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Posted 02 May 2022 - 10:03 PM
Calories total today: 775
-Morning: Nothing
-Afternoon: Coffee (0 cals) + Vanilla Nutpods Creamer (20 cals) + Lakanto Sweetener (0 cals) + Banana (120 cals) + Instant miso soup (35 cals)
-Evening: Vegetable Masala curry (280 cals) + 2 tbsp coconut cream (60 cals) + Steamed cauliflower (75 cals) + Yellow curry spice (5 cals) + Grilled chicken (100 cals) + A&W Root Beer Zero Sugar (0 cals)
Extra: Lemon Two Good yogurt (80 cals)
Exercise: n/a
I had a busy weekend doing stuff with my mom, so didn’t update. I didn’t restrict and ended up eating ~a lot~; which thankfully allowed me to have a much needed poop, but I’m also swollen af and retaining a lot of water so still haven’t weighed myself. I don’t think I’ve gotten on the scale in weeks and I’ve probably gained “real” weight. But I decided to stick with 800 cals a day anyway.
Sunday morning we went out for breakfast at a local diner near my place, the waitress was a girl I went to high school with and she recognized me 😶 it was fucking awkward. And of course it was like 9 am so I was in sweats with a messy bun and no makeup bc I don’t function before noon and couldn’t be bothered to make myself look human.
I felt kinda nauseated all evening. I’m not sure if it’s from the new medication or what, supposedly nausea can be a side effect. At least I haven’t had any migraines so far.
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Posted 02 May 2022 - 10:06 PM
CarmenYuna, on 30 Apr 2022 - 06:07 AM, said:
Thank you <3 I appreciate that. The lighting is different I suppose, but also I was only like 20 years old in the older pic so I guess I shouldn’t expect my body to look exactly the same anyway (especially having hit my HW in the time between them.)you look honestly perfect. And your outfit is super pretty! Especially because of your skin tone, hair color and eyes, you wear green tones so well <3 I think you look of the same BMI in both pics, but since there's more shadow in the older pic and more lighting is hitting your body in the recent one, it just makes it appear differently. Also, your ass is cute and looks very lifted!
I hope those new migraine meds will work for you this time, like actually whenever you need them to.
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Posted 03 May 2022 - 09:41 PM
Calories total today: 790
-Morning: Plain instant oatmeal (110 cals) + Vanilla Nutpods creamer (20 cals) + ½ banana (60 cals) + Swerve brown sugar substitute sweetener (0 cals) + Pinch of cinnamon (5 cals) + Coffee (0 cals) + Vanilla Nutpods Creamer (20 cals) + Lakanto sweetener (0 cals)
-Afternoon: Strawberry Two Good yogurt (80 cals)
-Evening: Seafood Udon noodle bowl (290 cals) + 2 soft boiled eggs (140 cals) + Green onions (5 cals) + Baby shrimp (60 cals) + A&W Root Beer Zero Sugar (0 cals)
Exercise: n/a
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Posted 04 May 2022 - 10:09 PM
Calories total today: 770
-Morning: Chai Tea (0 cals) + Vanilla Nutpods creamer (30 cals)
-Afternoon: Mango Hibiscus Two Good yogurt (80 cals) + Birthday Cake Quest Protein bar (180 cals)
-Evening: Tom Yum rice noodle soup bowl (250 cals) + 2 tbsp coconut cream (60 cals) + Baby shrimp (60 cals) + Thai basil (5 cals) + Green onions (5 cals) + Toasted seaweed snack (30 cals) + Soft boiled quail eggs (70 cals) + A&W Root Beer Zero Sugar (0 cals)
Exercise: n/a
My husband wants us to go out with some of his work friends on Friday, and then we’re spending the weekend at my mom’s house for Mother’s Day. I’ve had so many interruptions to my routine lately and I feel really overwhelmed, like I could have a panic attack at any moment. That’s only like 4 days to restrict in between last weekend when I saw my mom and this one. I hope after this I’ll have a good solid month AT LEAST to start maybe losing weight again, but the universe always finds ways to come in and fuck that up.
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Posted 04 May 2022 - 10:11 PM
DistressedOrange, on 04 May 2022 - 03:54 AM, said:
Thank you <3 but definitely not tbh, I feel like I hardly even look underweight. I’d kill to be even half as tiny as you are.You're soooo skinny. Absolute goals <3
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☆PaisleySky☆, on 04 May 2022 - 10:09 PM, said:
Weight: n/a
Calories total today: 770
-Morning: Chai Tea (0 cals) + Vanilla Nutpods creamer (30 cals)
-Afternoon: Mango Hibiscus Two Good yogurt (80 cals) + Birthday Cake Quest Protein bar (180 cals)
-Evening: Tom Yum rice noodle soup bowl (250 cals) + 2 tbsp coconut cream (60 cals) + Baby shrimp (60 cals) + Thai basil (5 cals) + Green onions (5 cals) + Toasted seaweed snack (30 cals) + Soft boiled quail eggs (70 cals) + A&W Root Beer Zero Sugar (0 cals)
Exercise: n/a
My husband wants us to go out with some of his work friends on Friday, and then we’re spending the weekend at my mom’s house for Mother’s Day. I’ve had so many interruptions to my routine lately and I feel really overwhelmed, like I could have a panic attack at any moment. That’s only like 4 days to restrict in between last weekend when I saw my mom and this one. I hope after this I’ll have a good solid month AT LEAST to start maybe losing weight again, but the universe always finds ways to come in and fuck that up.
You are sooo consistent and that’s going to pay off. I bet you’ve lost since your last weigh-in.
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HW: 140 lbs/ BMI 21.9 ///// LW: 104 lbs/BMI 16.7
CW: 125.4 lbs/ BMI 19.58 updated May 3rd, 2022
GW 1: 125 lbs /BMI 19.5 / Goal met: May 3rd, 2022
GW 2: 120 lbs / BMI 18.8 / Goal met:
** UGW: 115 lbs / BMI 18.0 / Goal met: **
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☆PaisleySky☆, on 04 May 2022 - 10:09 PM, said:
Weight: n/a
Calories total today: 770
-Morning: Chai Tea (0 cals) + Vanilla Nutpods creamer (30 cals)
-Afternoon: Mango Hibiscus Two Good yogurt (80 cals) + Birthday Cake Quest Protein bar (180 cals)
-Evening: Tom Yum rice noodle soup bowl (250 cals) + 2 tbsp coconut cream (60 cals) + Baby shrimp (60 cals) + Thai basil (5 cals) + Green onions (5 cals) + Toasted seaweed snack (30 cals) + Soft boiled quail eggs (70 cals) + A&W Root Beer Zero Sugar (0 cals)
Exercise: n/a
My husband wants us to go out with some of his work friends on Friday, and then we’re spending the weekend at my mom’s house for Mother’s Day. I’ve had so many interruptions to my routine lately and I feel really overwhelmed, like I could have a panic attack at any moment. That’s only like 4 days to restrict in between last weekend when I saw my mom and this one. I hope after this I’ll have a good solid month AT LEAST to start maybe losing weight again, but the universe always finds ways to come in and fuck that up.
You are sooo consistent and that’s going to pay off. I bet you’ve lost since your last weigh-in.
"We've been given the dignity of choice; to become a part of what we could be, or all that we can be."
HW: 140 lbs/ BMI 21.9 ///// LW: 104 lbs/BMI 16.7
CW: 125.4 lbs/ BMI 19.58 updated May 3rd, 2022
GW 1: 125 lbs /BMI 19.5 / Goal met: May 3rd, 2022
GW 2: 120 lbs / BMI 18.8 / Goal met:
** UGW: 115 lbs / BMI 18.0 / Goal met: **
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Posted Yesterday, 09:38 PM
Calories total today: 800
-Morning: Nothing
-Afternoon: Plain instant oatmeal (110 cals) + Swerve brown sugar substitute (0 cals) + Vanilla Nutpods Creamer (20 cals) + Apple (100 cals)
-Evening: Chicken tortilla soup (370 cals) + 2 tbsp sour cream (60 cals) + Shredded cheese (60 cals) + A&W Root Beer Zero Sugar (0 cals)
Extra: Strawberry Two Good yogurt for “dessert” (80 cals)
Exercise: Errands, a walk
I had a massive anxiety attack today because I won’t be able to restrict this weekend, and then I cried forever in the shower because my body disgusts me and I’m getting really worried I actually have gained. I’m jigglier looking and doughier. Theoretically it could all be in my head, but I genuinely feel like it’s not… If I weigh myself it will probably make me feel even worse.
I was super cranky all evening and snapped at my husband for no reason as well, which I feel terrible about. AND to make matters worse, I felt vaguely crampy in the abdomen, and I’m worried my period is going to come back.
Also found out that my aunt from out of state is coming here for a funeral (no one in our family, not the same great aunt who is in hospice care) so I’m probably going to see her this weekend. Last time she visited, it was just a few weeks before my relapse and I was at my HW. She mentioned to me that I looked “the healthiest she’d ever seen me” (🤮 not likely bc I was just a few lbs from being overweight…) I haven’t seen her since then and have lost nearly 50 lbs in that time, so she’s probably going to notice my weight loss and say something, and ask me if I’m okay and shit because she knows about my ED history. Really hoping she won’t mention it. I know people mean well, but it makes things so insanely awkward. I hate when people worry about me.
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