of just on lazy susans in my cabinet.
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Posted 10 May 2022 - 11:35 AM
Monday May 10 2022 236.8
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Coffee - < 300
Egg McMuffin Homemade - 330
Tollhouse cookies x 2 - 190
Monster Energy Drink - 220
Candy - 180
Bean & Cheese Burrito - 360
Total - 1580
Output - 2322
Steps - 5221
Deficit - 742
Well I can't say I feel like I did great today. I should of skipped the cookies and candy and the energy drink and I would be almost 600 less. But that's fine.
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L0LLIR0T, on 10 May 2022 - 11:28 AM, said:
I made my husband build me a spice rack that fits plastic spice holders I found at WalmartHaha I know! It's like having a convo with myself about food. xD Very Bobs Burger feel to it. Lol.
I should probably get an air fryer, been debating on one but never made the jump.
I love the extra breading on the ravioli, but everyone else prefers the lesser italian bread crumbs that I use.
I make the bisquick parm breaded chicken strips a lot as well. I think it's on the back of the box and my wife just LOVES IT. I have so many seasonings in my cabinet it's crazy.
My mom and my in laws have like regular white people seasings. Salt. Pepper. Lemon pepper and paprika and that's like IT. And old bay because of seasfood. Lol I'm trying to take my wife into making me nicer area for my spices instead of just on lazy susans in my cabinet.
my collection was getting out of hand. And same with him on the spices! He saw my cabinet when we were dating and was like "uhhh I've only ever used salt, pepper, and paprika, what is cardamom" 
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Posted 11 May 2022 - 09:34 AM
TheHollowBones, on 10 May 2022 - 3:10 PM, said:
I made my husband build me a spice rack that fits plastic spice holders I found at Walmart
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HA! That's great. My wife does a lot of grilling/smoking so she's use to TONS of spices. She has her own rubbermaid tote for all her spices in a kitchen cabinet.
I started splurging and slowly buying myself a set of the pretty glass spice containers. I was finding them on amazon for like 4-5 $ for like 6, but haven't seen them in awhile for that price. I'm one of those people who put everything inside of mason jars. Beans/rice/chocolate chips etc. I just can't help myself haha. I also do a lot of canning during summer when we go to the amish and get produce.
I have curry powder in my cabinet that I bought the other day. I've never used it and never ate curry anything so sort of worried I wont like it. D;
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Posted 11 May 2022 - 09:40 AM
Tuesday May 11 2022 236.6
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Coffee - 150
grits and 2 eggs - 310
arbys melt, fries & coke - 1060
2 cookies - 190
candy - 200
buttered noodles - 200
cheese it snap chips - 150
Total - 2260
Output - 2589
Steps - 5397
Deficit - 329
Well I can't say I was happy with out the intake went. I'm cutting out candy and cookies from now on. At least for awhile. That was 400 calories of just bullshit. Literally 980 extra calories in two days because of cookies, candy and an energy drink. My fucking god. But that's okay we're moving on from that. I somehow still kept some of a deficit. It's better than nothing. I have been wanting Arby's for a really long time so I splurged since I was in town. I did do a little better than usual. Didn't get a shake, and got a small fry/drink, also didn't drink the whole drink, but still. I would say it was worth the calories, at least once in a while.
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Posted 11 May 2022 - 09:58 AM
Wednesday May 11 2022 235.8
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coffee - 250
2 slices bread / 2 eggs w/ butter - 470
2 beers - 190
fried bean & cheese burrito - 500
cheese it snaps - 100
oatmeal creme pie - 170
Total - 1680
Output - 2592
Steps - 4627
Deficit - 912
I have no idea how I've managed to still lose a whole pound over night. I knew for sure I was going to be the same or higher. Not sure what exactly happened there. I know I still had a deficit but I figured food weight would make up for that at least on the scale. Mentally I'm feeling a bit better the last couple days. Not sure if it's tied to me watching what I'm eating, or if because I'm not binging I'm feeling better. Who knows. Also painted my nails for the first time in awhile, I forget how much it makes me feel better just to do something so simple for myself. We're going to the beach in roughly a month and I'm really hoping to have lost about 10 more pounds by then. I know that's a lot and super hopeful, but if I can just start making better food choices I feel like I can do that. The week we're down there I will not be officially counting calories/keeping track. I will still probably write it on my phone so I can keep track of if I had a crazy calorie day, but it's not officially being logged lol. Unless it goes well ;] I forgot how relaxing my hammock is. After I post this (which I will update the intake and everything tomorrow) I'm going to go lay in my hammock until time to pick the kiddo up from school. I'm going to try making flour and corn tortillas tonight for dinner. I got a tortilla press for xmas and haven't had a chance to use it yet because I couldn't find the corn masa or tortilla flour for either. I can't believe only like 2 weeks left of the school year and then I'll have a 2nd grader. Like wtf. When did this happen? Lol. Anyways a little new information about me ; I recently started being able to vape again. Covid fucked me up for the longest, any time I would vape I would cough, (which I only vape CBD oil & THC oil depending on the day) It's been nearly 2 years since I've really been able to vape, and I wonder if that has contributed to my decline in mental health is not having that to calm my anxiety/depression etc. Also it helped me sleep so wonderfully at night. Food for thought.
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Posted 12 May 2022 - 08:58 AM
Thursday May 12 2022 234.6
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coffee - 150
oatmeal & apple juice - 395
popsicle - 40
chips/peanuts - 100
poptart - 200
candy - 50
orieda fries - 300
totinos pizza stuffers - 290
2 cookies - 190
jarritos grapefruit soda - 110
Intake - 1825
Output - 2558
Steps - 4750
Deficit - 733
Well somehow the universe is still allowing me to lose weight even though I've completely blown this eating plan out of the water and fucked it up. Still though, I have kept in check with snacking, I did better yesterday than the first two days. Not to mention I have logged everything and I'm keeping up with on here and my blog on here as well. I wish I had done better, but it's day 4 and I'm down 2.2 lbs. I know the first like 10 lbs is basically food/water weight plus a little weight loss. But I'm really hoping to be out of the 230's by Friday of next week. Honestly I think I can easily lose 5 lbs by then for sure. The wife wants to go out to eat at a new Mexican restaurant today so I'm expecting my calories to be much higher today than expected. I am not eating lunch because of this. I did not hit my step goal yesterday so also not too happy about that. I'm making some miss steps but not falling off the wagon. I'm not hating on myself for this either. I am still doing well, and I knew it wouldn't be a perfect week. I just have to try better each day and try better next week. I can absolutely do this. My mindset is right, for once here lately right now.
FUCK I did not do well today. So much junky crap. Candy/cookies AGAIN. Shit.
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Friday May 13 2022 234.4
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coffee - 150
monster energy drink - 220
x2 bean and cheese burritos - 500
side salad - 175
cheese it snaps - 150
eggo - 100
jarritos grapefruit 8 oz - 110
cookie 95
intake - 1500
output - 2643
steps - 5625
deficit - 1143
I knew the slow down was coming, but was hoping it would happen after 234. However based on how horribly I've done this week it doesn't surprise me at all. And honestly I'm shocked that I've even lost the 2.4 lbs that I have. I guess week one plan is out the window. I can slightly salvage this at the fact I didn't binge but my god I have a problem with sweets. Mainly candy. Which the skittles are gone now so that should be helpful. Also wont be eating any more of the chocolates she brought home because I don't like the flavors that are left. I'm doing myself a favor this week by not having taco salad. It sounds low calorie but by the time you add it in the dressing, chick peas, avocado, and the doritos (yes doritos and it's so so good) it's a crazy amount of calories. But I will be adding it to my menu probably a couple times a month throughout summer. It's such a lighter summer meal. High in calories, but it's not a heavy meal. Also we keep a lot more produce in the house during summer. I will try to cut back on the chips and include more lettuce. Anyways I'm trying to have a better mindset this afternoon. I haven't been good to myself in that area this morning or last night. Too much on my mind about past choices of my life and a lot of regret going on. Trying to move past that. Because I cannot change it no matter how I wish it so.
Well I guess I'll chop today up to a win. I consumed my lowest day so far. I haven't binged and honestly the eggo waffle plain & microwaved was more appealing that the cookie. I can't help myself with the cheese it snaps. It's my new thing I guess. I'm trying to limit myself and from here on out it will only be when I eat a can of tuna. However I have done well with only eating a serving. Shocked about that. No more monsters for at least a week. I really need to cut those out all together. We just get such a good deal at Sams Club. I am really hoping to see a good drop tomorrow AM on the scale, but not going to be bummed if I don't see one at all. Long as it doesn't go up
I have two more days in this week to make things right and I want to do extremely well. I just got more english muffins so I know I'll have a homemade McMuffin w/o Canadian bacon. But my goal is to skip all food tomorrow until dinner time and have a pasta side. Although not going to lie, buttered and parmesan cheesed spaghetti noodles sound pretty tasty with a piece of garlic bread. But just have to see. I just want to try to stay below 1500 calories.
I've posted a bunch of shit in my blog if anyone wants to shoot over there. Also debating on what color to make my font next week. Figured each week I can change up the color. I'm thinking blue.
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Saturday May 14 2022 233.9
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coffee -
I almost nearly cannot believe it myself. My brain thinks the calories burned on my Garmin are wrong, because my brain just can't wrap around that I'm burning that many. But it's never been wrong and I mean I'm steadily losing. I've lost 2.9 lbs even with eating the way that I've been eating. So obviously the math is adding up somewhere. I can't wait to do the end of week averages. Lol If I stick to my calorie plan today it will be an egg mcmuffin (so 350 calories) my knorr pasta side which half a batch is 300, and I nearly always eat the whole bag because leftovers suck of those so 600. That puts me with coffee at 1250 for the day. So even if I decided to have a salad throughout the day that puts me absolutely no higher than 1500 calories today. I would like for it to be lower, but I have literally a whole box of knorr pasta sides that go back here in the next couple months (I got on a bender of only eating them and instant potatoes for like.... months and months so I bought a whole bunch. Same happened with the soy ramen noodles, now I have those coming out of my ears as well) I never know how long that's going to last. Some times days, weeks or months. Then I burn myself out and don't want it again like at all, makes me want to yack. It usually gets donated before it goes bad. But I've got roughly 12-15 packs of knorr sides, and probably 10 packs of ramen. If I incorporated it into my week it should be gone before it goes bad. Just hoping the urge to eat only a certain food doesn't come back. The last item I did that with was boiled eggs. It lasted like a whole week where all I ate was boiled eggs and toast with butter. Then I got on an oatmeal kick where I was eating it literally 2-3 times a day. My son is the same way with foods. I've been told it's because of either his ADHD or Autism so it sort of makes me wonder if I am not the same way. Not that it matters now that I'm almost 31. Anyways I'm hoping that by Monday AM that I'm below 233. That's my best goal as of right now.
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L0LLIR0T, on 11 May 2022 - 09:58 AM, said:
Wednesday May 11 2022 235.8
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coffee - 250
2 slices bread / 2 eggs w/ butter - 470
2 beers - 190
fried bean & cheese burrito - 500
cheese it snaps - 100
oatmeal creme pie - 170
Total - 1680
Output - 2592
Steps - 4627
Deficit - 912
I have no idea how I've managed to still lose a whole pound over night. I knew for sure I was going to be the same or higher. Not sure what exactly happened there. I know I still had a deficit but I figured food weight would make up for that at least on the scale. Mentally I'm feeling a bit better the last couple days. Not sure if it's tied to me watching what I'm eating, or if because I'm not binging I'm feeling better. Who knows. Also painted my nails for the first time in awhile, I forget how much it makes me feel better just to do something so simple for myself. We're going to the beach in roughly a month and I'm really hoping to have lost about 10 more pounds by then. I know that's a lot and super hopeful, but if I can just start making better food choices I feel like I can do that. The week we're down there I will not be officially counting calories/keeping track. I will still probably write it on my phone so I can keep track of if I had a crazy calorie day, but it's not officially being logged lol. Unless it goes well ;] I forgot how relaxing my hammock is. After I post this (which I will update the intake and everything tomorrow) I'm going to go lay in my hammock until time to pick the kiddo up from school. I'm going to try making flour and corn tortillas tonight for dinner. I got a tortilla press for xmas and haven't had a chance to use it yet because I couldn't find the corn masa or tortilla flour for either. I can't believe only like 2 weeks left of the school year and then I'll have a 2nd grader. Like wtf. When did this happen? Lol. Anyways a little new information about me ; I recently started being able to vape again. Covid fucked me up for the longest, any time I would vape I would cough, (which I only vape CBD oil & THC oil depending on the day) It's been nearly 2 years since I've really been able to vape, and I wonder if that has contributed to my decline in mental health is not having that to calm my anxiety/depression etc. Also it helped me sleep so wonderfully at night. Food for thought.
I love oatmeal cream pies so much!!!!! T-T
I wish they had zero sugar options for diabetics and ed folks like us lmao
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ILiveToMosh, on 13 May 2022 - 08:00 AM, said:
We seem so similar in our story and going from binging to restriction and back again and vice versa. I'll be 27 this year and I'm still fighting my Ed. But now I'm 200 pounds so I've just been binging instead of fasting and restricting and it's like, "ok what's the lesser of two evils?"
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I hate that you're in the same boat. It's an awful boat. I use to think that people eventually recovered from an ED but now I'm starting to think it might be something we legit will battle our whole life just like any other addiction.
ILiveToMosh, on 13 May 2022 - 08:29 AM, said:
I love oatmeal cream pies so much!!!!! T-T
I wish they had zero sugar options for diabetics and ed folks like us lmao
I think all little debbie cakes should have a sugar free option for diabetics and ED people. I thought I liked oatmeal creme pies lol but apparently I don't as much as I thought. I think I get them confused with the raisin creme pie things. ;o
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L0LLIR0T, on 13 May 2022 - 11:48 AM, said:
It is a crappy boat to be in. Yes, I think we'll have to either fight or succumb to relapses for most, if not all, of our adult lives, unfortunately.I hate that you're in the same boat. It's an awful boat. I use to think that people eventually recovered from an ED but now I'm starting to think it might be something we legit will battle our whole life just like any other addiction.
I think all little debbie cakes should have a sugar free option for diabetics and ED people. I thought I liked oatmeal creme pies lol but apparently I don't as much as I thought. I think I get them confused with the raisin creme pie things. ;o
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And yes! Sugar free treats are my safe haven lol
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Posted Yesterday, 06:42 PM
ILiveToMosh, on 13 May 2022 - 1:01 PM, said:
It is a crappy boat to be in. Yes, I think we'll have to either fight or succumb to relapses for most, if not all, of our adult lives, unfortunately.
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And yes! Sugar free treats are my safe haven lol
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Agreed. I just don't think I ever thought I would make it to nearly 31 with the same problems as when I was 13. Guess what comes around goes around.
Also for some reason the fact that Karen Carpenter died at 32 from complications due to Anorexia just popped in my head.
Fuck dude.
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