How tf did I let this happen
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Posted 09 September 2021 - 06:39 AM
Im about to add two pictures, I would put them in before and after but that seems to be aimed at weight loss so I'ma put it here, feel free to move if needed but how the hell have i put so much weight on, first pic is me in 2016 when I was anorexic, second one was a few weeks ago, I have BED now. I want to fucking die quite honestly
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Posted 09 September 2021 - 06:44 AM
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Posted 09 September 2021 - 06:58 AM
It's part of your disorder. I hope that you don't blame yourself too much and can see you're still beautiful and this is still part of the illness. Wish you the best <3
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Posted 09 September 2021 - 07:06 AM
You're beautiful! I'm jealous
But it's very common for us to be in extreme situations. We are either in full "control" or none at all. It's insane. I really hope you get to work on yourself and find some peace and balance and truly feel good inside your body and out ♥
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Posted 09 September 2021 - 07:11 AM
You still look fab. Our bodies are made to change and adapt with time. I know it can be super overwhelming to see and feel the changes, but this is not your "end all be all". It takes time to gain weight, and it takes time to lose weight. You have the rest of your life to lose the weight if that is what you would like to do, so please don't do anything drastic, and show yourself some extra love and compassion right now <3
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Posted 09 September 2021 - 07:17 AM
I don't get why no one talks about how eating disorders are connected and people with AN are sometimes later diagnosed with BN or BED or show binge related disordered eating. I think there alot of people with BED who have AN histories out there, I'm convinced it's more common than people let on too.
I completely feel for you and my heart goes out to you, it is an awful feeling. Hope you are managing okay in yourself atm. You look great in both pics though and like your having a really fun time in the later picture.
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