PrincessAbby's road less traveled accountability! (start 185, now 124 (Aug 1st), w pics)

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#1 PrincessAbby

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Posted 05 December 2018 - 11:03 AM

Howdy, guys! I was last active on this website a tick over a year ago. Over that year I gained from 140 to 210 and now I'm bouncing from 170 to 185

Something's gotta give here. I had a mini relapse in which I actually took highest weight pictures because I always regret not taking them. I'm an alcoholic who will be 2 months sober on Friday.

That ED relapse was when I learned I can either be an active drunk with no eating disorder or a neurotic, starving wreck while sober. I made it just over 3 months sober that time before everything was too much and I had a ~3wk drunken bender.

I have to stay sober so I guess I'll just... Have an eating disorder again. I've had it for 15 years, why not the rest of my life?! *shrug*

Anyway, I'm a fat fuck now so. Yeah.

And I'm going to put a big fat (pun intended) progress picture right at the top of this accountability so I HAVE to look at it and fix it instead of trying to hide from it in a bottle.

Lots of love,

Abby

Edit: Dec 31 -
I track my weight in my phone, so I looked at my weight at time of this post was 185lbs
I wanted to tack this on up here so I'd be able to look at it without hunting to know my overall progress

Edit: Jan 30 -
180 -> 164 measurement compare on pg 8

Edit: Feb 4 -
Made it to 160 finally

Edit: March 4 -
Still 160. Just don't even bother reading this struggle lol

Edit: April 9 -
Currently 149 but the way I'm going there's gonna be a shitstorm comin'

Edit: May 8 -
Made it to 141 but been stuck there for over 2 weeks
Also this thread has become very food and grocery pic heavy lmao

Edit: May 23 -
Hit 135 this morning. Weird!

Edit: June 24 -
Been 130 for like 3 weeks. Dying.

Edit: July 1 -
128 for the 3rd day in a row. Might be safe from 130's. Probably not though...

Edit: Aug 1 -
124, starting the month off right!

Edit: October 11 -
126, so mad lol. Just been maintaining.

Edit: February 6th -
Hovering around 127 because fuck.
Really need to just... Stay hungry

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❀ Days binge free: 1 ❀

❀ Days sober: 317 ❀

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❀ Pounds/Inches ❀ Age: 28 ❀ Height: 5'6.5" ❀ 09/2018 ❀ SW 204 ❀

❀ HW: 218 ❀ LW: 112 ❀ CW: 126 ❀ GW: 120 ❀

❀ UGW: 103 ❀

#2 PrincessAbby

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Posted 05 December 2018 - 11:13 AM

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❀ Days binge free: 1 ❀

❀ Days sober: 317 ❀

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❀ Pounds/Inches ❀ Age: 28 ❀ Height: 5'6.5" ❀ 09/2018 ❀ SW 204 ❀

❀ HW: 218 ❀ LW: 112 ❀ CW: 126 ❀ GW: 120 ❀

❀ UGW: 103 ❀

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Posted 06 December 2018 - 10:05 AM

Intake Dec 6th

I'll come back and edit this throughout the day.

Breakfast: 220
-Vitamins
-Breakfast bowl (frozen)

Lunch: 360
-Oatmeal 160
-Pbfit 50
-Queen Anne's cherries 150

Snack: 110
Mashed Potatoes

Dinner: 165
100g chicken breast

Snack: 320
-Chocolate rice cake x2 120
-Peanut Butter 100
-190g ambrosia apple 100

Total: 1,175

Other:
Went to walmart to mess around and maybe get some safe foods. Left with some of the black package chiobani yogurts, sugar free jell-o, eggs, frozen meals (my lifeblood) between 180 and 310 cal ea. Wanted to get celery and salsa but didn't feel like it. Oh and I got hair dye so might do that later? Or maybe just clean idk. It's cold as fuck here so I don't wanna go outside or disrobe or anything lmao

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❀ Days binge free: 1 ❀

❀ Days sober: 317 ❀

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❀ Pounds/Inches ❀ Age: 28 ❀ Height: 5'6.5" ❀ 09/2018 ❀ SW 204 ❀

❀ HW: 218 ❀ LW: 112 ❀ CW: 126 ❀ GW: 120 ❀

❀ UGW: 103 ❀

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Posted 07 December 2018 - 01:43 PM

Dec 7

Intake

Breakfast: 240
-Oatmeal 160
-Pbfit 50
-Vitamins 30

Snack: 122
-Butterscotch 47
-Queen Anne's cherry 75

Lunch: 200
-Soup 200

Snack: 70
-Beef jerky 70

Dinner: 360
-Turkey & egg pocket 150
-Oatmeal 160
-Pbfit 50

Snack:

Total: 992

Steps: 20.3k

Other:
Long shift at work today! Hoo boy my feet are fuckin killing me but it feels so right 💕 I'm gonna see if I can fast tomorrow. I'm historically shit at fasting but good at restricting so no sweat if I end up eating.

I love oatmeal. And I love how many km I'm syncing on pokemon go at work!!! Ahhh!! So many eggs to hatch, it's awesome.

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❀ Days sober: 317 ❀

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❀ Pounds/Inches ❀ Age: 28 ❀ Height: 5'6.5" ❀ 09/2018 ❀ SW 204 ❀

❀ HW: 218 ❀ LW: 112 ❀ CW: 126 ❀ GW: 120 ❀

❀ UGW: 103 ❀

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Posted 08 December 2018 - 06:12 AM

Gooooood morning! It's too cold to fast so I'll do normal. I've been eating "whatever" for a couple of months so shrinking my stomach back down again is going to be a pain in the ass!

It's freezing and boring here in sober winter so I'm going to rent movies all day and do nothing!

intake:
Breakfast: 255
-Oatmeal 160
-Pbfit 80
-vitamins 15

Snack: 90
-Fiber brownie 90

Lunch: 400
-chicken and veggies 190
-chips 210

Snack: 215
-Apple 90
-Strawberries 60
-blueberries 65

Dinner:

Snack:

Total:

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❀ Days sober: 317 ❀

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❀ Pounds/Inches ❀ Age: 28 ❀ Height: 5'6.5" ❀ 09/2018 ❀ SW 204 ❀

❀ HW: 218 ❀ LW: 112 ❀ CW: 126 ❀ GW: 120 ❀

❀ UGW: 103 ❀

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Posted 09 December 2018 - 03:58 PM

Cold, gross, pouring. All day today. The weather here is such a bag of dicks ;~;

Intake

Breakfast: 240
-oatmeal 160
-pbfit 50
-vitamins 30

Lunch: 170
-tortilla 100
-turkey 60
-celery/mustard 10

Snack: 90
-rice pudding

Dinner: 730
-bratwurst (2) 520
-paw patrol mac n cheese 210

Snack:

Total: 1,140

Other: i want a second job so ill have less free time for things like eating or drinking alcohol and more time making money for dumb shit on amazon!

But nobody wants to hire me 🤷‍♀️

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❀ Days binge free: 1 ❀

❀ Days sober: 317 ❀

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❀ Pounds/Inches ❀ Age: 28 ❀ Height: 5'6.5" ❀ 09/2018 ❀ SW 204 ❀

❀ HW: 218 ❀ LW: 112 ❀ CW: 126 ❀ GW: 120 ❀

❀ UGW: 103 ❀

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Posted 09 December 2018 - 05:22 PM

Haven't weighed in 2 weeks and I don't want to weigh this week, either. Too nervous wondering if it's going to be higher for the 4th time :/

I wonder if I could make progress not weighing? Probably not. Weighing myself is my biggest trigger. Right now I'm still managing to eat normally and I'm not sure that's a line I'm willing to test.

We'll see. I'd be lying if I said I wasn't madly curious

Edit: Dec 31-

The weight I have logged in my phone for this date is 178lb

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❀ Days sober: 317 ❀

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❀ Pounds/Inches ❀ Age: 28 ❀ Height: 5'6.5" ❀ 09/2018 ❀ SW 204 ❀

❀ HW: 218 ❀ LW: 112 ❀ CW: 126 ❀ GW: 120 ❀

❀ UGW: 103 ❀

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Posted 10 December 2018 - 07:33 AM

Good morning ladies and germs! I took laxatives last night and I'm going to weigh myself in the morning. better to get it over with before it turns into something weird!

Also I forgot I put my last known weight in my signature. That's gross.

When I first logged back in I put "xx" in my current weight because it said 136... Mother fucking 136. and here I sit 40 pounds heavier because all I have been doing since I left mpa is drinking. Even usually beer! And I've been fired and rehired from my job twice already due to withdrawal related absences.

tbh id rather struggle with my ED than constantly be on the cusp of ruining my life with alcohol. Which is convenient, because every time I get sober, I start the ED behaviours all over again. I'm just going to let them take me.

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❀ Days binge free: 1 ❀

❀ Days sober: 317 ❀

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❀ Pounds/Inches ❀ Age: 28 ❀ Height: 5'6.5" ❀ 09/2018 ❀ SW 204 ❀

❀ HW: 218 ❀ LW: 112 ❀ CW: 126 ❀ GW: 120 ❀

❀ UGW: 103 ❀

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Posted 10 December 2018 - 07:46 AM

dec 10

Intake:

Breakfast: 30

-Coffee

-Fake sugar 10

-Almond milk 20

Snack:

Lunch:

Snack:

Dinner:

Snack:

Total: i dont even know, i forgot to track after breakfast. not great lmao

Other: 62 days sober. I resubscribed to world of warcraft but only so long as it doesn't drive me to drink. It used to be one of my biggest drinking triggers (raid night, group activities, just because, makes it fun, etc) but so far I haven't been social. I've only been exploring the 14 months worth of game they've added since I last played and it's going really well imo.

I also have knitting and crochet kits on my christmas wishlist so hopefully I'll be getting one of those bc I already have guides and videos saved just in case (: oh yeah plus you can't eat when you're playing with yarn and I can't eat when I'm playing video games because I play on a laptop and there's no way to disassemble the keyboard to give it a proper clean if I get crumbs on it.

Have a beautiful day and as always I will come back and edit this post with my intake throughout the day <3

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❀ Days binge free: 1 ❀

❀ Days sober: 317 ❀

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❀ Pounds/Inches ❀ Age: 28 ❀ Height: 5'6.5" ❀ 09/2018 ❀ SW 204 ❀

❀ HW: 218 ❀ LW: 112 ❀ CW: 126 ❀ GW: 120 ❀

❀ UGW: 103 ❀

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Posted 10 December 2018 - 06:19 PM

Since I decided to weigh myself tomorrow I obviously self sabotaged by b/ping half a pizza and eating 6 rice krispie treats and half a bag of m&ms. Obviously.

Maybe I should not make goals and just kinda... Do anything that's under my bmr and call it good lmao

thats how I usually do it idk why I would think this time was any different. This time next month I'll probably be stuck under 1k/day even though my goal is just anywhere below 1400 atm

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❀ Days binge free: 1 ❀

❀ Days sober: 317 ❀

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❀ Pounds/Inches ❀ Age: 28 ❀ Height: 5'6.5" ❀ 09/2018 ❀ SW 204 ❀

❀ HW: 218 ❀ LW: 112 ❀ CW: 126 ❀ GW: 120 ❀

❀ UGW: 103 ❀

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Posted 11 December 2018 - 09:59 AM

Weight today: 175

December 11th

So i made a paper that counts down 15 pounds from today until january 11th.
I've got 1 star for 5lbs, 2 stars for 10lbs and 3 stars for all 15lb. you know, like a mobile game level haha
So it's a low stress visual motivator. I've taped it to the fridge! At the end of the month, my reward will be that I've lost 15lb (hopefully)

There's no real reward because during that time, I'll have passed my 90 day sobriety and I have a sassy bra set up as a reward for that and I'm broke af so no additional money needs to be spent!

Intake:

Breakfast: 30
-coffee 0
-fake sugar 10
-almond milk 20

Lunch: 240
-Vitamins 30
-oatmeal 160
-pbfit 50

snack: 215
-apple 75
-beef jerky 140

Snack: 68
-zucchini 25
-salsa 43

Dinner: 310
-Shiitake chicken bowl 310

snack: 230
-lemon protein bar

Drink: 170
-Orange juice

total: 1,263

notes:
I made a to do list and right now I'm in the middle of it. Almost done with the kitchen, just need to do the sink and the empty brownie pan thats in it. I cleaned both bathrooms and since I'm too lazy to mop I "hand mopped" which is spraying the cleaner all over the floor and wiping it up on my hands and knees which ???? is almost definitely more work xD

I also took out the trash fed/watered the cats, cleaned the litterbox, put away all the laundry and REALLY considered sweeping and vacuuming the house but in the end I haven't yet. I have to shower and go get my prescriptions from walmart in a tick. might pick up sugar free jello, might pick up some stuff for christmas cookies to feed my neighbors.

I have really cute grannies all around my house as neighbors and we all attack eachother with baked goods and miscellaneous food. I taste theirs and feed it to my husband or throw it away. Presumably they eat mine? It lets me bake, which I love, and gets rid of it, which I LOVE!

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❀ Days binge free: 1 ❀

❀ Days sober: 317 ❀

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❀ Pounds/Inches ❀ Age: 28 ❀ Height: 5'6.5" ❀ 09/2018 ❀ SW 204 ❀

❀ HW: 218 ❀ LW: 112 ❀ CW: 126 ❀ GW: 120 ❀

❀ UGW: 103 ❀

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Posted 11 December 2018 - 10:27 AM

My measurement dump

height: 5'6ish

weight: 175

bmi: 28.2 (ugh)

bmr: 1600

tdee: 2100

calorie goal: <1400

waist to hip ratio: 0.8

Bust: 39

Waist: 33.5

Hips: 40.5

Neck: 14

Wrist: 6.5

Upper arm: 13.5

Upper thigh: 25.5

Mid thigh: 23

Lower thigh: 18

can't find my fucking tape measure lol

To be continued once I buy a new one

yeah I'm that lazy

edit: kay I got it now

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❀ Days binge free: 1 ❀

❀ Days sober: 317 ❀

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❀ Pounds/Inches ❀ Age: 28 ❀ Height: 5'6.5" ❀ 09/2018 ❀ SW 204 ❀

❀ HW: 218 ❀ LW: 112 ❀ CW: 126 ❀ GW: 120 ❀

❀ UGW: 103 ❀

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Posted 12 December 2018 - 07:57 AM

Found my tape measure but haven't taken measurements yet! Edit: now i did, and theyre gross

Dec 12

Intake:

Breakfast: 240

-oatmeal 160

-pbfit 50

-vitamins 30

snack: 90

cheddar rice cakes (x2)

Lunch: 500 (?)

White rice

eggs & broccoli

chicken broth

Snack:

Dinner:

Snack:

Total:

Notes:

I'm cold

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❀ Days binge free: 1 ❀

❀ Days sober: 317 ❀

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❀ Pounds/Inches ❀ Age: 28 ❀ Height: 5'6.5" ❀ 09/2018 ❀ SW 204 ❀

❀ HW: 218 ❀ LW: 112 ❀ CW: 126 ❀ GW: 120 ❀

❀ UGW: 103 ❀

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Posted 12 December 2018 - 09:09 AM

I'm sorry I just can't stop thinking about how fat I've gotten...

Those measurements are god damn insane.

Here's my old ones, the last ones I took, last year, before I got so fucking FAT.

Waist: 24

Hips: 38

Bust: 36

Hip to waist ratio: 0.63

Wrist: 6

upper thigh: 21

mid thigh: 19

lower thigh: 16

Neck: 12

i cannot believe i am so fat now. this is all because I have pants from size 2 to size 12... every time my pants don't fit I try on every pair of jeans I own, set aside the ones that fit, put the non fitting ones back into the dresser and boom! new jeans. Even if it's bigger jeans. ughhhhhh

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❀ Days binge free: 1 ❀

❀ Days sober: 317 ❀

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❀ Pounds/Inches ❀ Age: 28 ❀ Height: 5'6.5" ❀ 09/2018 ❀ SW 204 ❀

❀ HW: 218 ❀ LW: 112 ❀ CW: 126 ❀ GW: 120 ❀

❀ UGW: 103 ❀

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Posted 12 December 2018 - 11:16 AM

i keep wanting to fast and then forgetting. like a goldfish or a gnat or Dory lmao

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❀ Days binge free: 1 ❀

❀ Days sober: 317 ❀

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❀ Pounds/Inches ❀ Age: 28 ❀ Height: 5'6.5" ❀ 09/2018 ❀ SW 204 ❀

❀ HW: 218 ❀ LW: 112 ❀ CW: 126 ❀ GW: 120 ❀

❀ UGW: 103 ❀

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Posted 12 December 2018 - 06:47 PM

Under these spoiler tags are old bodychecks and most of them are nearly nude and/or poorly censored with stickers. Sorry about the stickers btw, but I wanted to hide my tattoos too. They look stupid and distracting but don't really take away from the body check.

Anyway, open at your own risk I guess!

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The spoiler above these words are front views of most of my body. Below this is a progress pic of 140 vs 130

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❀ Days binge free: 1 ❀

❀ Days sober: 317 ❀

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❀ Pounds/Inches ❀ Age: 28 ❀ Height: 5'6.5" ❀ 09/2018 ❀ SW 204 ❀

❀ HW: 218 ❀ LW: 112 ❀ CW: 126 ❀ GW: 120 ❀

❀ UGW: 103 ❀

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Posted 13 December 2018 - 03:01 AM

Man it's god damn 4am and I have to go to work and I spaced out the other stuff I have going on today so that after work I can't even take a nap ;~;

Screwed myself for real. But whatever, at least I don't have to work until noon tomorrow.

I think I'm going to grow my hair out so I can put it up so I don't have to shower every fucking day to make it look nice. My husbands been telling me I should anyway *shrug*

I just tried to get my cats' eye booger and she wouldn't let me, but she did start licking my face! What did we do to deserve cats?! She's so cute I'm dying *cry*

intake:

Breakfast: 240

-oatmeal 160

-pbfit 50

-vitamins 30

Snack: 23

-sugarless butterscotch (2) 23

Lunch: 380

Broth with 1 wonton 200 (??)

frozen meal 180

Snack: 90

cheddar rice cakes (2) 90

Dinner:

Snack:

Total:

Steps:

Notes: I should try one of these days to skip breakfast when I work this early. I don't usually eat until 10am or 11am and that's when I get off work today but I am always worried I'll get so hungry I'll start puking (yeah that happens to me, like a dog) and that'll cause some kind of horrendous chain reaction somehow and i'll get fired (????)

welp

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❀ Days binge free: 1 ❀

❀ Days sober: 317 ❀

❀ Accountability:❀

❀ Pounds/Inches ❀ Age: 28 ❀ Height: 5'6.5" ❀ 09/2018 ❀ SW 204 ❀

❀ HW: 218 ❀ LW: 112 ❀ CW: 126 ❀ GW: 120 ❀

❀ UGW: 103 ❀

#18 PrincessAbby

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Posted 13 December 2018 - 07:12 PM

real talk today devolved into a binge in which I continued eating popcorn and puff rice cereal LONG after I wasn't hungry anymore.

Could've been worse so I'm going to try to let this one roll off my back and look forward to tomorrow. I'm going to get my body back the same way I've been getting my brain back. One. Fucking. Day. At a time.

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❀ Days binge free: 1 ❀

❀ Days sober: 317 ❀

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❀ Pounds/Inches ❀ Age: 28 ❀ Height: 5'6.5" ❀ 09/2018 ❀ SW 204 ❀

❀ HW: 218 ❀ LW: 112 ❀ CW: 126 ❀ GW: 120 ❀

❀ UGW: 103 ❀

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Posted 16 December 2018 - 06:08 AM

Weight: 172.8

aw yis finally some results!

intake from yesterday:

Breakfast:

oatmeal 160

pbfit 50

vitamins 30

Snack:

mini babybel 50

turkey sausage & egg pita 150

Lunch:

zoodles 35

salsa 40

pickles (2 spears) 10

xmas reese's (2) 100

Dinner:

tomato and basil rice cakes (2) 100

grilled chicken & mushrooms 180

Snack:

xmas reese's (2) 100

Chocolate rice cakes (2) 120

Total: 1,125

Notes: One day at a time ya'll. I was off yesterday so I had more access to food so I figured 1200 was fine since it was still under my goal. I'm trying to get as close to 800 as I can per day without binging so that I can drop the first 25lbs really fast to be more comfortable and then I can slow down on the rest. The 3 pounds I lost yesterday was all poop and dehydration but I'll take it as a "clean slate" and I'll resume my weekly weigh ins, so next sunday!

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❀ Days binge free: 1 ❀

❀ Days sober: 317 ❀

❀ Accountability:❀

❀ Pounds/Inches ❀ Age: 28 ❀ Height: 5'6.5" ❀ 09/2018 ❀ SW 204 ❀

❀ HW: 218 ❀ LW: 112 ❀ CW: 126 ❀ GW: 120 ❀

❀ UGW: 103 ❀

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Posted 16 December 2018 - 06:10 AM

Separate post for today's intake because imho it looks nicer

Intake:

Breakfast:

-Oatmeal 160

-Pbfit 70

-Vitamins 30

Snack: x

Lunch:

-beef teriyaki 280

Snack:

-apple 75

-reese's 50

-butterscotch (3) 35

Dinner:

-turkey breast 60

-mustard 5

-bread 90

-mini babybel 50

Snack:

-chicken noodle soup 140

Total: 1,045

Notes: Got most of xmas stuff licked, make cookies last night and didn't eat any of them. They're getting decorated today and fed to the neighbors because get out of my house. These are practice cookies so I can have actual really pretty ones to take to family christmas and impress everyone! Or I could just make the cookies everyone knows and loves, which are honestly amazing, my own recipe. But those I will eat like nobody's buisiness. With the sugar cookies I don't even like them lmao

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❀ Days binge free: 1 ❀

❀ Days sober: 317 ❀

❀ Accountability:❀

❀ Pounds/Inches ❀ Age: 28 ❀ Height: 5'6.5" ❀ 09/2018 ❀ SW 204 ❀

❀ HW: 218 ❀ LW: 112 ❀ CW: 126 ❀ GW: 120 ❀

❀ UGW: 103 ❀

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Posted 28 August 2019 - 06:06 AM

It's daytime

128 idk

Breakfast:
Coffee 10
Vitamins 30

Snack:
X

Lunch:
Red bull pear 15
It's disgusting lol

Snack:
X

Dinner:
Salad at date night 480

Snack:
X

Total: 535

Steps: 5k

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Notes:
Ugh

Somewhere between fighting back and rolling over and just taking it because I can't get away may as well give up

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Food pics:

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❀ Days binge free: 1 ❀

❀ Days sober: 317 ❀

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❀ Pounds/Inches ❀ Age: 28 ❀ Height: 5'6.5" ❀ 09/2018 ❀ SW 204 ❀

❀ HW: 218 ❀ LW: 112 ❀ CW: 126 ❀ GW: 120 ❀

❀ UGW: 103 ❀

#982 Lumpy Space

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Posted 28 August 2019 - 06:52 AM

Hey we are going through something similar right now, so I know how you feel and im sorry your stuck in this cycle too <3 im thinking of you today, we can do it!

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CW: 182

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Posted 28 August 2019 - 06:56 AM

Lumpy Space, on 28 Aug 2019 - 06:52 AM, said:

Hey we are going through something similar right now, so I know how you feel and im sorry your stuck in this cycle too <3 im thinking of you today, we can do it!

Aww so sweet, thank you, I really appreciate the solidarity rn

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❀ Days binge free: 1 ❀

❀ Days sober: 317 ❀

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❀ Pounds/Inches ❀ Age: 28 ❀ Height: 5'6.5" ❀ 09/2018 ❀ SW 204 ❀

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❀ UGW: 103 ❀

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Posted 28 August 2019 - 06:58 AM

Weight tracking because I'm a spammy bitch today

I get that progess is not linear but if this could be slightly more linear in the downward fashion that would be grrreeaaaat

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Posted 28 August 2019 - 07:26 PM

Broke my fast because my husband wanted to take me out and show me a nice night

it was worth it. I started the timer over

I barely ate it at all tbh. 3 shrimp and some mouthfuls of lettuce, a slice of chicken, half a slice of avocado. His food, he says, was gross. So he barely touched it either.

I love him so much

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Posted 28 August 2019 - 10:29 PM

I'm fasting rn too! You've got this!! Also, I would definitely pick date night too! lol date = so much better than fasting.

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Posted 29 August 2019 - 09:46 AM

Holy shit, late update!

Weight 125.8
Fast hour 17

Breakfast:
Coffee 10
Vitamins 30

Snack:
Reign 10

Lunch:
X

Snack:
X

Dinner:
X

Snack:
Purge

Total: 50

Steps: 15k

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I went to the GYM this morning! With husband! I want to make a habit of it HOWEVER, he works at asscrack in the morning and I work until asscrack at night so we only see eachother tues/wed/thur.
It's cool.

I'm r a v e n o u s. I ran out of bronkaid a few day ago and never went and got more because????? Idk. Just havent.

Ironically I bought a ton of groceries today for all the eating I'm not going to do

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Posted 29 August 2019 - 04:24 PM

I'm on lunch... Walking to my car. I hear another associate's store phone ring and I start patting my own pockets to find and answer it

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Posted 30 August 2019 - 06:09 AM

127 what the fuck

Breakfast:
Coffee 10
Vitamins 30
Chocolate chips 70

Snack:
Oatmeal 160
Pbfit 50
Baby food 45

Purged

Lunch:
Baby food 60

Snack:
Fruit cup 135
Flex chips 90

Dinner:
Apple chips 60
Pepper things 75

Snack:
X

Total: 785

Steps: 16k

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The fuuuuuuucccckkkkkkkkkk

I hate it.
Haaaate it.

Broke fast last night but purged. Hate it

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I should give up on fasting before I start binging again. WE LEARNED THIS ALREADY. Lmao

So I logged a shit load of food and it's still morning so we'll see how much of it I actually eat.

Ps: my husband's idiot ass cat keeps trying to get my coffee because just once I want to drink my coffee while I sit on the fucking couch instead of standing at the kitchen counter.

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Haha love how the red pepper thing says age 12 months-100+ years

Also don't be too hard on yourself, maybe it's just water that your body is retaining after the fast?

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Posted 30 August 2019 - 06:57 PM

Contingency_Plan, on 30 Aug 2019 - 2:57 PM, said:

Haha love how the red pepper thing says age 12 months-100+ years

Also don't be too hard on yourself, maybe it's just water that your body is retaining after the fast?

Idk it's really annoying though lmao

I was totally fine up until like a month ago and now I'm a hot mess

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Posted 30 August 2019 - 06:57 PM

Ate a bunch of cookies and purged them. Then ate gummies and didn't.

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Posted 31 August 2019 - 05:31 AM

127

Breakfast:
Coffee 10
Vitamins 30

Snack:
X

Lunch:
Breads 80
Jelly 20
Banana 120

Snack:
Fruit 135
Flex chips 90

Dinner:
Veggies 145

Snack:
Cheese 100
Baby food 45

Total: 775

Steps: 16k

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Good morning! I feel gross and my back hurts sooo bad :c
I think I purged all my pain pills every time I took them lmao. Gotta... Not do that.

Gonna open up my impossible to get to cabinet and shove more stuff in it that I can't stop eating, so. That.

New rule for work is no apron snacks. If I think I'm dying I have safe food in my locker already but having snacks in my apron on the sales floor just leads to more snacks. They start out safe and quickly become bags of cookies.

This morning I'm going to dye my hair, clean the litterbox, do dishes, make my pills for the week, clean the kitchen/toaster oven, and do laundry.

My chest hurts bc shitty electrolytes from all the puking yesterday.

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Posted 31 August 2019 - 04:45 PM

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Posted 31 August 2019 - 05:55 PM

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Posted 31 August 2019 - 08:27 PM

Idontwannabethick, on 31 Aug 2019 - 5:55 PM, said:

Who eats less than you? And why even mention it? That would upset me.

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My friend's sister apparently lmao

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Posted 01 September 2019 - 05:50 AM

127

Breakfast:
Coffee 10
Vitamins 30

Snack:
Banana 120
Tomatoes 30
Cucumbers 30
Dressing 45

Lunch:
Rice cake 70
Jelly 20
Choc chips 70

Snack:
Kiwi 60
Mini cheese 50
Jerky 80

Dinner:
Rice cakes 100
Jelly 20

Snack:
Chicken 70
Tomatoes 20
Cucumbers 15
Bell pepper 25
Dressing 30

Total: 15k

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Work today and tomorrow then off.
Today I'm scheduled in an area of the store I don't know how to do... Because???????? They're fucking dumb. This part of the store requires intimate knowledge of a computer program I've literally never used. So.

I already just want today to be over

For food- it's morning and I've planned everything to hopefully break my Sunday Binge streak. And I lost my train of thought.

As always, it's subject to change. I just picked at lunch yesterday so I might pick at it again. Sunday just ruins my eating because everything is at the wrong time! Dinner is 4 hours early, so I won't be hungry, lunch (first meal of the day) is 3 hours early, so I'm only mildly hungry. And then I get off after I've usually stopped eating... Ugh.

Ik I whine about the same shit every Sunday but even upper management thinks I shouldn't have to work sundays because of how late I work every single other day and how early I have to come in comparatively

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Posted 01 September 2019 - 06:13 PM

Got really really lazy on the pictures today...
I'm just putting all my energy into not binging lol

Pretty good day at work!

Remembered to get bread and jelly cause I'm smart!
Jk, I had my friend schedule a text message to come through 5 minutes before I got off work so I'd remember

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Posted 02 September 2019 - 08:53 AM

127

Work today, off tomorrow.

Breakfast:
Coffee 10
Vitamins 30

Snack:
Baby food 45
Rice roll 30

Lunch:
Oatmeal 160
Pbfit 50
Apple 105

Snack:
Fruit cup 135

Dinner:
Veggies 50
(added to yesterday's leftovers)

Snack:
Cheese 50
Protein chips 90
Baby food 45

Total: 800 + b/p at midnight

Steps: 17k

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Okay, so, I went to the gym this morning and hated it. But at least I wasn't mindless eating. HOWEVER I didn't have time to finish my coffee so I didn't poop and now I have to shower and go to work as soon as I post this.

Hate it.

Husband's off for 4 days. I'm off tomorrow and wed.
Work is either going to be dead or nuts. Not really an in between.

Idk if we have holiday hours today but my shift is regular so. Maybe, probably not.

We're getting undercut pretty good by our main competitor so sales are about half of what they were last year, which is why I suspect it'll be dead today.

Also, I got a bunch of food and then triggered myself out of eating it because almost back to 130... Oh and I bought strawberries and more than half of them were rotten but the carton was so big I couldn't see that.

Cool. Low key extremely pissed about it.

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Posted 02 September 2019 - 09:11 AM

I've been beat to the punch of every single mile stone post number.

Not today!

ONE THOUSAND POSTS!

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Posted 01 May 2020 - 10:06 PM

1am:
Sandwich 140
Melties 100
Squeezy food 70

5am:
Crackers 130
Fiber oats 150
Pbfit 50

3pm:
Cheese 30
Rice cake 35
Rice cake 50
Graham crackers 195

5pm:
Jelly sandwich 100
Tomat 30
Chicken 70

Total: 1,400

Steps: 16k

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Tonight not as exhausted, thank god. Really hungry though. I hate it. I just hate it. It's absolutely breaking me.

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Posted 02 May 2020 - 12:26 PM

Off today but going in for a short shift because?????

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Posted 03 May 2020 - 09:04 AM

Not going to weigh
Because self hatred
But going to guess 134.

Breakfast:
Coffee 10
Vitamins 30

1pm:
Sandwich 110
Rice cake 35
Cheese 30

Lunch:
Graham crackers 65
Baby food 60

Snack:
Jello 10
Egg and white 90

Dinner:
Maple fiber oats 150
Pbfit 50
Chocolate 50

Fruit 150

Snack:
Celery n Pbfit 145
Kix 160

Total: 1,095

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Nope. Not happening. Saw myself in the mirror. Saw how much I'd gained just in my thighs. I look all soft again.

I can't.

I've been eating but not purging. Now I just have to not eat or purge

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Posted 03 May 2020 - 09:21 AM

This shit

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Donesies. I need to get to like... 115? To look like this again. Because i have lost SO much muscle out of my legs.

And I'm not interested in working out. Because that's annoying. I do bodyweight stuff and I work a really physically demanding job.

I get leg workouts in when I can, as in, sliding 200+lb lawnmowers across the floor in their boxes. So it's like weighted lunges. Shit like that.

I need to break. Without altering my medication.
I WILL NOT sacrifice being stable for being skinny.
Can you tell I'm trying to convince myself?
If I had my anxiety back I would be too nervous to eat...

Ugh.

I hate it. I hate it. I hate it. I hate it. I hate it. I hate it.

I'm angry and I'm going to use it. I need this anger.

My accountability has turned from "watch me finally be happy" (which I absolutely was last year with my body) to "watch this bitch lose her mind and get fat all over again"

Nah. We've come too far.

This is the actual worst. Or maybe the actual worst is the prt where no matter how much I hate it, I keep eating anyway. Idk.

From now on: firm rules.
- weigh every day
- no peanut butter until further notice. Anywhere. On anything. Fuck you. You can have it back eventually. Until then, only pb2.
- NO NUTS NO TRAIL MIX NO
- No work food! At all! You bring your food and that's what you're allowed to eat. No vending machine. No someone brought it as a treat. No.
- be careful of your electrolytes
- no purging because your teeth suck already
- less than 1,200/day

Okay.

Oh and no more lying on your intake. Just because it's not in here doesn't mean you didn't eat it, cow.

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Posted 03 May 2020 - 01:53 PM

Ugh, I feel this so much

Got to a nice place with my body and then fucked it all up as soon as I achieved it..

The slow progress sucks, but it will last..

You can do this, hun!

Never sacrifice your health for skinny!

(I’m a hypocrite, I know, lol

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Posted 03 May 2020 - 03:22 PM

stressnhope, on 03 May 2020 - 1:53 PM, said:

Ugh, I feel this so much
Got to a nice place with my body and then fucked it all up as soon as I achieved it..
The slow progress sucks, but it will last..
You can do this, hun!
Never sacrifice your health for skinny!
(I’m a hypocrite, I know, lol )

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Aren't we all hypocrites though?
I want to stop eating for a month but I'd do everything in my power to stop you from doing the same got dang thing

I stocked up on safe food and some experimental food. I didn't buy any trash food. I threw away the rest of my graham crackers. I can't throw away the more expensive stuff so I'll just be feeding it to my friends at work until it's gone and then not buy more

If I could do OMAD my macros would be ahhhmazing but like, hungry. Lmao

Let's you and me do our best, together, with the most self harm reduction humanly possible!

cause, you know, it's not like anyone here is exactly reaching their goals in a healthy way. That shit takes too long. So. The least amount of damage is a nice compromise?

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Posted 03 May 2020 - 03:28 PM

I can't post pictures?

Well. I can post my bowl of berries but it's giving me the same error message for graham crackers as it does for explicit content????

Get it together tapatalk jfc

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Posted 03 May 2020 - 03:48 PM

We give so much love to everyone else that there is none left for ourselves

I wish I could throw away all the junk food, but my family would probably fight me

Self-control is my only savior

My OMADs are just a giant spread of various foods, lol
One BIGASS Meal a Day

Yes, let’s do our very best to reduce harm!!!
Once we work with our bodies, they will stop screwing us over from our goals

My yo-yo’ing is getting so~ old...

I also couldn’t post photos..
Tapatalk tings

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Posted 04 May 2020 - 12:02 PM

Weight 133

1am:
Fiber oats 150
Pbfit 50
Fruit 130

3pm:
Coffee 10
Vitamins 30
Rice roll 40

5pm:
Oats 100
Pbfit 50
Mango 120

11:50pm:
Cheese sandwich 140

Total: 930

Steps: 12k

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New rules are being followed! More or less! It's super annoying. Purged last night because I cheated and ate nuts.

Need to get back to 120 asap.

Then under. In theory it's easy but in practice I'm hungry.

Still on overnights. Ugh.

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Posted 04 May 2020 - 01:57 PM

I feel like I'm forgetting something I ate because I'm not that hungry and it's freaking me out

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❀ HW: 218 ❀ LW: 112 ❀ CW: 126 ❀ GW: 120 ❀

❀ UGW: 103 ❀

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Posted 04 May 2020 - 08:50 PM

Hayhayhay

12:00am:
Strawberries 70

5am:
Oats 100
Pbfit 50

8am:
Ramen 290
Why tho

1pm:
Raspberry 55

5pm:
Oats 100
Pbfit 50
Rice roll 40

8pm:
Baby cereal 75

11:45pm lol:
Fruit 160

Total: 1,020

Steps: 15k

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Gonna play candy crush for an hour and chill.
Happy with my intake yesterday.

Need to break boredom eating and night feast habits.

I have been sober for 1.5 years.
I can white knuckle this.

Breathe.

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Posted 05 May 2020 - 10:30 PM

New calendar day, new post!

1:30am
3 laxatives
Tomatoes 30
Chicken 70
2 cake bites 110
Smoll banana 60

2pm:
Coffee 80
Rice cakes 70
Jelly 20

4pm: weight 129 (-4 recently)
Jelly sandwich 100
Oats 100
Pbfit 50

6pm: boredom eating
Egg 70
Apples 60

8pm:
Banana 65
Jelly sandwich 100

Total: 1,030

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OKAY. So. Worked 6 hours on my day off. May or may not also do that tomorrow... And the next day...

I know this is supposed to be my mental health 3 day weekend recovery BUT first of all, I'm still on overnights. So I can't do anything I like to do. As in, drive around, run little errands, create errands. So on.

I am night blind. And because of corona, everything is closed after like 6pm. How the fuck did people survive this in the old days? How did *i* survive this in the old days?!

So seeing as I can't do anything nice, I just go to work after my house chores are done so I have something to do pretty much. Thank god for overtime approval.

Plus when I go in on my time off, I get to work whatever department I want. Because who cares? I'm not even on the schedule. I'm just bonus. And may I say I'm an excellent bonus!

I don't know where I was going with any of this

I've been awake since about noon on Monday. It's currently after midnight, so, technically, Wednesday.

Gonna stop talking now because lord knows what dumb shit I'll say

Oh wait, my husband called me baby girl today. It made me so happy I teared up. Why is it so hard for him to do that regularly? Like? Am I missing something? Why do I have to beg him for verbal affection? Is he witholding it on purpose? Does he not love me? I'm 99% sure he loves me. Literally every other month I bring it up and he says he'll try and then doesn't. So disheartening.

I digress

By felicias

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Posted 06 May 2020 - 08:19 AM

Ooooh lordy I woke up and ALMOST flipped over and went back to sleep but then the lax hit

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Posted 06 May 2020 - 11:29 AM

I feel like I’m the only one who hates pet names

Probably because I’m a non-affectionate bitch

When that lax hits, it hits HARD

I’ve been woken up by it before

What a way to start the morning

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Posted 06 May 2020 - 10:06 PM

Post midnight

1am:
Tomatoes 30
Cucumber 30
Chicken pouch 70
Baby food 45
Kix 160 (didn't eat this shockingly)

I get monchy after work

4pm: weight 129 (i had morning skinny, bless)
Cheese rice cake 65
Jelly rice cake 45

6pm:
Veggie stuff 130
Yogurt 70

8:30pm:
Celery 35
Pretzels 90
Pbfit 100
Pudding 60

10pm:
Oatmeal 100
Pbfit 50
Roundabouts 50
Apple 90

Total: 1,100

Steps: 4k

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Another short day at work!

Good.

My husband's dumbass cat just started his dumbass shit. He tries over and over and over, for about 15 minutes, to walk to the arm of the couch (so i can't reach my food or vape or remote or drink) from the back of the couch. So I have to get all sideways and crooked and shit and try to continually block him

Ugh

I don't really have anything to say

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Posted 06 May 2020 - 11:50 PM

Bored to death ya'll. And my sleep schedule means that my cat isn't getting even half as many views as she normally does on her instagram!

I'm talking from 300-350 likes per picture... To 80.

Poor baby be sufferin

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Posted 07 May 2020 - 02:50 PM

GROCERIES

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Posted 07 May 2020 - 08:12 PM

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Posted 08 May 2020 - 07:07 AM

Your b/ps are so clean..
Mine involve way too much bread, cake and ice cream

Those Reign drinks were my shit during semesters!
Then I got too addicted to caffeine

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Posted 08 May 2020 - 11:25 AM

2pm: weight 131 death
Coffee 10
Vitamins 30

3pm:
Doughnut bite 70
Oatmeal 150
Pbfit 50

6pm:
Rice cakes 120
Rice roll 40
Protein cake 70

7pm:
Pretzels 90

9pm:
Melties 100

11pm:
Cheese sandwich 140
Rasperries 55
Yogurt 70

Total: 995

Steps: 9k lazy bones

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Work today, all night, all weekend, all next week, then I quit nights, no matter what, because fuck, and I'm done.

Prissypants is pissing me off. She keeps being passive aggressive and "forgetting" that she's approving shit then yelling at me for it while I text her screen shots catching her in her bullshit and she runs to daddy manager and cries about it.

Maybe if she untangled his dick from her mouth she'd actually get something done at work. But that's none of my buisiness.

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Posted 23 November 2020 - 08:54 AM

Before 9am:
Coffee 10
Vitamins 30

Before 12pm:
X

Before 3pm:
A single lifesaver

Before 6pm:
Gatorade 140

Before 9pm:
X

Before 12am:
X

Total: 180

Steps: 17k

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X_____X

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Posted 23 November 2020 - 11:13 AM

Did you make that gingerbread house ?

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Posted 23 November 2020 - 01:50 PM

morning.glory, on 23 Nov 2020 - 11:13 AM, said:

Did you make that gingerbread house ?

Yeah

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Posted 23 November 2020 - 01:59 PM

“A single lifesaver”
That’s so sad to read

Sending you so much love

Stay safe out there, okay?

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Posted 23 November 2020 - 03:40 PM

stressnhope, on 23 Nov 2020 - 1:59 PM, said:

“A single lifesaver”
That’s so sad to read
Sending you so much love
Stay safe out there, okay?

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I know, right?

My dinner was Gatorade again lol

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❀ HW: 218 ❀ LW: 112 ❀ CW: 126 ❀ GW: 120 ❀

❀ UGW: 103 ❀

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Posted 23 November 2020 - 08:25 PM

Made it through another day

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❀ UGW: 103 ❀

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Posted 24 November 2020 - 06:58 AM

Before 9am:
Coffee 10
Vitamins 30

Before 12pm:
Applesauce 70

Before 3pm:
X

Before 6pm:
X

Before 9pm:
Applesauce 70
A lifesaver

Before 12am:
Bone broth 45

Total: 225

Steps: 12k

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Got a lot to do before work today

And it's all financial shit which I don't understand because nobody ever taught me and my husband and I were supposed to be together forever sooooo I never asked either.

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❀ HW: 218 ❀ LW: 112 ❀ CW: 126 ❀ GW: 120 ❀

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Posted 24 November 2020 - 06:58 PM

Bruh so I went to the dealership to look at the car. He said he can't hold it, which, duh. But he said I could take it home tonight to test it out and buy it tomorrow!!! So I did!

And guess what

Like 10 minutes after I got home I got this text

"Some guy literally just came in to buy your car!! Good thing you took it overnight!!"

BLESS HOLY SHIT BLESS.

So I've got my loan and insurance and everything done and sorted, everyone is in contact with everyone, and all I have to do tomorrow is sell my car (easy) and buy the new one (easy)

Thank god. At least this is working.
Nothing else, but at least this.

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Posted 24 November 2020 - 10:22 PM

Hooray for a new car!

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Posted 24 November 2020 - 11:02 PM

stressnhope, on 24 Nov 2020 - 10:22 PM, said:

Hooray for a new car!

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I ate 2 pop tarts because cold and they're sugar cookie flavor

Thought you would like that

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Posted 25 November 2020 - 11:35 AM

Before 9am:
Coffee 10
Vitamins 30

Before 12pm:
Applesauce 50

Before 3pm:
Apple 50
Egg 70

Before 6pm:

Before 9pm:

Before 12am:

Total:

Steps:

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❀ UGW: 103 ❀

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Posted 25 November 2020 - 01:09 PM

I devoured the last of the Sunflower Seed Butter

Haven’t had pop tarts in so long!
The cinnamon brown sugar will always be my fav

Is the sugar cookie limited edition?
I’ve never heard of it before!

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Posted 26 November 2020 - 07:59 AM

stressnhope, on 25 Nov 2020 - 1:09 PM, said:

I devoured the last of the Sunflower Seed Butter
Haven’t had pop tarts in so long!
The cinnamon brown sugar will always be my fav
Is the sugar cookie limited edition?
I’ve never heard of it before!

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It is indeed limited edition! Definitely my favorite ever

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Posted 26 November 2020 - 07:59 AM

Before 9am:
Coffee 10
Vitamins 30

Before 12pm:

Before 3pm:

Before 6pm:

Before 9pm:

Before 12am:

Total:

Steps:

-

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X

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❀ HW: 218 ❀ LW: 112 ❀ CW: 126 ❀ GW: 120 ❀

❀ UGW: 103 ❀

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Posted 26 November 2020 - 02:18 PM

I ate
And vomited
French toast
And oreo pancakes

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Posted 26 November 2020 - 03:13 PM

That looks..
Delicious!

Once again, a food I have never seen before, lol

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Posted 27 November 2020 - 03:40 PM

Before 9am:
Coffee 10
Vitamins 30

Before 12pm:
Applesauce 60

Before 3pm:
X

Before 6pm:
Baby food squeezy 70

Before 9pm:
X

Before 12am:
X

Total: 180

Steps: 13k

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Fuck this tbh

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❀ HW: 218 ❀ LW: 112 ❀ CW: 126 ❀ GW: 120 ❀

❀ UGW: 103 ❀

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Posted 27 November 2020 - 09:23 PM

Not eating is really relaxing because that's one less thing I have to worry about rn. I got 99 problems but what I ate ain't one

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Posted 28 November 2020 - 07:26 AM

Before 9am:
Coffee 10
Vitamins 30

Before 12pm:
X

Before 3pm:
X

Before 6pm:
Gatorade 140
Baby food squeezy 70

Before 9pm:
X

Before 12am:
Oatmeal because I'm so cold 200

Total: 450

Steps: 13k

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Did I tell you guys I got a new car?
My very first car?
And I only owe 5k on it?

So soon it will me paid off and all mine?

Yes.

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❀ UGW: 103 ❀

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Posted 28 November 2020 - 07:28 AM

Car

stickers for anything you could possibly use to see where i live

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Posted 20 March 2021 - 03:42 PM

I hope that you return soon
But in a much better situation
If not, I wish you the best life
You are so sweet and loving
You deserve to be happy

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Posted 02 April 2021 - 07:29 PM

Still thinking of you, hun

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#3003 Totoro19

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Posted 10 May 2021 - 03:18 PM

I miss you

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#3004 damnsurewellavengeit

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Posted 16 February 2022 - 06:57 PM

I still think about you sometimes and hope you're out there doing ok

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Height:5ft9

HW:174+lbs

LW: 121lbs, Fall 2015
SW:158.8lbs, March 2019
CW:130.4lbs (09/11/2019, 5:56am)
~~GW1: 132lbs~~

GW2: 128lbs (hopefully before end of November)
GW3:125lbs (hopefully before December 4th)
GW4:121lbs (hopefully before christmas but at least before the end of the year)
GW5:118lbs (unrealistic end of the year goal)
UGW:114lbs (February/March 2020)

UUGW:105lbs - 114lbs range (preferably before April 2020 but there's no real rush, any time before June)

~~138|137|136|135|134|133|132|131~~|130|129|128|127|126|125|124|123|122|121|120|119|118|117|116|115|114|113|112|111|110|109|108|107|106|105!!!

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Posted 30 January 2021 - 07:14 AM

Still eating

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❀ Days binge free: 1 ❀

❀ Days sober: 317 ❀

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❀ Pounds/Inches ❀ Age: 28 ❀ Height: 5'6.5" ❀ 09/2018 ❀ SW 204 ❀

❀ HW: 218 ❀ LW: 112 ❀ CW: 126 ❀ GW: 120 ❀

❀ UGW: 103 ❀

#2982 Totoro19

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Posted 30 January 2021 - 02:55 PM

Same ... yikes

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#2983 PrincessAbby

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Posted 31 January 2021 - 11:55 AM

Bleh

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❀ Days binge free: 1 ❀

❀ Days sober: 317 ❀

❀ Accountability:❀

❀ Pounds/Inches ❀ Age: 28 ❀ Height: 5'6.5" ❀ 09/2018 ❀ SW 204 ❀

❀ HW: 218 ❀ LW: 112 ❀ CW: 126 ❀ GW: 120 ❀

❀ UGW: 103 ❀

#2984 In-a-cloud

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Posted 01 February 2021 - 06:21 PM

sending you love and light

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#2985 brevity

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Posted 02 February 2021 - 04:51 PM

Also sending you some positivity <3 I lurk a lot but I hope you can find some peace and happy these days!

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+ accountability +

i owe this to myself.

5' | 152.4cm

sw: 188lbs

lw: 151

pw: 173.0 | 2/03/2021

cw: 171.6 | 2/11/2021

~~gw1: 174~~ | gw2: 153

ugw: 97

fmfl.

2021. let's do this shit!

#2986 PrincessAbby

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Posted 05 February 2021 - 04:56 PM

I got a date for the house closing and that's what tipped me over the edge, knowing I have to deal with it. One more thing to add to the list. The list that only gets longer, no matter how much you do.

I need out. I'm getting out. Hopefully I can last until next month.

Somewhere around 160

I'm gonna try to get to 145 before my forever sleep. Mid march would be good.

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❀ Days binge free: 1 ❀

❀ Days sober: 317 ❀

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❀ Pounds/Inches ❀ Age: 28 ❀ Height: 5'6.5" ❀ 09/2018 ❀ SW 204 ❀

❀ HW: 218 ❀ LW: 112 ❀ CW: 126 ❀ GW: 120 ❀

❀ UGW: 103 ❀

#2987 stressnhope

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Posted 05 February 2021 - 08:00 PM

Please do not end your life, hun
I really hope that you get mental help
Ik that you said you can’t, but it seems vital
You deserve to be here, hun
Ik that it’s difficult to handle, but you can do this!
Trust me that you can and will get through this!
Please stay with us long enough to see

Love you so much!

Please reach out if you ever want to vent

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Height: 5'3

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#2988 BlueMist99

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Posted 07 February 2021 - 08:21 PM

Whoa hun, what about your pup? I am a working dog trainer and can I give you things to do with your babies? Maybe even your cats? Those are your babies and they need you.

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#2989 In-a-cloud

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Posted 09 February 2021 - 01:04 PM

please don't abandon your animals and us.

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#2990 Totoro19

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Posted 12 February 2021 - 02:07 PM

Can I send you a care package ? Pm me please?

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#2991 Totoro19

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Posted 14 February 2021 - 06:05 PM

Miss you

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#2992 damnsurewellavengeit

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Posted 16 February 2021 - 04:30 PM

I hope you're still here

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Height:5ft9

HW:174+lbs

LW: 121lbs, Fall 2015
SW:158.8lbs, March 2019
CW:130.4lbs (09/11/2019, 5:56am)
~~GW1: 132lbs~~

~~138|137|136|135|134|133|132|131~~|130|129|128|127|126|125|124|123|122|121|120|119|118|117|116|115|114|113|112|111|110|109|108|107|106|105!!!

#2993 stressnhope

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Posted 23 February 2021 - 09:15 PM

I sincerely hope that you are okay, hun

Please send a message if you need to talk

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#2994 Totoro19

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Posted 02 March 2021 - 11:02 PM

I miss you

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Posted 05 March 2021 - 09:27 AM

It’s been a whole month..
I really hope that you are doing well
We’ll be waiting for when you come back

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#2996 Crystalia

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Posted 05 March 2021 - 05:07 PM

Please don't do it hon. Please come back.

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#2997 Alice_in_Wonderland99

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Posted 05 March 2021 - 05:18 PM

Hello,

i just found this accountability and you are so inspiring.I love your writing style, everything is expressed with such an accuracy and i relate to many things. I am still reading. Good luck!!! I will have more things to say once i read more

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#2998 brevity

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Posted 05 March 2021 - 09:31 PM

I hope you're still with us.

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+ accountability +

i owe this to myself.

5' | 152.4cm

sw: 188lbs

lw: 151

pw: 173.0 | 2/03/2021

cw: 171.6 | 2/11/2021

~~gw1: 174~~ | gw2: 153

ugw: 97

fmfl.

2021. let's do this shit!

#2999 stressnhope

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Posted 10 March 2021 - 08:35 PM

Sending positivity your way, lovely

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#3000 Alice_in_Wonderland99

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Posted 11 March 2021 - 07:27 PM

I finished reading. Like everyone else, i want to tell you i feel i have been with you during the whole time and i miss you too. I wish you the best

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