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100g of the "ice cream..." so good! - 142cal
75g chicken tender - 160cal
75g ct again 160
85g of more ice cream - 120
1 strawberry banana yogurt - 70cal
655 calories today 
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149.2? Feeling bloated but understandable
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I'm mad a little but ugh I know I'm just bloated
dunno what I'll eat today actually
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yogurt - 70
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ice cream later - 240
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fαye, on 20 Jan 2022 - 3:33 PM, said:
Just noticed I’ve been hovering 178~177 for 15 days now… come on, come on, come on.
I’ve said this before but I really do think I only lose in wooshes lol. I wonder why?
I'm like this, too. Basically, your body has fat cells. Those never go away, so it's always easier for someone who's been overweight already to gain it back rather than someone who's skinny to gain weight. Well, anyway, those fat cells never really go away, they just shrink. In the process of those fat cells shrinking, your body fills those now empty fat cells up with water, in anticipation for them to be filled with fat again. After your body is "sure" you're not going to fill the fat cells up with more fat, all the water is released. Almighty "woosh". lol
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Hi, I'm new to your thread and I just went through everything and got caught up!
I'm 5'2" and restarting at 200.8 from a HW of 210 last April. I had lost 15 to 195 and then maintained there for months on end. I wanna get serious about weight loss again! My binge eating/drinking has been out of control. You're doing so amazingly!
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Anna2016, on 04 May 2022 - 2:21 PM, said:
Still 140s tho!! Amazing, Well done
Thank you Anna!
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Hi, I'm new to your thread and I just went through everything and got caught up!
I'm 5'2" and restarting at 200.8 from a HW of 210 last April. I had lost 15 to 195 and then maintained there for months on end. I wanna get serious about weight loss again! My binge eating/drinking has been out of control. You're doing so amazingly!
Hi there Desmond!! Thanks for reading Yes-- binge eating is what got me so "up there" in the first place, reactive eating I believe, so it's super important to get that under control; but I'm sure you don't need me to tell you that!
What weight are you trying to get down to, if you don't mind me asking?
ILiveToMosh, on 04 May 2022 - 5:02 PM, said:
I'm like this, too. Basically, your body has fat cells. Those never go away, so it's always easier for someone who's been overweight already to gain it back rather than someone who's skinny to gain weight. Well, anyway, those fat cells never really go away, they just shrink. In the process of those fat cells shrinking, your body fills those now empty fat cells up with water, in anticipation for them to be filled with fat again. After your body is "sure" you're not going to fill the fat cells up with more fat, all the water is released. Almighty "woosh". lol
Ooo that makes sense; I learned a lot about the fat cells never going away when I was doing intensive research on plastic surgery and all that, but never applied it to the woosh effect. That's so interesting; I guess that's why there are people who are always consistently losing in a calorie deficit, and people like me who only lose in the wooshes!
Thanks for the info!! 
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150.2
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Chai latte - 201:201 ratio - 88 calories
85g ice cream - 120
208 calories and so tasty.
I really want chicken lately hhhh. Like strips or a sandwich. Or maybe Indian food?
maybe on Monday I’ll go to my Indian food place and get some baingan bharta before my final exam for the semester
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I’ve been webcamming w my ldr boyfriend lately (it’s been 4 years tomorrow into our relationship and we didnt really webcam cause we’re shy but now we do everyday!) and he saw me lying down in my gamer chair. He said my chair looks like a bed for me because I’m “so tiny.” Omg my mans, I’m literally almost obese but you think I’m tiny? Just watch while I get to my goal weight!!
it got me thinking about how the girls he sends me to look at (I don’t mind, they’re very pretty w nice fashion) are usually petite in weight, so maybe he likes that, idk? either way it’s free thinspo!
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happy may!!! and happy anniversary!! 4 years!
what a compliment from him, that you're tiny!
your kroger list sounds delishhhhhh. i got some outshine coffee ice cream bars that ar 80 calories. they're really good, but rainbow sherbert?? that sounds AMAZING i'll have to look for it.
nice weight loss for april, better than i did!
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Posted 04 May 2022 - 01:59 PM
Handful of cornflakes
3 tbsp of yoghurt
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Slimfast Shit bar 100
About 165 cals
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Stopped eating at 9pm so I'm gonna do a 24hr fast
my mums started doing it, she fasts for 24hrs then eats 3000 calories. I'm so jealous, i can't believe I'm diagnosed with AN but I can't fast, even tho I'm not really anorexic it's still embarrassing. My mums diagnosed with bed tho so we do have similar illnesses.I know its probably not a good idea for me to fast but I've done about 6 in total and I've had disordered eating for 6 years
Honestly I've been suicidal recently even tho I won't do it, idc if my ed harms me. My ugw is important so I'll still try and get there anyway I can, if I do a bit of damage its not the end of the world
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had a nice salad for 70 cals then had some bread cuz ugh impulse control and already done it but I had the smallest piece ever so like 120? Then robbed two cereal bars so that's 300Purged my dinner and the salad all came up, had bare shakes after. Im so brain fogged I sent nudes without second thought after a kid from my class who asked, the fuck am I doing. Who knows, who cares, its funny lol
Ended up bping a little bit very ill now
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I will work on that but I want to try eating under 200 for a bit cuz I feel like a fat bastardSent from my SM-A326B using Tapatalk
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hello! i'm emmi and this is my accountability thread for 2022
this is my first accountability, and what better time to start than the new year?
my hope is that this will help keep me organized and motivated to finally reach my goals this year
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❄ january ❄
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goal weight: 105 lbs/bmi: 21.2
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weigh-ins: mondays
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❄ january 1, 2022 ❄
weigh-in: 115.5 lbs/bmi: 23.3
water intake: 1 liter
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started the year off with a fast! i've always been obsessed with the new year as a sort of "clean slate" and fresh start, and fasting helps me "cleanse" physically from the previous year as i try to move on mentally. i’m shooting for 60hrs (breaking at noon on monday) but with work and all this weekend, if need be i’ll break sooner.
my plan for january is to do veganuary. i failed miserably when i tried doing it a couple years ago, but going in with a coherent plan really makes things look less daunting. hoping i stick it through and don’t give up at the slightest slip-up! i really need to manage my “all or nothing” mentality and keep moving forward despite any mistakes. progress most of the time is better than no progress, and i can’t be “perfect” no matter how hard i neurotically try to control every aspect of my life.
here’s to a new year!
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Posted 02 January 2022 - 06:12 AM
i’m also guilty of the all or nothing mentality :c it’s very unproductive in the end. and you’re right, small progress is still progress! good luck with your fast <3
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following! it seems that we have similar rules and this is such a nice and organized accountability. good luck reaching your goals in the new year <3
thanks a bunch! ♡ hope this is a good year for you, too!
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i’m also guilty of the all or nothing mentality :c it’s very unproductive in the end. and you’re right, small progress is still progress! good luck with your fast <3
thank you! ♡ i have pretty severe ocd, and my obsession with absolute perfection will be my downfall! hopefully we can break away from that mentality bit by bit and stop holding ourselves back!
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this accountability is so pretty!! wishing you the best ❤️
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this accountability is so pretty!! wishing you the best ❤️
thanks so much!!! same to you! ♡
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Posted 03 January 2022 - 06:00 AM
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weigh-in: n/a
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i had to break my fast at 41.5 hrs (＞ˍ＜) but i won’t be too hard on myself considering that around the 39-hr mark, while at work, i quite honestly thought i was dying lol ( i felt very, VERY faint and nauseous). it’s definitely a bummer, especially since i’ve had longer fasts that went much smoother, but lesson learned that sometimes pharmacy work and extended fasting don’t go well together.
once i got home from my shift, i ate 30 grams of raw almonds and felt much better, although it took a bit for my nausea to finally go away. surprisingly, i didn’t feel any hunger afterwards, so i’ll still be able to fit in an 18-hr fast until my next meal at 12pm.
later in the evening i went grocery shopping, which i’m always excited for! a couple months ago, i saved up and purchased the “5-day detox plan” bundle from the brand Your Super with the intention of starting the new year with it. while i don’t like to buy into the whole “detox” fad, i really like how simple and nutritious this plan is: it's a set of four organic superfood mixes and includes a completely plant-based diet plan that incorporates plenty of whole foods. armed with a detailed meal plan for the week, i bought a variety of fruits and veggies, while also stocking up on some spices/seasonings. i can’t wait to start this afternoon! i really want to see whether my energy levels and mood improve at all, even by just a little bit.
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weigh-in: 111.0 lbs/bmi: 22.4
time fasted: 18 hrs
water intake: 16 oz (i really need to work on drinking more water)
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lunch: green smoothie (175)
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dinner: green goddess salad (532)
total calories: 947 kcal
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day one down and i can already tell this week is going to be a good one!
this was the first time i've ever had a green smoothie (my go-to has always been berry), and i must say, it did not disappoint! my only complaint is with one of the superfood mixes in the recipe, "golden mellow," which has ginger in it (of which i am not the biggest fan). after some sips, the ginger seemed to overpower the flavor of the entire smoothie and i could only stomach less than half of it. the mix is great incorporated into meals, but i'm going to have to pass on adding it to any future smoothies. as much as i would love to like ginger, its flavor just seems too medicinal and leaves me gagging.
dinner was amazing! the recipe, while simple, turned out incredibly tasty and i had fun arranging my plate. i'm particularly obsessed with the tahini dressing that went with the salad. i was worried the ingredients and flavors would clash, but it came out perfect and i just couldn't get enough! i think fasting for the last couple days really helped readjust my taste buds, because everything just seemed to burst with flavor and i needed very little seasoning and salt, as the veggies proved to be very delicious on their own. needless to say, these recipes are definitely going to become staples in my normal diet, and with meals like these, going plant-based this month is going to be a breeze!
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Posted 04 January 2022 - 06:03 AM
omg that salad is gorgeous! it looks so good.
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babybeIs, on 04 Jan 2022 - 06:03 AM, said:
omg that salad is gorgeous! it looks so good.
thank you, it really was delicious! let me know if you want the recipe, i could dm you!
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thank you,
it really was delicious! let me know if you want the recipe, i could dm you!
i’d love that! <3 if it’s not too much trouble of course x
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babybeIs, on 04 Jan 2022 - 06:20 AM, said:
i’d love that! <3 if it’s not too much trouble of course x
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How do all of you manage to snap these pics? All of your food looks so good (￣﹃￣) Following cause your accountability's super aesthetic and inspiring!
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How do all of you manage to snap these pics? All of your food looks so good (￣﹃￣) Following cause your accountability's super aesthetic and inspiring!
thanks so much! ♡♡♡
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thank you so much!! (っ＾◡＾)っ ♡♡♡ i’m gonna try it soon.
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thank you so much!! (っ＾◡＾)っ ♡♡♡ i’m gonna try it soon.
no problem! ♡ let me know what you think when you do!
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Posted 05 January 2022 - 06:00 AM
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weigh-in: 110.0 lbs/bmi: 22.2
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another day, another salad!
i honestly wasn’t even going to eat today. i didn’t get home until around 6pm and wasn’t hungry at all, but i’m working everyday until friday and can’t risk being weak when i have a lot of running around to do during my shift.
i was really looking forward to having a smoothie today, but it was getting too late so i just settled on doing omad and made a huge bowl of salad. the recipe was pretty good, but i just wasn’t a fan of the dressing, which used the “golden mellow” mix. there was a bitterness to it that (thankfully) was off-setted by the sweetness of the bell peppers, but i just don’t think i’ll be using this mix much anymore, which sucks because the container’s still pretty full. hopefully i can find a way to use it all up, maybe by using less of it in recipes so it doesn’t over-power the dish.
tomorrow i have an appointment with a new primary care doctor, so naturally i’ve been frantic to lose as much weight as possible beforehand. hopefully by tomorrow i’ll be around (or even under) 109 lbs, since i’m doing a physical and can’t bear the thought of having anything over 110 lbs documented anywhere lol. it’s great and all that i’ve managed to lose a good amount of weight pretty quickly into the year, but i swear, nothing’s more depressing than trying to lose weight you’ve already lost before. i just want to go to sleep and wake up at 80lbs (つ﹏<)･ﾟ｡
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i forgot how much i loved these nourish bowls!
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weigh-in: 110.4 lbs/bmi: 22.3
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am i going to eat the exact same thing everyday this week? probably lol
as much as i love school, i'm pretty excited for the semester to finally end so my brain can take a much needed break. i'll make up a list of summer goals i have by the end of the week so i don't waste yet another break being unproductive. i'm really looking forward to warmer weather and taking early morning walks around my neighborhood again ♡
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having to come up with different meals every day is exhausting tbh. sometimes it's nice to just eat the same thing haha xx
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having to come up with different meals every day is exhausting tbh. sometimes it's nice to just eat the same thing haha xx
gosh, i know! it's definitely fun finding new safe meals, but honestly i'm always so afraid i'm going to end of hating what i made and ultimately waste my calories (;¬_¬)
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switching it up for once! i'm so glad this came out so tasty, but i definitely need to tweak the recipe for the sauce, especially with its consistency. but overall, pretty good and filling!
today was finals day and i think i did pretty okay on my calculus final. i spent a good time studying and even had almonds in the morning to "enhance brain function" lol. i'd be pretty upset if i did poorly, so i'm keeping my fingers crossed. i still have a make-up test to take on friday, and then i'm free for the summer! i really miss going to bed without feeling the impending doom of an upcoming due date.
also, i'm back under 110 lbs! i just have to keep telling myself, "this is the biggest i'll let myself be again," until i make it a reality. i'm so tired of keeping myself from hitting my goal weight. i'm the only thing standing in my way.
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weigh-ins: weekly
i love how i always have weekly weigh-ins as a monthly rule, knowing damn well i'm going to be weighing myself everyday, multiple times a day lol
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weigh-in: 108.6 lbs/bmi: 21.9
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afternoon snack: raw almonds (91) + almond butter rice cake (240)
dinner: whole grain medley bowl (612)
evening snack: gala apple (86) + strawberries (32)
total calories: 1,061 kcal
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Posted 27 April 2022 - 05:30 AM
Long story short it's been a really intense, awful mess of binge, purge, restrict, lax, overexercise, panic, repeat. I completely lost my voice for a day and a bit from purging so hard.
I'm feeling more stable now, but feel like warmed over garbage generally speaking, and now I'm facing a whole weekend of birthday meals for my SO with her family. I'm going to just persist with my casual dissociation until that's done with, and when I can get some semblance of control again and we finally hit the day after my SO's birthday (next Tuesday) I'll be back with regular updates.
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I hope you're all doing okay.
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Thinking of you coffee, hope you're taking care as much as possible <3
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Posted Yesterday, 01:16 PM
I've just been so miserable and exhausted I haven't felt up to writing or posting pics, I haven't even done any work for uni. It's just a complete freeze to just stop and breathe and get a grip while I pretend my life isn't crumbling around me, because there's no freaking pause button.
Since my last proper post it's been binge, purge, lax, overexercise, panic, repeat and fam, I am tired. Sort of got things slightly under control again, then had a horrible fight with my SO in the car which verged on a breakup. On a drive to an event with her family too, where we acted out like everything was fine, and I wore her sunglasses because my eyes were horrifically bloodshot from crying. It's resolved now, as much as anything with her is ever resolved, but it triggered me real hard and hey! Suddenly no more binge urges at all, when it's been incessant lately. At least that's something. To be honest I was almost relieved when it seemed like that was going to be the end of my relationship. The passive aggression is getting crazy and I feel like I live with a particularly volatile stranger. But no, no breakup after all.
Now I'm just tired again.
It feels sometimes like she's settled on one sole way of seeing and understanding me and there's nothing I can do to make her really listen and really see me and really 'get' anything I mean if it doesn't match her image of me. So everything I say is automatically wrong, and me being upset is a personal attack. My options seem to be to never express anything, or just accept that every time I try to speak up I'll spent the next few days dealing with the fallout. I'm soul levels of tired and I've had adrenaline for days.
Oh, and I didn't sleep for 38 hours for a period this week, so my insomnia is going great.
On a good note, I'm braving going back to ballet not at my lowest weight! New studio so hopefully no familiar faces, but still. I'm hoping throwing myself back into dance will give me something to focus on that isn't just how awful my home life is getting. First class I'm enrolled in is next Sunday. Mother's Day. I was just gonna do ballet at home on my barre but it sounds like such a nice way to get out for a while. I'll have to get some new shoes and tights this week. Maybe dancing again will make me physically tired enough to sleep.
Trying to focus on all of that right now because additionally, between relationship dramas and work and my ED and general misery, my doctor is getting vaguely desperate to know my weight. She actually dragged a scale right over to me, right in front of my chair, and then spent ten minutes trying to convince me to just step on it. We made a compromise in that I'll do her pile of blood tests and maybe try booking a new psych, and she gives up on her scale dream for two full weeks before she's allowed to ask again.
So yeah a lot happening all at once, and none of it remotely comfortable.
I'll be updating as normal from tonight though so it'll be nice to have a bit of a routine again xxx thanks for sticking around while I went all chaos incarnate. ♡
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April 2022
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08-Apr - 124.4 lbs / 56.42 kg / BMI 17.85
02-Apr - 123.8 lbs / 56.14 kg / BMI 17.76
01-Apr - 124.4 lbs / 56.42 kg / BMI 17.85
March 2022
29-Mar - 125.6 lbs / 56.96 kg / BMI 18.02
17-Mar - 127.6 lbs / 57.87 kg / BMI 18.31
02-Mar - 129.0 lbs / 59.50 kg / BMI 18.52
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Posted Yesterday, 06:09 PM
</3...i hope you're sleeping better now 
sorry to hear about the fights with your SO. feeling like you live with a volatile stranger is not what relationships should be about.
ballet sounds great! i'm glad you've signed yourself up. i wish i stuck with ballet when i started it in elementary school, i remember it being a lot of fun. looking forward to hearing about your ballet sessions at the new studio!
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no, but i've always been interested!
I hope you can go one day!! Idk where you're from but they're so fun and the vibes are usually 10/10
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Posted 01 May 2022 - 04:23 AM
April 30, 2022
Weight: 110.6 lbs
Activity: 3883 steps
TDEE: 1554
Water: 1L
Intake: 942 + b/p 8307
The number on the scale today pissed me off and then I tried to eat some cheezits but that triggered me to b/p LMAO and then I went out and got more food to binge on. The food was super good but hopefully I won't b/p for a few days since I have to go back to work tomorrow. My friend came at 9pm tonight to make kandi bracelets and I was planning to b/p again after he left but he didn't leave until 4am (20 mins ago) and I'm too tired to binge now so I'm just gonna go to sleep lol
19 more days ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
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Posted 04 May 2022 - 04:16 AM
May 3, 2022
Weight: 111.8 lbs
Activity: 7768 steps
TDEE: 1639
Water: 3.5L
Intake: 870
LMAO for the last 2 days I b/p'd after work and yesterday morning I weighed 112.2 lbs and got really fucking triggered HAHAHHAHAHAH I seriously hate myself. I took 3 dulcolax last night after binging because I didn't purge some stuff and weighed 111.8 lbs this morning which still really fucking pisses me off but at least I restricted today so hopefully my weight will go down tomorrow. I seriously need to stop b/ping after work because it's usually unplanned which means I mid or high restrict during the day and then if I don't purge everything (which I know I haven't been the last 2 nights) then there's a lot more calories absorbed smh
16 more days!!!!!!!! Almost all of my ordered outfits and stuff have been delivered and it feels like everything is finally coming together yay
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Posted Yesterday, 04:31 AM
May 4, 2022
Weight: 110.4 lbs
Activity: 7903 steps
TDEE: 1626
Water: 5L
Intake: 993
Ok I woke up today back in the 110s which makes me feel a little better but I'm still annoyed because I'm back at where I was a few days ago -____- I'm still so fucking hungry holy shit and what's even worse is that I don't think I have the time to b/p this weekend. I'm off Friday, Saturday and Sunday but my friend is coming over all days to make kandi and perlers at night so I guess I could b/p in the afternoon but that shit leaves me so fucking drained and tired ugh idk. My reflective set came in the mail today and it's so cute but I feel like a fat fuck in it so maybe I should hold off on the b/ping idk
15 more days omg almost 2 weeks left weoooooo very excited for zeds dead
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Posted Today, 04:39 AM
May 5, 2022
Weight: 110.2 lbs
Activity: 7593 steps
TDEE: 1648
Water: 3L
Intake: 993
Yo what the fuck why is my weight not leaving the 110s hoooooly shit someone please shoot me. I'm going to the border tomorrow with my friend because we ordered some lunchbox hydration packs and sent it to his PO box in the states since it costs 3x the amount to ship here to Canada LMAO. We're planning to leave at around 5PMish because he still has to work so I'm going to b/p in the afternoon. I've been wanting to eat sushi and Chinese takeout for so long and I almost went to buy some tonight after work but I reminded myself that I'd be bloated as fuck in the morning since I'd already ate so much during the day so tomorrow I'll buy everything I want to b/p on and not eat anything else. I'm excited to eat sushi again from the one place I usually get it from because the rolls are fat as FUCK and something about it just hits different from other places
14 more days!!!! Here's another set with zeds dead but its a b2b with griz and I'm fucking HYPED
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Posted Today, 08:49 AM
Yesterday I ate maybe 1/3 bowl of ramen, i was mostly craving the broth. The noodles made me bloated which I hate. And although they satisfied my hunger it didn’t help my hangover because there was no nutritional value.
And for lunch/dinner I had honey garlic chicken thigh (2) and a small portion of rice.
Nothing else for the day which I was proud of. And yeah i didn’t count calories but I’m kind of a lazy fuck lol.
Today is a day off work, my boyfriend is also off so we’ll see how well I manage to restrict today.
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Posted Today, 11:02 AM
Kinda think I want to go back down to 600 or maybe 500 cals again once this weekend is over. I’m definitely fatter. I don’t think I’m imagining it. It feels so disgusting.
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